Chapter 320: **Content trigger warning- Flashback**

Content trigger warning- Flashback

Pickle POV

She cries "You and Denalii won't leave me but Lucky still won't even tell me he loves me. I know he tries in his own way but sometimes it feels like I can lose him at anytime." I wrap my arms around her.

"I've known him most of my life and he loves you and he will use those words when he's ready."

She sighs softly as I kiss her head and face. I slide down some holding her on me. She falls asleep quickly. I just lay watching her till I fall asleep. I wake and I'm cold, she's gone. I sit up and see her next to me rolled up in the blankets. I laugh and get up to take a piss.

As I'm walking out of the bathroom I hear deep moaning. I look in and River's still alseep, I walk to the living room and see Carter and Jasper making out on the couch laying next to each other both of them naked. I turn to leave but I hear Carter's voice.

"Fuck Pickle. I umm..." Carter starts to say but I just put my hand out to stop him.

"Carter it's not my business." I say smiling.

"I just don't want you to think..." I laugh "Carter this doesn't change who I see when I look at you. I met you at fifteen in juvie and I've never seen you with any women trust me I don't care. If it interferes with your job in anyway we'll talk then." He nods and fists bumps me.

"Goodnight guys enjoy yourselves." I say laughing as Jasper throws a pillow at me.

"River said he's a great kisser and she wishes I would try it out so she had someone to talk about it with." I laugh throwing the pillow at Carter. "You two can talk about it now and then I don't have to listen to it." I flip off Jasper as I close the door still laughing softly.

She throws the blankets off and I see her fists all balled up.

"Fuck you father. I don't belong to you." She yells.

She swings in the air.

"Nooo stop what are you doing? Get off me!" She screams.

Carter and Jasper come in still pulling up their sleep pants. I nod and put my finger to my lips.

"Oww stop. Don't touch me there, daddy stop please. I won't let him touch me again please stop. He didn't touch me anywhere. Nooo stop please daddy please stop." She cries out.

I fucking knew it!! It never added up that a monster like him never touched her, I never believed it but she said he never did. This could be a blocked memory. Her psychologist notes said that they thought she had been molested since she was a small child but all they had to go off was notes from ER visits and statements from her friend. He was looked into as a suspect in several brutal rapes and murders of girls in the area between eleven and fourteen but the evidence fell short.

Her friends parents reported that their daughter seen fingerprint bruises on her hips and thighs also that she had a hard time sitting sometimes. They reported it three times then he threatened to do worse to their daughter. They reportly found two DNA samples in her and healing tearing as well but she denied it all when questioned.

I turn and leave the room punching the wall.

"Breath brother. We knew this could be a blocked memory. It sounds like this could be why she blocked out Nunzio. It could be the first time he raped her. She told Jasper that the first time he beat her so bad she blacked out was the night she got home late and she was wearing the mystery boy's jacket."

I nod "She's in pain." I say looking away from him to the room.

"Jaspers got her Pickle, he's actually good at his job. He's read more of the reports and therapy notes then I have." I nod breathing deeply.

"Luca please. I don't want to be here any more!" She yells out. Carter stops me, I look at him.

"Noooo, daddy! Help me please! Please daddy I'll be good, don't let him hurt me anymore. Daddy don't leave me here!" She screams out in pain horrible pain.

"River!" I yell pushing Carter out of the way.

"Pickle her doctor said she has to pull her self out of it. We're making it worse. Pickle stop!" Carter says jumping in front of me and pushing me back.

She crying and moaning in pain as she thrashes around. I punch Carter as I run in the room.

River POV

"Denalii can we stay out here just a little longer?" I say blushing. He trails his fingers up my arm.

"If you wear my jacket we'll stay a extra half a hour." I laugh as he wraps the jacket around my arms.

"Deal.  Now help me. Why can't I get this stupid ollie." He grabs my skateboard and jumps off a ramp landing on the board after he flips it. I smile. He's so cute, I know Reese likes him but I met him first. I think he likes me but then I hear my father's voice telling me how no one will like a damaged girl like me.

I look up and he's so close to me. His golden eyes staring into me giving me butterflies. He pulls loose this stupid piece of my hair that grows shorter then the rest since my father ripped it out when I was seven. Denalii likes to play with it. The feeling it gives me when he's this close is scary and exciting at the same time. I push his black shaggy hair from his forehead back in to the helmet.

"River can I ask you something?" I nod and blush.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" He smiles at me looking nervous. I nod and just as his lips touch mine a horn honks.

"Stupid Giovanni." He mutters under his breath. He takes my hand as he grabs both of our backpacks.

We pull up to my house and the lights are off. I breathe out my held breath.

"You okay River?" He asks. I nod and lean over and kiss his cheek before I get out.

As I close the front door quietly a punch lands to the side of my head.

"Your just a worthless whore like your mother was!" I get off the floor with my head down. I've learned it's just better to let him get it out and then I can make it to my room. He punches me in my mouth. I cry softly as blood runs out. He rips off Denalii's jacket and throws it in the fireplace.

I start crying.

"You want to act like a whore I'll start treating you like one." He grabs my neck and pushes me against the wall. He pushes his hand down my pants pushing my panties a side as he pushes his finger in me.