Chapter 54

Nicol

When Nikki was in bed and Nicolas and I said good night to her we went back to the living room “I think that went well?” Nicolas said. “Except for the part where she wanted to run away, I presume?” “Yes except for that part.” I didn’t know what to say if it wasn’t for Nicolas she wouldn’t have taken it so well. “You good with her.” “I really don’t know what I’m doing Nicol.” “Don’t worry most days I still don’t know what I’m doing.” “I don’t like the feeling of not being in control.” “I know Nicolas but it’s something you will have to get use to, kids are unpredictable especially yours.” “Fuck” was all he said. “We’ll I’ve got an early morning and long day tomorrow I’m going to bed. If there are any problems tomorrow call me, okay?” “There won’t be but I’ll call you non the less.” I turn around to walk to my room when he called me “Nicol” “Yes” “I’m putting the alarm on for the night just incase someone get’s a new idea in her head.” “Okay thank you.” “If you leave tomorrow and I’m not awake the code is 892204.” “What?” I asked in total shock he didn’t forget about me at all no matter how many models went through this house his alarm code was my birthdate. “You heard me.” Then he turned around and walked to his room.

To say I was shocked was an understatement but with everything that happened today that was just one other thing that shocked me. I went to the bathroom wash my face and got my work cloths ready for tomorrow then I got into bed. I was so tired and with the comfort of knowing Nikki couldn’t go anywhere I fell asleep almost immediately.

Nicolas

I was bone dead tired when I got into bed. Fuck if two women can make me this tired without sex, I have my worked cut out for me. I’m very sure I won’t even have the energy to chat up one of my model friends if things didn’t work out between me and Nicol. I was hoping I could forgive her and move on and give Nikki the home she deserves but I also know you can’t force anything. Don’t get me wrong there is still that attraction for each other I’m sure if I wake her up right now for sex, she will with no doubt give it to me but is it just a physical reaction to each other is it maybe just me trying to fuck her out of my system, angry fucking her because she left me. But then again, I wouldn’t have run after her when she saw me with Karen on social media. Am I ready to settle down with one woman the only women I’ve ever loved is it at all possible. Those where the thoughts that were running around in my head while I was trying to sleep. Needless to say, it took me a while to fall asleep.

The next morning, I was up at 5 am it wasn’t my usual time but I wanted to see Nicol before she went to work, I also don’t want her to go to work but that is something we need to sort out after our feelings and my intentions towards her and Nikki is clear to me. I walked to the kitchen and made a pot of coffee. I was still standing in the kitchen when she came running out of her room. “Morning Nicol.” “Hi Nicolas I’m going to be late if I don’t hurry.” “Aren’t you starting at 6?” “Yes, but I need to get to the subway.” I interrupted her there. “NO Geoffrey will take you to work, I told you this.” “I didn’t organize anything with him how would he know he needs to take me.” I took my phone put it on speaker and called Geoffrey. “Nicolas’s morning.” “Morning Geoffrey What are you doing?” “Waiting for Nicol to come down to take her to the hospital.” “Thank you, Geoffrey.” Then I disconnect the call. She didn’t say a word. “Now take your coffee and enjoy your day.” She walked towards me and gave me a kiss on the cheek taking the coffee from me. “Thank you, Nicolas.” I was so stunned by her kind gesture I didn’t say a word. When she was almost out of the house she said “Good luck for today.” And then she was gone. Am I going to need luck that was the question?

I decided it was still early I can go for a workout while Nikki was still sleeping. I went to my room got dressed in my gym wear and went to my gym where I started on the treadmill thinking what we are going to do today. Or should I say wondering what Nikki would want to do. After the treadmill I started with my weights it was 6:30 when I was eventually done in the gym. I went back to my room and took a shower. I got dressed in a jean, some sneakers and a warm cardigan then I went to my office to work on some e-mails but first I wanted to check that Nikki was still sleeping. I walked to her room and open the door slightly checking in on Nikki. She was actually sitting up in her bed crying. “Knock Knock” I said before I open the door. She didn’t say anything. “Sweet pea why are you crying don’t you feel well?” She sniffed a few times. “No, it’s not that.” “Then what is wrong I thought we are going to figure things out together.” “I know we said that and I still want that I’m just I don’t know what you call it full with emotions.” “Overwhelmed?” “Yes, that’s the word, I always wanted a dad and now I have one but I’m not sure what a dad does? It was always just me and mom.” “Well sweet pea I’m not sure what I should do either can we figure that out as well I’m sure there is no right or wrong way, as long as it suits both of us.” “You think?” “Yes, sweet pea I think, now go get dressed and get ready I’m taking my daughter out for breakfast.” Before she got out of bed, she threw herself in my arms. “If I had to have a dad, I’m happy it’s you.” And then she let go of me and walked to the bathroom. I could feel the tears starting to stream down my face.