Chapter 191: I'm not leaving her

Lucky POV

"We're almost there brother, hold on please" I say squeezing his hand.

"Tell Riv...er I... love her" he says as he passes out and I lose his pulse. "No!" I yell.

"Doc!! I lost his pulse!" I yell as I'm trying to do CPR one handed trying not to lose my hold on that damn artery.

"Pickle!!" I yell out as the Doc does mouth to mouth to match my one handed chest compressions on what I can of his tortured, gunshot chest.

I can see the hospital but he's still not breathing and has no pulse. "Fuck!!" I yell out, tears now streaming down my face "Come on Pickle, please brother! Please you can't leave me!" I yell as my tears hit his body and face.

I'm sitting on him one hand in his chest cavity the other pushing up and down on his chest. The tires screeching as we fly through the parking lot, coming to a quick and hard stop.

The doors to the van flys open and hospital personnel start unloading us from the van, stretcher and all. Running us into the hospital as I see more people with another two stretchers running the another way to the van.

"Please don't die brother! Please I need you!" I yell as I pray we made it on time.

"I can't lose him please!" I plead as they rush us down a hallway.

They stop before going through a set of double doors. They all look at me "Okay sir I need you to get off of him and slowly pull your hand out while I get mine in there." I shake my head.

"He's your brother right?" He asks. I nod my head.

"You did good, you got him here now you have to let us do our job and try to save his life." He says putting his hand on mine. "Please save him!" I yell as I move off to the side of him.

"Okay on three" he says looking at me.

"Ready" he says and I nod.

"One"

"Two"

"Three"

I pull my hand out holding my breath.

He shoves his hand in and they run through the doors.

I back up til my back hit the wall. I slide down to the ground, my head drops down into my hands and I can no longer hold back my tears.

River POV

I jump when the plane touches down. I look over and see Annie still sleeping in the chair next to me. Flame is on her phone talking low to someone.

The plane comes to a stop and Flame looks over at me and smiles and reaches for my hand.

"River when we get to the hospital don't worry about Annie. I have Mia and Crash up in a house close by and they will take care of her" she says squeezing my hand.

"I don't know. I should just keep her with me. It's not safe right now for her to be away from us"

"Mia took care of her for a long time, Annie knows her and Crash was trained by Lucky. The suits will be will her at all times and she has her bracelet."  She looks at me for a minute and smiles "Being a mom looks good on you. I promise sweetie she'll be fine." She squeezes my hand again.

"Have you heard from anyone yet?" I look away when my eyes fill with tears. I don't even know if Pickle's alive and I don't know if I can just leave Annie right now. She's keeping me from spiraling out and I'm scared she'll disappear again.

"I've only heard from Brain. Umm River he's here. I know you guys haven't had your moment yet but you guys can't keep avoiding it forever not when your dating his brother." I take a deep breath. I know this day would come and I knew he would be here for Pickle of course, I just don't know if I can handle this on top of everything.

"I'm not leaving Annie. I trust them but I'm not ready for her to be out of my sight yet." She gives me her look she does when one of us is being ridiculous and not listening to reason.

"Fine we can play it by ear. Thank you for protecting her. We love you" I say as I take a few deep breaths "About Brain, I'm not sure if I'm ready but your right it's time and it can't be avoided. I also can't wait to see my big brother again and to get to know him but I'm overwhelmed about it all right now." Tears run down my face, I hear Annie moving next to me so I turn my head and wipe my eyes.

I look at her and smile when her eyes meet mine.

"Hi baby. We're here now. It's time to wake up"

She smiles at me and stretches out.

"Mommy I go potty" she says.

"Okay baby come on let's go potty first"

Flame smiles at her and then says something loudly in Italian to the crew.

After I wash our hands I tell her to go get her toys in her bag and I'll be right there.

I quickly step back in the bathroom and take a few large swings off my flask. I splash my face and use the wrapped toothbrush in the bathroom. I take a deep breath and walk back out to go face what evers out here in this strange new state.

I've never left Nevada before and here I am now in New Mexico getting ready to find out if my fiance is alive or dead and seeing my brother for the first time in 9 years. To say I'm terrified would be a understatement.

"Are you okay?" Flame asks me concerned. I nod "River your really pale. Let's take a minute okay?"

I shake my head "I'm fine, let's just get this over with. Waiting is making everything worse"

She gives me and half smile and a nod as she takes one of Annie's hands and I take the other.

It's getting darker out now. It took a few hours to get here. Maybe I should get Annie some dinner here soon.

"Look Annie" Flame says as we get off the plane, she points to Ryder over by a van waiting for us.

I know he's in wheelchair because of the monster but seeing him like that hits me hard.

I stifle a sob and cover my mouth as my legs get weak and I start shaking. My visions blurry from my tears.

"Uncle Brain" Annie yells as she runs to him. He sweeps her up and hugs for a minute then tosses her in the air and my heart stops. It doesn't start again till I here her giggles. He puts her down and she heads to the van with a man dressed in a suit.