Chapter 49
Nicolas
I was mad, but I didn’t show it yes, I seemed upset but I was so much more than just upset, I was beyond mad at her, that she had the audacity to make such a big decision for the both of us. My heart wanted to melt when she said she slept on the floor and was hungry and the fact that Nikki was sick and she had no one to call but she did, she had me she always had me, didn’t I proof that to her during our time together. Yes, in a way I understand the fact that she said my father was very old school but I doubt he would have sold the company just because I had a child out of wedlock, I mean times had changed. I could have talked to him. But then again, my father was a wild card when it came to things like that. I was wandering the streets of New York wondering about everything Nicol said trying to wrapped my head around it, the fact that she left me to safe my career my future what other person would do something like that, it just didn’t make sense I’m sure there should be another reason like she didn’t want me part of their lives she couldn’t be that selfless could she. But that is what she said and I should probable believe her, the question now is how do we tell Nikki I’m her father, I’m more worried about Nikki than I was worried about myself I’m an adult I can make sense of certain stuff; I don’t have to like it but I can make sense of it. As I was walking wondering about everything I walked into Karen, yes, the Karen that went with me to the ball where I saw Nicol for the first time.
“Nicolas, I thought that was you.” She said as she was approaching me. “Hi Karen.” “What are you doing outside it’s so cold don’t you want to come up for a drink?” I didn’t realize I was in front of her building. Well, I wasn’t in a rush to get back to my apartment so why not. “Yes, why not.” She took my hand and lead me into her building. We got to the lift and Karen was still talking about the next fashion show she had coming up and the other girls that was so jealous of her and on and on. Clearly, I made a mistake in going to her apartment. Eventually we got to her door, as soon as we where inside she pushed me against the door and started to kiss me, trying to undo my zip. “Wow wait a minute, Karen.” “What I know what you like.” “I’m not here for sex Karen you offered a drink.” “Come on Nicolas everyone knows it’s just a thing you say I don’t even have alcohol in the house why would I offer you that in any case when you can have this?” she showed me her body as she pulled her sweater dress over her head. I grab for the door handle and pull the door open; I didn’t even wait for the lift to arrive I ran down the stairs. When I got outside there was camera’s and everyone was shouting at me. “Oh great.” I thought to myself. I start to make my way back to my apartment but the paparazzi was still on me, I called for a taxi and got in running from them. Fuck I need to tell Nicol about this before she finds out from somewhere else.
Nicol
Nikki and I was watching a movie when my phone went of it was a google notification, I set up a while ago if there was anything on Nicolas. I grabbed my phone and open the app, there in color Nicolas was walking hand in hand with that Bitch from the other night. Fuck I wanted to pack our bags and just go but I promised him I won’t take Nikki from him and I’m not like him I won’t hurt him further, so I made another decision. “Angel I’m going to go to our apartment to get some cloths will you be okay here?” “You going alone?” “Yes why?” “You still didn’t tell me about the date?” “It’s because it wasn’t a date angel. Will you be okay here alone with Isabella I’m sure Nicolas will be here much later.” “Yes, mom I’m okay.” I got up and went to get dressed in sweatpants and a hoodie put my sneakers on grabbed my phone and keys and walked out of the front door after I kissed Nikki. I didn’t even tell Isabella I was leaving Nikki was safe and that is all that matter me on the other hand was not okay. I spilled my guts to the man I love and always loved and he went to the first fucking model and fucked her. Why? Did he want to hurt me? Did he think I won’t find out? What the fuck was going through his mind was this how he processes stuff on top of someone else. I don’t want someone like that in Nikki’s life what kind of example will he be to her. When I got on the street I was crying ugly crying, Geoffrey was in the SUV outside the building why I didn’t know but he jumped out and stopped me “Where are you going?” “To my apartment.” “Why are you crying Nicol?” “Ask Nicolas.” Was all I said before I started to walk faster. I was planning on walking all the way to my apartment it was cold and I needed it I needed to feel something because Nicolas just broke me in a thousand little pieces if he wanted to hurt me, he has done that and more. Clearly there is no way of reconciling ever again not if he runs to a fucking model to fuck every time he needs to process. With children in the mix there is a lot of things that needs processing. Yes, I know we didn’t say we are getting back together I just still had hope until now. The hope in me is crushed.