“Fuck. I don’t think I can revenge now.” bulong niya pero hindi ko na inintindi ‘yon sa pagkakaantok.
Nagising na lamang ako sa isang marahang haplos na nararamdaman ko sa aking braso at ang malalambot na labing dumadampi sa aking balikat at panga. At ang malalaking brasong nakapulupot sa aking beywang ay mahigpit ang pagkakayakap. Halos idiin na niya ang katawan niya sa akin habang nakatalikod ako sa kaniya at dinadama ang kaniyang katawan sa aking likuran.
“Good morning, my wife.” He kissed my shoulder and jaw consecutively making me groan lightly. “Can you still stand?” agad akong napamulat at nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa tanong niya at napakurap-kurap.
“We . . . really did it . . . last night?” I asked, still couldn’t believed that we really did have sex last night.
“Yeah,” he said hoarsely before nuzzling his nose on my neck. “Why? You don’t believe we did that?” he asked in his bedroom voice.
“H-Hindi lang talaga ako makapaniwala . . . I mean . . .” I bit my lower lip, feeling embarrassed now.
He chuckled seductively, “that was awesome. Our making love last night was damn amazing.” Mas lalo lang akong pinag-initan ng pisngi dahil do’n.
Making love . . .
“K-Kailangan na nating pumasok,” saad ko dahil nahihiya na ako pag-usapan ang nangyari sa amin.
“Hmm?” he hummed and nuzzled more on my neck and kissed it lightly.
Maya-maya pa ay pinakawalan na rin niya ako dahil sa pamimilit kong kumawala sa yakap niya. We still have work to do today. Tapos na ang day off ko kaya dapat na akong mag-asikaso.
Napaigik ako sa hapdi ng pagitan ko nang tumayo ako at nakaisang hakbang pa lang. Agad na bumangon si Callum para alalayan ako pero umiling ako sa kaniya.
“Are you sure you can walk?” nag-aalalang tanong niya.
“Kaya ko,” napakagat ako sa pang-ibabang labi at naglakad na parang walang hapding nararamdaman sa pagutan ng aking mga hita. Hanggang sa makarating ako sa banyo ay nagpanggap akong maayos. Pumasok ako roon at sinara na agad ang pinto, baka biglang magpumilit si Callum at pumasok pa sa loob.
We did it.
We really did it because I can still feel the pain it caused me last night. He was gentle yet rough to me last night. And I . . . screamed so hard, begging him to give me more . . .
Napatakip ako sa aking mukha dahil sa kahihiyang nararamdaman. Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala.
I’ve already gave him my virginity . . .
Iningatan ko ‘yon ng 26 years, at ibinigay na ngayon sa naging asawa ko. It’s worth it, right? Ibibigay ko rin naman sa kaniya ‘yon, so why am I kinda regretting it? He’s my husband, he’s worth what I gave. And this is the beginning of my plan . . . on proposing him the merging of the company. I should’ve also be cautious with my actions now.
Naligo ako at ilang minutong nagbabad sa maligamgam na tubig ng bathtub. At nang medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam ko ay dumiretso na ako ng ligo. Pagkatapos ay lumabas ng banyo. Naabutan ko pa si Callum na nakaupo sa gilid ng kama, nakapatong ang dalawang siko sa hita at mukhang malalim ang iniisip habang nakaupo roon.
I bit my lower lip. Is he regretting having . . . sex with me? He’s not satisfied? I know I don’t have any experience so he was just the one who’s giving me pleasure last night. And I don’t know if I gave him satisfaction in pleasure.
My heart sank at the thought. Mas lalo akong nahiya sa ginawa ko kagabi. I seduced him. I pushed him to his limits and I’m freakin’ drunk last night. I was drunk but I know what I am doing and saying last night.
Ipinilig ko ang iniisip at nagpunta na lang sa walk in closet. Hindi ko alam kung napansin ba ako ni Callum pero hindi ko na ‘yon napagtuunan ng pansin. Ang gusto ko na lang ay ang . . . matakasan ang kahihiyang nararamdaman ngayon. Baka nagsisisi na siya na may nangyari sa amin. Pero hindi naman ako p’wedeng basta-basta lang magbackout. Our company needs his company. My Daddy is expecting me to do better now.
