Chapter 47
Nicol
Before the lift reached the basement Nicolas pushed me against the back of the lift and kissed me, he devoured me, I kissed him right back what if this is the last time I feel his lips on mine. As soon as the lift reached the basement and the signal went off, Nicolas pulled away from me. “I just had to taste you one more time.” “Me to.” I said sadly. We walked to the car and Geoffrey held the door for me at least we weren’t driving in the limousine today. “Morning Geoffrey.” “Morning Nicol.” I got in and Nicolas got in on the other side. “Where to Nicolas?” Geoffrey asked “Can you take us to Glass Ceiling Rooftop please.” “No problem” Geoffrey said. “Do we have a reservation?” I asked Nicolas because I know you need a reservation. “Yes, Nicol we do.” He said half irritated. Okay maybe today might not go as smoothly as I thought. We drove in silence to the Glass Ceiling Rooftop, I always wanted to go to see those views and try the food but who would I go with and it was a bit pricey for my salary. The silence got awkward after awhile I mean last night we couldn’t get enough of each other and now in the car there is silence he was busy on his phone with e-mails and reading messages and I on the other hand was just looking out the window enjoying the winter weather. We finally stopped at the restaurant that felt like hours. Geoffrey opens the door for me and as I got out, he said “Goodluck.” “Thank you, Geoffrey.” I saw Nicolas looking at us funny clearly, he wanted to know what we were saying to each other but he didn’t ask. He gave me his arm and we walked to the restaurant, at least he was still a gentleman. When we approached the hostess she took his name and lead us to the table. “The waiter will be with you shortly.” “Thank you.” Nicolas said as she left us. “You wanna look what you going to eat or do you want to start talking.” I didn’t expect him wanting to talk immediately, but then again what did I expect that we will make small talk, at least the restaurant was full so he couldn’t yell at me. “Can we order everything and then I start to talk.” “Fine.” When the waiter came Nicolas started to order without even asking me “Can we have two flat white coffee’s and two smoked salmon on toast, and a bottle of sparkling water please.” He got my order right but he could at least have asked me. But I’m choosing my battles and what I’m going to eat is not a battle I want to fight not today. When the waiter stepped away Nicolas looked at me and said “I’m listening.”
Nicolas
I was upset with myself that I kissed her in the lift I know it might be the last time but last night or this morning before she left my bed should have been the last time. I ordered our food without even asking her what she wanted to eat. But I know her and I knew what she was going to order, she didn’t protest or say anything so I take it I was right. When the waiter was gone, I couldn’t wait anymore I needed her to talk I needed to know why she ran away, “I’m listening” was all I said before she started.
“I take it you know when Nikki was conceived?” “Yes, the only night we didn’t use a condom the night we did it in the alley behind the bar.” “Yes, well I found out a mouth later I was pregnant.” “I gathered because that is when you left me. I don’t want to know when she was conceived Nicol, I want to know why you thought it was a good idea to run away from me, I could have given you a better live I could have been there for both of you.” “I know Nicolas and I also know that was exactly what you would have done.” I raised my voice “Then why?” I attracted some attention from the people around me and an apologized lifting my hand. “I did it for you.” “Bull shit how on earth is taking my child away from me doing it for me?” “Well, you were always destined to take over fathers’ company, right?” “Yes.” “And your father was very old school.” “Yes.” “He wouldn’t have you given you the company if you had a child out of wedlock Nicolas, he would have disowned you he would have sold the company. You wouldn’t be where you are now if I didn’t walk away.” “I could have delt with my father, there must be another reason, you thought I wasn’t good enough?” She tried to touch my hand but I pulled away. “No Nicolas that’s the thing I knew you would give up everything for us I knew you would give up your birth right for us and I couldn’t do that to you I love you too much to do that to you. I’d rather suffer and work 3 jobs and go hungry than I would have taken away what was rightfully yours.” I didn’t know what to say. Everything she said about my father is true but I’m sure he would have loved Nikki I’m sure Nicol and I could have gotten married there was so many other options.
“You do know running away wasn’t your only option right.” “And what would you have suggested?” “What about getting married.” “Okay and then what, you had to finish your degree before you got the business.” “We could have done both.” “It’s not that easy Nicolas, babies cry all hours of the night, they don’t care that you have an exam coming up or that you need sleep, they get sick and what then?” “You’ve managed.” I threw the words at her. “Because I had nothing to lose just you, which I still feel to this day.” “You had your family, your degree, your career, your company you had so much to lose.” Nicol was crying by now. “But I lost you do you know how that broke me.” “I’m sorry Nicolas for that I’m really sorry if it helps, I’m still hurting from loosing you.” “You didn’t lose me Nicol, you left me there is a very big difference.”