Chapter 106: Baby I can't promise that

River POV

"You promise me you'll come home!" I say looking into his eyes.

He looks at me sadly.

I sit up leaning towards him.

He cups my face. "Baby I can't promise that. My job can be very dangerous sometimes and anything can happen at anytime. I'm sorry but I will never make a promise to you unless I can do everything in my power to keep that promise. Like this one, I promise you when I get home I will marry you. I promise I will love you forever"

"No Finn, please!" I plead with him. Begging him as tears run down my face.

"River,  I will do what I need to do to get home to you. Unfortunately that's all I can do, everything else is up to the man upstairs"  He says pulling me to his chest.

I cry harder. "I can't lose you. I can't live without you" I hear a low pained breath from him and I feel Pickle tense up behind me.

Finn lifts my head and body with him as he sits himself up cupping my face.

"Baby please don't say things like that. If god forbid something does happen to me I need you to live your life and carry on and not disappear into the darkness. Chailor and Lincoln need you.  Pickle needs you. You have to promise me you will still live even if I don't"

I look him dead in the eyes and say "I can't promise that. Like you said it's not up to me it's up to god" I quickly throw both their hands away from and I run to my room and slam the door and lock it. I grab my robe quickly putting it on. As I sit on my bed I put my face in my hands and just sob. I know that's not fair of me to ask but

I can't live without him.

I won't be able to live without him.

I'm just scared of losing him. I can't lose him.

I need a minute alone. To think and feel my feelings.

Finn POV

I can't move, I'm completely gutted right now.

I can't promise her something like that, I just can't.

Pickle squeezes my shoulder firmly.

"I'm going to get dressed and give you a minute. Should I check on her?"

I shake my head. "No just let her be for a minute. You understand why I can't make a promise like that right?" I look at him with tears in my eyes.

"Yes I do. I can make a promise to you though, if anything happens to you I promise I will do everything in my power brother to make sure she stays alive"  he looks at me with glossy eyes and spits in his hand and holds it out to me.

I do the same and we shake hands. A good old fashioned spit shake promise oath, like me and Lincoln used to do.

"Thank you Pickle for everything. I don't know if I would be able to leave her without you being here for her"

He smiles at me as he pulls on his pants.

I stand up pulling up my pants as I grab my shirt, I take a deep breath and run my fingers through my hair.

I don't want to spend today fighting with her.

I know she's just scared, I am too.

I'm scared of everything.

I'm scared she'll love him more then me.

I'm scared us being apart will be too much for her to handle.

Mostly I'm scared of not coming home to her.

I don't want to die but I will give my life to protect my country and my brothers.

My family and Pickle will help hold her together, I have to trust them to keep her safe.

She will understand eventually.

She has too.

I pick up her clothes and slowly open my door.

As soon as I open the door I see her. Her eyes are red and puffy and she looks so scared.

I walk towards her and she crashes her body into me. I lift her up to my waist and push her against the wall.

I crash our lips together.

Our kiss is full of need, full of hurt and full of love.

I pull back putting my head to hers "I love you River."

I gently move her hair from her face as I caress her cheek.

"Finn" she starts crying again.

"It's okay baby, we can do this together. That I can promise you" I feel the tears falling from my eyes.

"I love you. I'm sorry. I'm just so scared" she cries holding my face.

"I know my love. I'm just as scared as you. I've never loved anyone the way I love you and I will fight with everything I have to come back to you"

"Ohhh Finley Spencer I love you too. I will love you forever till the day my heart stops beating"

I grab her roughly and kisses her with all I have, all the love and passion I feel for her and our future.

"River. I want you to live. I want you to have our house full of pictures you've taken. I want to watch you walk down the aisle to me on the day you become my wife. I want to hold you in my arms on the day we meet our child. I want to watch you come undone and shake with satisfaction as me and Pickle satisfaction your every needs. I want you everyday forever"

She kisses me hard and deep.

"Finn take me to your bed"

I growl as I tun and go in my room, I kick the door closed and throw us both on the bed.

I rip her robe open and take her breasts one at a time in mouth teasingly nipping her nipples.

I kiss down her body. She pulls me back up to her mouth. "I want you to take me hard against the wall"

I growl as I grab a condom.

"Is that okay?" She asks.

"Ohhhh fuck yes baby" I say growling loudly. I grab her fast to me pulling her up to my waist.

She squeals a little by my fast movement.

She wraps her legs around me as I kiss her neck. I push her roughly against my wall and pull her head back by her hair as I bite and suck her neck leaving a instant hickey. I quickly put on a condom I'm so hard already.

I roughly slam into her.

She moans my name loudly as I take her hard and fast.

Her head is tipped up and she's being very loud.

My dick twitchs in her, I'm about ready to cum any minute.

She's almost there I can feel it.

"My baby's starting to find her own kinks. That's a good girl, scream my name as you cum for me"

"Ohhhh god Finn, I'm coming!"

I grab her hair a little tighter and slam into her as she's clenching around me.

I hold her tight as my dick twitchs in her.

We hold our heads together breathing heavily.