Chapter 31
Nicolas
After I took Nikki to see her mom both Nikki and I went to the kitchen where Isabella made us dinner. “What’s for dinner Isabella?” I asked her. “Parmesan chicken with salad.” “What’s Parmesan chicken?” Nikki asked. “It’s chicken breast baked with a crusted of parmesan cheese.” “Oh.” Was all she said. “It’s one of your mom’s favorite dishes didn’t she made it for you before?” “Nope. Maybe the ingredients are too expensive.” “What do you know about expensive ingredients?” “Because when I ask for something, I had with friends mum will take me with to the grocery store to find the ingredients we normally just make a knock of off the original dish because mom doesn’t have the money for the proper ingredients, that’s why I say mom probable couldn’t find an alternative for what ever is expensive in this dish.” With every word Nikki was talking I was working myself up again I was getting angrier and angrier by the minute, if she only came to me, she wouldn’t have any problem with money, but no clearly, she thought I wouldn’t be a good enough father. “Well sweet pea if you can remember any of the dishes, you wanted your mom to make just ask Isabella, she will make them for you.” “But that would hurt mom’s feelings, I’m okay thank you Nicolas.” Fuck I can be how angry with Nicol she still raised a very sensitive, well-mannered child and in today’s days I know what a hard thing that is to do. We ate in silence for a while, “Nikki” “Yes” “I’ve got tickets to go and see Nutcracker on Saturday, if it’s okay with your mom I thought we could make a day of it.” “What do you mean make a day of it, isn’t the nutcracker showing in the evening?” “Yes, but I thought maybe we could see the Christmas tree at the Rockefeller Center.” “Really? You would really take me to go see it?” “Yes, off course haven’t you been yet?” “Nope mom is too afraid I get lost or she loses me.” “We’ll take your mom with then there is two to make sure we don’t loose you.” “Yes, yes please.” “Good now you just have to rest up and not hurt those stiches and your mom needs to get better.” “I’m sure if she said she will be fine tomorrow she will be, mom never lies to me.”
Oh, my dear child if you only know what a big of a lie your mother did tell you. “You ready for bed?” “Yes, thank you Isabella the food was delicious I see why it’s mom’s favorite.” “My pleasure Nikki.” I walked with her to her room, “You wanne go get ready in the bathroom, brush your teeth and get in your PJ’s.” “Yes, but will you wait for me?” “Off course I will.” Was she afraid I run away, was she afraid I disappear from her life it’s amazing how easily we got attached to each other probable because we are father and daughter. She came out of the bathroom in her PJ’s, “You brushed your teeth.” “Yes, Nicolas like always.” She said with the same attitude her mom usually had with me. It actually put a smile on my face. I got her into bed said good night and left her room then I went to check on Nicol, she was sleeping again. When I looked at my watch it was still before 9 pm so I decided to get some work done because today was a total waste with work with Nikki being here and Nicol being sick, I was more worried about them than I was about work. When I got to my office, I immediately started with the e-mails that was marked as priority, I went down a rabbit hole with my work, later that night I heard a commotion in the kitchen by this time I know it’s Nicol. For some reason I was still worried about her so I went to check on her and find out what was going on with her.
Nicol
I missed dinner I probable slept through it, but it’s 1 am and I’m actually hungry. I went to the kitchen to look for more of that soup Isabella made. I must have made a noise because I heard someone behind me “What are you looking for?” “Something to eat? I thought there might be more of that soup Isabella made.” “Go sit I’ll bring you something.” “It’s not necessary Nikk, Nicolas” I almost called him by his nickname I gave him, he gave me a look clearly knowing what I was about to say. “I know okay just take a seat.” I did what he said I went to sit at the kitchen table, then I smelled my favorite food I didn’t have in 12 years I tried to make it with knock of ingredients while I was still pregnant but it just didn’t taste the same so I left it. “Is that parmesan chicken?” “It is.” He said but there was a bite to his words. I wanted to know what was wrong but to tell you the truth I was too scared to ask him. He put the plate in front of me with a glass of water. “Thank you.” “Pleasure.” He said but clearly, he was upset. I made the mistake of asking him “What’s wrong?” “Really you want to ask me what’s wrong?” “Yes, Nicolas what’s wrong except the obvious?” “Clearly, it’s just the obvious and the fact that you kept the best things of life from her just because you didn’t think I will be a good father. You ran away because you thought I would be a shitty father. I can’t get over its Nicol, I can’t believe you kept this secret from me for 12 years, I could have made your life so much easier, I could have been there for you…….” I was getting fed up with him telling me he could have made my life easier because he was talking about money, so I said something I probably shouldn’t have “And where would you have been if I stayed preventing you from finishing Uni preventing you from becoming the great CEO you are known, where would the money have come from?” I screamed at him.
Nicolas eyes got bigger and bigger as I talked but we were interrupted by Nikki “Mommy why are you yelling?”