Chapter 137: flashback or are you spiraling?

River POV

"Food will be here soon" He says. "Let's go outside and I'll show you same basics."

I nod.

He opens the drivers door and I climb in.

"Okay so quick basic gas, brake and blinkers"

"Okay. Like this?" I push gas then brake.

"Yes but you only use one foot. The right one"

"Okay so like this?" I ask moving my left foot away.

"Yes good. Okay let me get in"

He runs around the car.

He climbs in and reaches above me as he pulls down the visor and the key falls on my lap.

"We always keep the key under the visor just in case."

He grabs them from my lap and when his hand brushes my thigh he turns and we lock eyes. His face is close to mine and it makes me nervous.

The sound of a car pulling up behind us makes us brake away.

"Foods here, we should go eat" he says quickly as he gets out.

Does he want me to make the first move?

Should there be a first move?

Should I talk to Pickle like me and Finn did?

Do I feel comfortable talking to him like that, Pickle has a temper Finn's softer when it comes to my feelings.

Does Pickle even want to be with me? I know it sounds stupid to even me but he hasn't even tried to have sex with me since Finn has left.

Maybe I'm just feeling insecure, Pickle doesn't pick up on my emotions like Finn did. I miss Finn.

Maybe it's.....

"River!" I jerk my head up jumping at the sound of Lucky's voice.

Lucky quickly pulls me in for a hug "Enchantress are you having a flashback or are you spiraling?" He whispers softly in my ear.

I don't know what to say. How did he even know?

How did I get in the house?

I pull my head back "I guess spiraling." I say taking deep breath looking around. I don't even remember walking in the house let alone getting out of the car.

He looks at me for a while, he reaches up and moves the hair from my face.

That's it, I can't anymore!

I stand quickly on my tip toes and press my lips to his lightly.

I loop my arms around his neck, he tenses for a minute then moves his lips with mine. His tongue is pierced too. I guess if he ever said more than two words, I would have already known that or it wasn't in all the time.

I hear the food hit the ground as he brings his other hand around my waist. He deepens the kiss as he pushes me to the wall. Damn he can definitely kiss. It's like fire burning through my body with shots of electricity. Just from the kiss I'm getting wet. He hasn't moved his hand from around my waist, he's other hand is caressing my face lightly.

I reach down and try to lift his shirt and he freezes. He pulls his lips from mine he puts his forehead to mine both of us breathing heavily.

He moves my hair behind my ear.

"I cant River, I'm sorry" he doesn't move away though.

He moves my hands to his chest, he still has his head to mine. His eyes are closed like he's thinking really hard.

I'm afraid to move or say anything.

I don't want to stop but I need to talk tp Pickle first, it's only far. He's shaking now and his jaw is tight.

"Lucky it's okay. We can talk and eat."

He nods. Still with his head to mine. I think he's scared and confused like me. I can feel his body shaking against me.

"Flashback or spiraling?" I say softly.

He laughs a deep laugh and opens his eyes. He hold my eyes. He takes a deep breath and kisses my head as he backs up.

He walks over and grabs the food and walks to the counter.

I walk behind him and grab the plates and a few beers.

We sit and talk. I mean actually talk. About boxing and MMA, Photography and about how him Pickle, Flame and Brain all met each other from the streets. The four of them have been friends since they we're teenagers. Flame and Brain met each other a few years ago and pretty much haven't been a part since then.

We are on the couches in the living room now he's on one and I'm on the other, we have a show on but we are pretty much just taking while it plays in the background.

We decided after a while to go outside to smoke, he's smoking and laughing at me. I've tried to hit it twice now and I just keep coughing.

He tells me knows the perfect spot to take me driving. He also tells me he knows a great pawn shop to get stuff I need like cameras and some darkroom stuff I can look at.

He jokes and says we better have a guest room for him in our new place. He's never lived anywhere but with Pickle since he ran away. One time he got picked up by the police and placed in a group home for five days before he ran. He keeps telling me stories about the four of them. We are just laughing and he's actually being nice to me, no one has ever told me how funny he is.

I think we can really be friends now finally. He's almost a mix of Finn and Chailor once you get to know him. He said not to take it personally on Monday but he takes his job of teaching very seriously and won't take it soft on me cause it could be dangerous for either of us not to take it seriously. I laugh and throw popcorn at him when he gets all grumpy looking again.

My phone dings.. I grab it and see a text.

Pickle- Are you home? Can I come to you?

Me- Yes and Yes

"Pickle said he's coming over"

He laughs and says "Enchantress give me a hug now cause he's going to be pissed when he gets here. He's probably going to punch me so I'm going to be ready to go. Don't panic and don't be mad at him, I deserve it." We have the radio on pretty loud now and we actually had a good time hanging out and I can't wait to do it again.

He stands so I do.

"I actually had fun with you, don't tell anyone I talked so much or they might get jealous" He says laughing.

I throw my arms around his waist.

"I had fun too. You don't need to tell anyone I almost puked when I tried to take a big hit" we both laugh at that.

He squeezes me tight and kisses my head "Lucky" I say quietly.

"Yes enchantress"

"Does this mean you like me now and we can at least be friends?"