Chapter 75: I don't know who's more scared

Finn POV

"We can try" I say.

I slowly pull my fingers out of her while still rubbing her clit. I can feel her body shaking under me.

I reach above her head a grab a condom, I stop what I'm doing and pull my boxers off and slide the condom on. Still watching her face as I slowly rub her clit, she's getting close I can feel her body twitching as a orgasm is building up.

I'm so hard that the motion of the condom going on almost sets me off. My hands are shaking and I'm nervous.

I go back to her face and kiss her slow and passionately letting her hands explore my body.

"If it's too much, tell me. Just breathe okay" I say caressing her cheek.

"I'll go as slow as I can baby" I'll have to hold myself back. I just want to slam into her and I'm hoping I can hold back some.

She nods her head. Her eyes holding mine, she's so beautiful. I want to take my time and show her how love should feel. I think I'm more nervous then her.

I hope I don't fuck this up. I take a deep breath as I rub my dick thru her wet pussy. She's making a whimpering sound.

I slowly move to her entrance, I grab her hips and slide her more to me.

God I hope I don't hurt her.

I use my hand to gently spread her pussy open for me.

I need to breath too, I don't know who's shaking more me or her. I don't know if I can do this, what if it fucks up her head with flashbacks or I do something wrong and hurt her.

"Finn" she says tilting my face to hers "I'll be fine. Just breathe, like you told me" she smiles at me as she leans up and kisses my neck.

I'm shaking so bad, it's like it's my first time.

I nod and smile at her.

Okay I can do this.

I slowly start pushing into her, watching her face the whole time. She looks good, she looks sexy and she's close to the point of begging, I rub her clit a few more times. Here goes nothing I guess.

"Ohhhh goddd" she breathes deeply as I push in.

I push the tip slowly in, she grabs my back with her nails which makes me moan. She's pushing her self up to me, she's okay so far.

I'm so terrified. I push in as gently as I can never moving my eyes from hers. Only going in a little at a time.

"River" I say. "Baby take a deep breath, this might hurt for a minute." I push into her almost moaning out as I do. God she feels amazing, I rub her clit some more as I push all the way in.

She lets out a low cry of pain and pleasure arching and digging her nails in me deeper. My breathing's heavy as watch her closely.

I give her a moment before I move. My dick jumping and twitching out of need for her.

"River, look at me" I need to know if she wants me to continue. God I hope I feel as good to her as she does to me.

"Ohhhh goddd Finn" she damn near screams.

She looks so sexy right now.

She digs her nails into my back pulling me down to her as I start moving in and out a little.

I start kissing her neck and she's breathing heavily into my shoulder.

I've never felt anything so perfect.

She adjusts her hips and wraps her legs completely around me causing me to let out a muffled groan.

"River Ohhhh baby you feel so good" I almost growl.

I pick up the pace after I know she's alright.

I slowly lift her up to me as I get on my knees.

I push into deeply, moaning with my own pleasure as I do.

She's kinda getting loud now but I don't care anymore.

I can't get enough of her, I need more of her.

Just the sight of her face and her body moving with me is making it hard for me not to just bust all in her.

I'm so close now I need to slow down.

I don't want this to end yet but she feels so good.

I can feel her getting ready, so I slow down a little more not wanting to leave her yet.

She's moaning my name and digging her nails so hard into my back she might draw blood soon.

"Not yet baby doll, hold on"

I pull her face to mine holding it there, I want to see it in her eyes as I make her scream my name. I want to watch her as she cums on my dick for the first time.

I gently pick up the pace, leaning her back slightly so I can get deeper.

"Ohhh myy gooddd Finnn" she almost screams as she hits her peak.

I can feel her clenching around me, I keep the pace riding out her orgasm as my hits.

I crash our lips together.

"Fuck, River" I moan into her mouth as my dick twitchs in her.

Her head is hanging back now and her eyes roll back for a minute.

We did it, she seems okay.

I have to make sure.

"I love you, with everything I am River McFoy"

Her eyes fill with tears and she kisses me this time.

I lift her up a little, I'm still buried in her.

I lay us back holding her to my chest both of us panting and sweaty.

I don't want another woman ever, I want her and only her for the rest of my life.

I know this woman is mine forever, I can't wait for her to be my wife.

I slowly pull out of her. Throwing the used condom into the wastebasket near the bed.

I lift her gently as I turn us around to the head of the bed and pull the covers around us.

"Are you in pain, do you need me to get you anything"

She shakes her head.

"I'm a little sore but in a good way. Just hold me"

"Finn" she says after a minute.

"Uh-huh"

"I'm so glad I met you"

I turn my face to hers and I kiss her head firmly.

"I'm glad I met you too my love"

I wrap my arms around her tightly and pull her into me.

"Finn?"

"Yes my love"

"Never mind" she says tiredly.

I give her a minute, sometimes it takes her a minute to find the right thought or feeling she wants to use.

"Doll? Did you have a question?"

I can feel her breathing getting more steady.

She asleep and she looks beautiful laying naked in my arms.

I love her in my arms, listening to her breathing and feeling her warmth next to me.

We fall asleep in each other's arms.