Chapter 9

Nicolas

Fuck I was a father. Did I even want to be a father? This meant she left me because she was pregnant. When I got home, I drank a bottle of water before I took a shot of tequila. “What the fuck is going on?” I said out load. I needed one of my friends one that knew Nicol as well, so I called Anton. “Hi fucker.” He answered the call “Hi Anton.” He could hear there was something wrong “Fuck what’s wrong?” “Can you come over?” “I’m on my way.” That was one thing about Anton when I call him and I really need him he will drop whatever his busy with and come over. I decided it will look better if I’m at least showered and dressed and the bottle tequila is not standing on the kitchen counter. I went to the bathroom put on the shower and got in. All that was going through my head over and over was I was a father, Nicol left me because she was pregnant. Did she think I was going to leave her if I found out? Did she think I would ask her to get an abortion? Why the fuck did she run away? I could have helped. I was on autopilot I got out of the shower and got dressed as I walked out of the bedroom Anton was sitting in my living room.

“Hi man” “What’s wrong you scared the shit out of me?” Anton asked. “I’m not sure where to start?” “The beginning are normally a good place.” “I saw Nicol.” I blurted that out. There was silence like in you can hear a pin drop, silence. While Anton processed that news, I went to fetch the bottle tequila and two glasses then I went back to the living room poured each of us a drink and without even saying anything Anton took the shot. He knew what I went through when she left me. He also knew her and also thought we will be together forever. After the second shot he asked “Where?” “At the Christmas Gala last night.” “Fuck Nico what did you do?” “I introduced her to Karen.” “Who the fuck is Karen?” “One of the models that went with me last night.” “Why did you do that?” “I wanted to make her jealous. I don’t know? Fuck Anton. She’s not even married and get this she’s a fucken Nurse at Bellevue.” “The hospital you give all that money to every year and where you’re on the board?” “That would be the same hospital yes.” “Why is she a fucking nurse? And how did your paths never crossed?” “I have no clue.” “Did you guys talk to each other?” “After she met Karen, she ran outside when she came back, I could feel her the whole time Anton, my body haven’t forgotten her.” “Did you talk?” I was in a haze I don’t even hear what Anton was asking me. I took another shot of tequila “The band started to play our song and my legs started to move towards her without even thinking. We danced it felt so natural like we’ve never been apart not even for a day.” “Fuck Nico.” “Just before the song ended, I asked her Why? She was crying Anton like in crying the tears where streaming down her face. She said it wasn’t the right place to talk about it and then she ran from me again.” “Oh my God no wonder you are such a mess.” “I thought I was over her Anton I thought all these girls I had in my bed every weekend was letting me forget.” “I told you it was only a bandade and you had to look for help but you didn’t listen to me.” Anton went on. “Don’t start.” He was on my case since she left me to see someone to talk about my feelings. I on the other hand wanted to fuck my feelings away. Which clearly didn’t help. I poured us each another shot of tequila but this time it was almost half a glass. “Fuck that’s to much.” Anton said. “I haven’t told you everything yet.” “I thought she left? Did you follow her?” “No but this morning I still had her on my mind I fucken dreamed of her when last did that happen? So, I went for a run through Central Park.” I took the shot but it was one shot for me before I could go on with the story.

“I’m sure it’s not that bad?” Anton said as he took a few sips before his glass was empty. “Well Anton I ran through Central Park I was thinking about her off course and all the fucking people in Central Park that just stops and take selfies and then I ran into someone I was so upset I went off at them although it was my fault. I didn’t even want to stop to make sure the person was okay but then I heard a girl’s voice and for some reason I stopped when I looked at the person, I saw Nicol trying to wipe the hot chocolate I just messed on her from her jacket. “Fuck first you don’t see each other for 12 years and now twice in one weekend. Who was the girl, someone she was babysitting?” “No Anton when Nicol saw me and I looked at HER daughter I could see how frighten she got.” “She has a daughter, but I thought you said she’s not married?” “She’s not the girl turns 12 soon.” I let that sink in because I didn’t have the guts to say it out load again. I poured myself another shot and threw it down my throat. “Wait what?” So, I took another shot. “No. It can’t be.” “But it is, she looks just like me.” “How sure are you?” “Nicol didn’t say anything she only started to cry.” “Fuck I thought you were always careful?” “We where but there was one time we couldn’t wait and we did it in an alley against a wall, you remember how the two of us where.” “I do that is why it was such a shock.” “Well needless to say I just looked at Nicol and she at me, the girl eventually said and this is her exact words ‘Hello my name is Nikki Green.” “No fucking way, she gave her your nickname.” “She did and that is how I know she is mine not to mention the look on Nicol’s face.” “What are you going to do?” Anton asked