Chapter 97: This is not me

Lucky POV

"Thank you Lucky" she says. I can feel her warm breath on my face. She's so close, she's too close.

I pull my head from hers.

"I'm sorry" I say as I look down at my shakeing hands.

This is not me. This is not what I do. I don't let people this close to me for a reason. This isn't me. I don't show weakness in front of people, my brothers have rarely seen this side of me.

She lightly touches my hand but pulls it back as I look at her. I can't look at her right now. I'm embarrassed and I have a weird feeling in my stomach. I'm confused by what I'm feeling and it's not safe for her to be this close to me.

She moves my head back up and I look at her as she talks softly "Finn once told me that everyone has their own shit. Thank you for helping me with mine and I'm here if you want to share your shit with me" she smiles at me kindly. I shiver just at the thought of that. I could never tell her about my shit. She'd be disgusted.

I move my hand to her face and we both just sit there looking in each other's eyes for what seems like forever but I don't want to break away from her.

Her eyes are a beautiful green with specks of blue and they have so much warmth to them. Almost like they could swallow me whole. My stomach flops and flips again and I shiver.

I can't do this. Not now and not ever. Get a fucking grip man. I move my hand away and cough away my emotions as I stand "I'll get you some water. Your men should be here soon"

"Lucky" she says as she reaches for my hand.

I start moving my hand towards hers as the door flys open and Finn comes rushing in followed by his brother, the red head and Flame.

Finn quickly grabs her and holds her tightly while looking over her for injuries. He looks worried and scared. He really cares for her.

"Thank you man" he says offering me his hand as he holds her tightly with his other.

"Yeah of course" I say, as I hand him the water for her.

I'm still shaking and I want nothing more than to go to her other side and pull her to me. To feel her warmth next to me again.

I shake that thought from my head. What the fuck! This isn't my feelings what the hell is she doing to me.

I feel eyes on me and I turn and meet Flame's eyes. Shit! Do I look as stupid as Finn and Pickle do when they look at her. Flame can read us like a book she always knows how we're feeling before we do. She has a weird expression on her face like curiosity maybe.

I need to get out of here I feel like everyone can see right through me now. I shiver and shake.

I head for the door and as I reach it Pickle comes running in.

"Kitten!" I hear him say as I pull the door closed behind me.

I need some air.

I feel so confused and out of sorts.

Why does her touch make me want more.

Why does her warmth make me feel alive.

No one has ever hugged me like that before and I've never held anyone to me like that before. It was such a strange feeling.

I need to get out of here, I need some air.

River POV

"Kitten!" I turn as Pickle comes rushing in.

Finn slides over and moves me with him so Pickle has room to sit on the other side of me.

He grabs my face and looks me over.

"Are you hurt?" He asks urgently.

I shake my head, "I'm fine" I say caressing his cheek.

I start to get up,

Both guys jump up.

"I need to use the bathroom"

They both nod.

"I'll come with you" Chailor blunts out.

"Are you okay sweet face?"

I nod. I fix my hair and hug her.

"Yes I'm fine. It was just a flashback that the ass down there triggered"

"I was so scared but Lincoln protected me pretty quickly. I was trying to jump on that guy but Lincoln reminded me I'm pregnant now and I have to think of the baby" she tears up.

"You have to protect someone else now and it's time for me to protect myself" I smile at her.

"I'm going to start doing classes next week. Lazy last day tomorrow then 4 days of I've cream, crying and wine. Then come Monday a stronger me."

She grabs me and hugs me so tight.

"I love your face sweet girl. Now if your really okay me and my husband are going to go to our room with the ring girl and try some new things of our own" she blushes and laughs.

"I love you" she says happily.

"I love you more. I'm really good. Go enjoy your ring girl" I laugh.

We hug again.

I hurry and use the bathroom and get cleaned up.

I look around the room for Lucky, I need to find and thank him.

I see Finn and Pickle taking about something that has them both smiling.

I head to them.

They both turn and look at me.

"I'm fine! Can we please go watch Lucky fight then I need to talk to him and then I would like to go to our room and talk" I say with a smile.

I look at them and they both just share a look.

"Okay first I need a shot" I say taking a big swig from the flask, I then hand it to Finn who takes a drink and hands it to Pickle.

I put it back in my back pocket and take each for their hands and lead us out of the office.

We walk out and it looks like everything has settled down. All the chairs are set back up and those guys are gone.

We sit and wait.