Chapter 53
Nicol
When Nicolas went to his office I went to Nikki’s room, I wanted to see if she’ll talk to me. I knock but all I got was “Go away.” “Nikki please let’s talk.” “I don’t want to talk to you now.” “Maybe tomorrow?” “You going to work.” “Yes” “Fine after work. Maybe.” I left her and went to the kitchen to make me a cup of tea before I go to bed. I was standing at the floor to ceiling window when I heard a door open in the reflection of the window, I could see Nikki trying to sneak out of her room with a backpack on her back. What the fuck is she trying to do. I left her to see what she’s doing; she moved on her tiptoes to the kitchen she probable didn’t see me at the window. I made sure she didn’t see me as I followed her to the kitchen she went into the pantry and got some snacks which she put in her bag then she moved slowly to the front door, when her hand touched the handle, I asked her “And where do you think you are going?” She turned around shocked that I caught her in the act. But then she pulled her shoulders back and screamed at me yes screamed the first time my daughter has screamed at me “I’m leaving, no one wants me.” “Nikki, you know that’s not true.” “It is you didn’t even tell him I’m his daughter you didn’t even tell him you are pregnant. You worried more about him than about me.” “Nikki that is not true.” “But it is.”
Nicolas
I was in my office busy to move some meetings around for Nikki and I to have a whole day where we could do anything she wanted when I heard a screaming in the foyer. I got up and went to look what was going on. Nikki was standing with a back pack on her back screaming at Nicol that no one wanted her and that Nicol cared more about me than her. I get where she’s coming from but that is not totally true. When the screaming stopped, I made my presence known. “And where are you off to?” I asked her as if it didn’t bother me at all. “None of your business.” “Oh okay, do you at least have a plan as to where you going to sleep, it’s very cold outside and you might get sick again.” “I’ll walk until I find a place.” “Nikki, can we have a seat and talk and if you still want to leave, I’ll give you money to stay in a hotel alone for the night.” “Wait what?” Nicol asked me. But I didn’t answer her. “You would?” Nikki asked. “I’m a man of my word if I tell you I’ll do something then I will.” “Okay but make it quick.” Nikki marched to the living room leaving me and Nicol behind her “What are you doing Nicolas.” “Trust me okay.” “Well, I don’t really have a choice, do I?”
We walked into the living room Nikki was sitting with her back pack still on her back. “I’m listening.” “Well first off all, I think you are being a bit childish?” I heard Nicol taking in a deep breath. But I was using reverse psychology. “Oh, and why do you think that?” “Well, I also just found out I had a daughter a daughter I loved the moment I saw her and you don’t see me running away, do you?” “But you are a grown up, grown ups don’t run away.” “And you are telling us the whole time you are almost 12 and can stay at home alone and you are not a child anymore. What does that make you now? Because you are behaving like one.” “Am not.” “Nikki, do you know how much your mother has given up for you?” “She wanted me.” “Yes, see you understand that she wanted you so don’t tell her or me we don’t want you because we do, with all our hearts. I was furious with your mother when I found out, but I’m still here, I want to figure out how we can be a family. You tell your mom and me you always wanted to have a dad, now you have one but you are not happy, is it because you don’t want me as a dad?” She just listened for a while and then said. “No, I like you.” “Well then what is the problem? Yes, your mother made a big ass mistake but we can’t judge her, not even if we wanted to, she still gave you everything you need and I’m sure she tries to give you everything you want as well.” After a while she said “Yes she does.” “Well then, I think you’ve hit the jackpot in the mom’s department. Do you know when your mom and I were going out her dream was to have her own ballet school. She gave that up for you, she made sure she got a solid job where she could take care of you, she gave up all her dreams because she got a new dream, you.” “You really did that mom?” “I did angel because you are my everything, I would give up everything I have for you.”
“Then why did you lie?” “I’m sorry angel I can’t say sorry enough but Nicolas and I are trying to figure things out that is why he doesn’t want us to leave, we want to sort this thing out.” “Do you want to give me a real home like in a mom and a dad home.” Fuck Nicol and I are not there yet and both of us was at a lost for words. “We are trying to figure it out sweat pea.” I said eventually. “Do I have to call you dad?” “You can call me what ever you want.” “Okay.” “And I was thinking maybe you and I can have a father daughter day tomorrow.” “What’s that?” “We can do whatever you want?” “Whatever I want?” “Yes, sweet pea and we can go shopping.” That put a smile on your face. “So can we try and sort this whole thing out together sweet pea without one of us running away?” She thought for a while. “I guess we can try.” “Now can your mom and I get a hug or do I still need to give you money for a hotel?” she walked over to me and threw her arms around me and hugged me then she moved towards her mom and hugged her, Nicol was sobbing in Nikki’s neck. “It’s okay mom we’ll sort it out.” Nikki said. “Please don’t scare me again angel.” “I won’t and you have to promise that we won’t lie to each other again.” “I promise angel I won’t lie to you again.”