Chapter 29
P.O.V. AUTHOR
Alice was about to turn 9 months and any moment the baby could be born. Yes she found out it was a girl, she also found out she developed a strong depression during pregnancy, we are used to talk about postpartum depression, but during pregnancy it is possible to happen. Alice since she met Alex felt abandoned by a guy she made believe she loved her, then her best friend and the final stab her parents kick out. Many things had happened and her life completely changed and in a way she blamed the baby. Not that she didn't love the child, she did, and a part of her knew that the child was just another victim of everything, just like her.
Who did everything was Annie, Marta and Tom, who were very happy with the coming of Luna. The name was the only thing she chose. Tom and Alice were fighting more and more each day because of her behavior regarding the pregnancy, she was becoming a nymphomaniac whenever she was contradicted by her fiancé, she would have sex with him to try to get what she wanted, and when she couldn't, she would fight with him more and go out to Annie's apartment and have sex with her. It was one thing to be with the three of them for pleasure and fun, but there she just wanted to provoke Tom and Annie was not willing to fight with her cousin who deep down will always be the love of her life even though she will never confess it to him or anyone else.
Alice was more and more addicted to sex and started to cheat on Tom, she met with Ollie and sometimes with Allie or both, and when she couldn't get them, she would do anything to get sex. In her job one of her responsibilities was to choose the models for the campaigns, and it became one of her favorite responsibilities because she could get sex with the ones she was most interested in, whether they were men or women. For her it didn't matter anymore, the only thing that mattered was that she needed to forget Alex and no one was able to get him out of her mind and soul.
That sweet and dreamy girl that once existed didn't exist anymore, she had become someone else and nobody recognized her, when she wasn't after sex she was working her ass off to get whatever she needed, in a short time she was gaining more space in her job and in college she was the first in her class with the highest grades.
The end of the year festivities were coming, a madness at Beckermanns preparing Christmas campaigns and Alice started feeling pains, Annie who was by her side taking care of some things wanted to take her to the hospital and she refused, the contractions increased and she insisted on staying. Annie lost her patience and called Tom, who immediately picked her up and took her to the hospital against her will.
At the hospital Alice spent almost 15 hours in labor, she didn't make any point of pushing for the baby to be born, Tom was desperately trying to convince her, trying to get back that sweet girl he adored, but he couldn't, so he decided to appeal
Tom - FUCK, MARIA IS HERE complaining about pain, WANT TO STOP FEELING PAIN? PUSH FOR LUNA TO BE BORN AND THE PAIN WILL PASS, STOP DOING THIS IF YOU DON'T WANT HER OK, YOU DON'T NEED TO KEEP HER, I RAISE MY DAUGHTER.
Alice - SHE IS MY CHILD DO YOU UNDERSTAND? MINE AND NO ONE ELSE'S?
Tom - SO NOW SHE IS YOUR CHILD? YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HER, IN FACT THAT'S ALL SHE DOES IS FUCK AROUND WITH ANYONE, A SLUT. WHEN YOU ARE NOT FUCKING YOU ARE WORKING, YOU NEVER CARED ABOUT LUNA AND FOR A LONG TIME YOU HAVE NOT CARED ABOUT ME OR THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU MARIA.
Alice - YOU CAN'T TALK TO ME
Tom - I CAN AND I AM TALKING, I AM YOUR fiancé and MORE THAN THAT I AM YOUR FRIEND, THE ONE WHO HAS KNOWN YOU FOR YEARS AND THIS IS NOT THE MARIA ALICE I KNOW, WHERE IS THE SOONER, DREAMING, LOVING MARIALIST WHO DREAMED OF BEING A MOTHER?
Alice - SHE'S DEAD, SHE'S DEAD, SHE DOES NOT EXIST ANYMORE TOM, THIS IS MARIA ALICE NOW - she feels a strong pain - FUCKING STOP THIS FUCKING PAIN NOW STOP
Tom - Push, Alice, push - Alice pushed not because she wanted to but because the pain was so intense it was her instinct, it didn't take long and a thin cry took over the room, the doctor approached with the baby for Alice to see but she refused closing her eyes. Tom stared at Alice regretting it, he knew that at some point in life she would regret it, so he dedicated himself to see Luna and fell in love with the child
Tom - Daddy loves you daughter, I promise to give you all my love, you won't lack anything, your mother is a little crazy, but deep down she loves you too, one day she'll realize that
Dr. -Don't be like that sir, your wife is depressed, you know it, things will get better
Tom - I'm not sure if it's depression, she has been through a lot, my Alice no longer exists
Doctor - Well now I need to finish the procedure here, another time we'll talk more about it.
the doctor hands Luna over to his team to do what's necessary and finishes cleaning Alice doing what had to be done.
Alice and Luna are discharged after two days, at first she didn't want to breastfeed the baby but Tom with a little patience convinced her to breastfeed.
In brief moments Alice managed to be affectionate, especially when breastfeeding, she couldn't deny the bond that she had with her daughter, but then she remembered everything that her daughter represented and all the suffering that she had endured up to that moment, and she refused to go near her.