Chapter 254

Nicol

We walked into the doctor’s rooms hand in hand, I think I was squeezing Nicolas’s hand so hard but he didn’t say anything, he just let me.  While we sat and waited for the doctor to come Nicolas leaned into me and asked “Are you okay?”  I wanted to cry because I was sure there was something wrong with the baby.  I don’t know why it’s not like I had a bleed or I didn’t grow, maybe it was because everything in my life was going so well at the moment and I was waiting for that shoe to drop, you know that shoe that fucks everything up in your life well I was on pins and needles waiting for that shoe.  “No, I’m good.” I lied “Then why are you crushing my hand?” “Sorry sorry.”  I let go of his hand.  “Don’t be sorry, talk to me.”  “I’m just being silly don’t mind me.”  “You got quiet on our way here what’s going on Nicol?”  Luckily for me I was saved by the nurse that came to get us.  But Nicolas was walking behind me whispering in my ear.  “We not done with this conversation.”  The nurse took me to the examining room where she took my blood pressure which was a bit high, but I told her it’s nothing to worry about I was just a bit stressed.  She just gave me that look, I gave my patients when they want to tell me what is good and not so good.  She checked my glucose levels which was fine then told me to get ready on the bed.

While I was lying on the bed Nicolas was standing at my head holding my hand, I was so close to tears.  He bends down “Sweetheart what’s the matter?”  “I’m scared.”  I finally admitted it.  “Scared of what, you’ve been through this before.”  “I did but then I couldn’t be scared I had no one to keep me together, now I have you and I can fall apart because I know you will be there holding me together.”  “Off course I’ll hold you together but why are you scared?  Do you think there is something wrong with the baby?”  Again, saved by the doctor that walked in.  “Miss Green, Mr. Brown so nice to see you again.”  “You to doctor.”  Nicolas said.  “I see your blood pressure is a bit high Miss Green.”  “Please call me Nicol and yes, it is.”  “I also heard you telling the nurse it was nothing to worry about you are just stressing?”  “Yes, doc that is what I said.”  “Why are you stressing?”  “I’m afraid something is wrong with the baby.”  That was the first time I admitted it out load. “You’re a nurse was there any signs, have you been bleeding?”  “No there is no signs I’m just scared.”  “Well then let’s look at the baby shall we and make sure you have nothing to worry about.”  Nicolas bend down and kiss me on the forehead, I knew he was going to have a mouthful when we leave her but for now, he is holding my hand and is standing by my side and that is all I can ask for.  The previous time I went through this I had to be strong the whole why through I couldn’t think any negative thoughts because I had to get myself out of those dark places but now, now I have Nicolas.

The doctor put that cold gel on me and started to move that magic wand around my stomach.  I actually burst out in tears when we heard the heartbeat.  Nicolas didn’t know what he was hearing so he freaked out.  “What’s wrong?  Why are you crying?”  “She’s hearing the heart beat of the baby Mr. Brown.” The doctor said “Nicolas please.”  Then he listened “That sound is the heart beat?”  “It is.”  I said looking at him.  “That’s a very strong heart beat.”  Nicolas said probable to make me feel better.  “It is.”  The doctor said.  The doctor starts to measure the baby and took his weight.  “Nicol, I don’t know what made you stress so much and if you can tell me I can help you but your baby is fine, the baby is as big as a plum, that is for you dad to know how big the baby is and weights 1 ounce perfectly healthy for a baby of 12 weeks.”  The tears started to stream down my face I couldn’t stop crying.  “You sure?”  I asked through a sob. “Yes, Nicol I’m sure you have nothing and I mean nothing to worry about.”  “Thank you doctor.”  “The tissues are there in the corner you can make an appointment in the next 4 weeks then we will see the sex of the baby if you want to know off course.”  Nicolas was the first to say, “Yes we want to know.”  “Well then I’m going to leave you, take you time in here I’m on my way to the hospital now.”  “Thank you doctor.”  Both Nicolas and I said.

When the doctor left, I could see the smile on Nicolas’s face but there was worry to.  He grabbed the box of tissues and gave them to me; I wiped my tears and blow my nose.  Then he took other wipes to clean my stomach.  He helped me to get dressed while I was still sobbing.  When I eventually stopped, he asked me “What’s going on?”  “Can we go for lunch then I’ll tell you?”  Yes, off course.”

Dear readers

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Vicky Visagie