Chapter 156: She might beat me to it

River POV

I run and grab my laptop "River just add your email to your phone. Then you don't have to drag your laptop around" I look at them "I didn't know that was a thing" He grabs my phone off the counter while I grab my laptop.

Oh my god I have a email from him. I open it

Baby Doll,

Hello my love.

God I miss you so much already and it's been a week. The flights were good and we're at our station for a few days so I'm going to blow you up and send you a bunch of pictures and emails and some hand written dirty letters just so you'll blush. I love you baby, so much my chest hurts being away from you. Tokash and Mumford say hi. I'll talk to you in a few days. We might get to do a phone or video chat before we move stations so kept your phone by you. Listen to this song crazy girl by Eli Young band and Beautiful Crazy by Luke Combs. I was wondering what's with him. Lucky seemed like a cool guy but Pickle knows him better so my love your going to have to talk to either him or Lucky. I'm going to trust any decision Pickle makes till I get home. I love you River and alot happened in a small amount of time, please don't hold your self back. Explore and try things, everything is so new to you and it's okay to figure out your self and your body. I love you and I trust you to do what you need to do for your mental and physical health and don't ever let anyone tell you how to feel it's important for you to find that out for yourself. I love your little daily updates please don't stop them or keep anything from me. Dream of me always. I love you River always.

I love you so much doll.

Forever yours Finn

Xoxo

Finn,

Oh my lovey, I'm so happy to hear from you. I'm jumping up and down right now. I'm happy your with some of your friends. Tell them I said hello and stay safe. I miss you and love this song is playing right now again lol. Lincoln's laughing at me right now cause I didn't know I could put my email on my phone. He's doing it for me now. We are going on Wednesday to see the house and surprise Chailor with it. I'm so excited to see it. You know what else? I can't wait to be your wife Finley Spencer. I'm babysitting a beautiful little girl she's almost 3 and a sassy girl, she's from the center and will be up for adoption soon but it made me thing about what we talked about. I didn't think I could love a child the same if they didn't come from me but I know I could. She just melts my heart. I'm not ready to be a mom anytime soon but now I know Your right. I could love a child any which way we get one as long as your by my side. I wish you were here I can't talk to Pickle the way I can with you. He has a temper and sometimes he just walks away instead of just letting me talk or giving me a minute like you do and it's frustrating. The whole Lucky thing is just as frustrating. They both got in the ring and beat each other up and I guess that helped but I refuse to come between them so we'll see how that goes. I'm not talking to either of them right now cause of the fight and they are still hiding something and lying to me about it. I told them till they can talk to me and tell me the truth not to talk to me. You know just me and my crazy life lol. When you get home you have to deal with Pickle when he gets like this I will deal with whatever else. Do you think 4 rooms is too many for us to have? I was thinking of adding a dark room off to the side for me. Lincoln said that him and your dad talked and if we're all going to live on the same property we should probably buy the property on the side of us as well they're going to go look at it on Tuesday. He said that way we have room to grow. He already said you both always wanted a dirt bike track and a basketball court but he wants to know what else you would want? Oh yeah I almost forgot.. I love you Finley Spencer. One week down, till I can kiss your soft lips. One week down till I can touch you. One week down till we can be together till we drop from exhaustion. One week down till I become yours forever. I love these songs by the way and I'll listen to it all the time thinking of you. So many kisses from me. I love you and will love you forever.

Always your,

River xoxo

Pickle POV

As soon as we land I try to call her and she wouldnt answer. I'm punching Wheels as soon as I see him. Fuck him! This is all his fault.

I'm not losing her, he's telling her. I look over at Flame. I hate seeing her like this. I'm definitely punching him for her, she might beat me to it.

Seeing her like that just reminded me of how she was when we found her. She was 12 and she was so broken and so scared. Hearing her cry like that brought me back to that girl. When she kissed me it was like a we were kids again. It really confused me and now all I want to do is hold her till that look on her face is gone, I also want to beat the fuck out of my brother for putting that look on her face.

I could still feel that spark with her but that was never the problem with us. We just couldn't work we both needed to heal, but we work as friends. I will always love that beautiful broken girl and the woman she's become. The best friend she's become and I'll never let anyone hurt her and that includes Ryder.

I need to clear my head, I'm getting to jumbled with everything going on. I should let Wheels get a punch in, I did kiss her back so he owes me a black eye. Even in that chair he can go rounds just like anyone else could. I hear Lucky coming up behind us. Fucking Lucky, what the hell am I going to do with him? I want to kill him but she wants to love him. He's just going to hurt her and I'm not letting that brother hurt the other girl I love.