Chapter 30

Nicolas

I was up and down the whole day making sure Nicol is still alive and making sure Nikki was okay. The teacher eventually send her, her homework which meant I needed to get the laptop out of Nicol’s room. I knocked but there was no answer, clearly she was still sleeping. I slowly open the door and walked into the room, then I started to search for something that looked like a laptop bag. Eventually I saw something on the chair. I took the bag but only took out the laptop. As I slipped the laptop out of the bag a photo fell out of the bag. When I picked it up my heart almost stopped it was a photo of me and her one Christmas in Central Park at the Ice rink, we both loved that photo. I off course ripped mine into pieces when she left me. “What’s wrong?’ Nicol asked from the bed. I quickly slipped the photo back in the bag. “Sorry I didn’t want to wake you Nikki just need the laptop to do her homework on.” “Oh okay.” She didn’t say anything else. I walked to her and took her temperature it was still high. “I’m going to call my doctor to come and have a look at you. You still have a fever.” “No Nikki.” I couldn’t believe she just called me Nikki. “What do you mean no?” “You know me it will be over in a day or two. It was just all the stress about Nikki, then the hospital, running into you and all the over time I’ve been working to be able to pay for all the test that was done. I think it’s the same like in Uni when I just crashed after an exam.” “If I don’t call the doctor then you will stay in bed tomorrow as well no argument no negotiations.” “Okay I’ll stay in bed.” She really must feel bad because she never agrees so easily. I walked out of the room still stunned that she called me Nikki. I gave Nikki the laptop “You need anything else sweet pea?” I asked her. “No thank you I’m good.” “Okay I’ll be in my office.” “Okay.” She said. I stopped at Isabella first “Isabella can you make Nicol some chicken soup she’s really not feeling well.” “No problem, Nicolas but are you okay?” “Yes, why would you ask?” she gave me that look “Do I have to spell it out for you?” “I’m okay it’s just a bit much I’m going to my office please keep an eye on Nikki.” “Off course I will.”

I went to my office but instead of working I started to look at photo’s I didn’t shred to pieces. Fuck we were good together. We would have made such a beautiful family if she just told me. That just made me angry again. “How could you?” I talked to the picture. “I don’t know how long I was staring at the photos before there was a small knock on my door. Clearly it was Nikki. I quickly threw everything back in the box put it in the cupboard before I said “Come in Nikki.” “Am I bothering you?” She asked. “Off course not. What can I help you with?” “I’m struggling with a math equation and I can’t ask mom will you help me?” “Off course I will Math’s is my favorite subject.” “Okay I’ll go and fetch the papers.” “No, I’ll come with you.” Nikki sat at the living room table busy with her homework when I looked at the math’s she was doing and all of them looked correct I knew she must be really struggling. “Wow Nikki you are very good in math’s.” “Thank you, my mom, said I got that from my dad.” That was a stab right in my heart because I’m not dead I’m sitting right next to her. But I didn’t answer her. “Okay what are you struggling with?” She showed me the problem and I helped her to get the answer but also to understand the question when she understood the question she got to the answer by herself. Which made me very proud.

Nicol

It was late afternoon when I felt like the fever was gone. I got the thermometer and checked my fever; thank God the fever was gone. I got up and went to take a much-needed shower. When I looked at the bath, I realized Nicolas saw me naked last night “Oh fuck” was all I could say. I got in the shower and realized I always talk in my sleep when I have a fever, I really really hope I didn’t do it last night because the things I might have said could be frightening especially if Nicolas heard it. I washed my hair to get rid of all the sweat then I got out dried myself and put new cloths on. I almost felt like a human again. When I got out of the shower there was chicken soup waiting for me. I wanted so badly to go out and see my little girl but I also know I can’t make her sick again so I send Nicolas a message “Can you please bring Nikki to the door again I just want to see her.” I know he read it but he didn’t answer. But within a few minutes there was a knock on my door. “Mom” Nikki said when the door open “Hi angel I just needed to see you.” “I’ve missed you today.” Nikki said. “I’ve missed you to but I’m feeling much much better hopefully tomorrow I can spend some time with you.” “Why aren’t you going to work?” “No Nicolas said I should stay at home another day.” She looked up at Nicolas but he just shrugged at her. Clearly, they had an inside joke going on. “Thanks Nicolas.” “My pleasure.” “See you tomorrow mom.” “Tomorrow angel, Love you to the moon and back.” “Love you more than jelly tots.”