Nagbihis ako ng isang ladies suit na beige color at pinaresan ‘yon ng strap sandals na kulay itim. Sa loob na rin ako ng blow dry ng aking buhok. Nang matapos ay lumabas na ako, hindi ko na naabutan si Callum doon. Narinig ko na lang ang lagaslas ng tubig mula sa banyo. Naliligo na siya. Kaya naman nagmadali na akong mag-ayos ng sarili ko. Gusto kong hindi niya ako maabutan dito sa kuwarto at umalis na lang nang maaga para pumasok sa trabaho.
Nang matapos ay nagmamadali kong kinuha ang aking bag at handa na sanang lumabas nang kuwarto nang bumukas ang pinto ng banyo at magsalita si Callum.
“Why in a rush?” I stilled and my eyes widened.
“Uh . . . I need to go to work early,” dahilan ko at kinagat ang pang-ibabang labi. Hindi makatingin sa kaniya.
“It’s still too early for work, wife. Wait for me. I’ll drive you to your work.” Napalunok ako nang mariin bago pumihit para tingnan niya.
He’s standing meters away from me that’s why I can still look at him straight in his eyes now, as if strong enough to have an eye contact with him.
Bumaba ang tingin ko sa kaniyang dibdib, sa kaliwang bahagi ng kaniyang dibdib, kung saan naroon ang isang maliit na tattoo. His name is tattooed in his left iron-clad chest. In a cursive font, Callum Travis is well tattooed in his chest. Ngayon ko lang talaga napagtuunan ng pansin ang tattoo’ng ‘yon dahil ngayon lang din ako naglakas loob na pagmasdan siya habang hubad-baro ang katawan kahit medyo malayo.
“H-Hindi na kailangan, Callum.” Nautal pa rin ako kahit nagkaroon na ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin siya.
Kumunot ang noo niya habang nakatingin sa akin, “what’s the matter now? Ano’ng problema kung magsasabay tayo pumasok? I’m not in a hurry, you are. And it’s still early, I can still drive you to your work.” sambit niya habang nagsusuot ng kaniyang dress shirt.
Napakagat ako sa pang-ibabang labi at hindi na alam kung ano pang idadahilan ko para lang makatakas sa kaniya. Hindi ko alam kung matatagalan ko ba na kasama siya sa sasakyan habang nag-iisip ng kung ano-ano.
“You’ll just wait for me for a bit then we’ll go downstairs to eat our breakfast.” he said in a stern voice before putting his suit on.
Isinuot niya rin ang neck tie pero hindi tuluyang inayos. Imbes ay lumapit siya sa akin habang mataman akong tinitingnan.
“Please . . .” his strained voice almost made me tremble.
Napalunok ako at huminga nang malalim bago isinukbit ang bag sa aking balikat para ayusing itali ang kaniyang neck tie. Seryoso lang ako habang ginagawa ‘yon at siya rin ay seryoso habang nakatitig sa akin nang matiim, tinatantiya ang aking ekspresyon.
“Why are you so distant to me now? Is because of what happened last night?” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at nag-angat ng tingin sa kaniya.
He’s looking at me intently, weighing my reaction and expression. I gulp and look away from his intense gaze.
“Since you wake up, you became distant and now you want to go to work alone and too early. You don’t want me to drive you to work. Why? You’re already regretting what happened between us? It was your first time . . . yet, you’re acting like it was nothing.” he scoffed in disbelief. Look away and bit his lower lip to protrude his annoyance. “I’m sorry if I took advantage on your drunk state last night. I just can’t resist your seductive face last night.” his pained voice made me look at him warily.
It hurts seeing him like this because of my actions. I felt guilty now.
“H-Hindi naman sa gano’n. Nahihiya lang ako. I’m sorry.” sambit ko sa katotohanan. Mariin ang pagkakakagat ko sa aking labi habang hinihintay ang reaksyon niya.
He sighed heavily before speaking. “It’s fine. It’s normal for you to react that way, but please tell me at least. I hate it when you become distant to me. I feel like I made you uncomfortable or I invalidate your feelings in this.” His arms snaked around my waist and pull me closer to him.
He planted a soft kiss on my forehead, making me at ease now. I smiled and hugged him as he continue kissing my forehead and my hair softly. I buried my face on his chest and calming my heart for beating too fast like this. We stayed that way for minutes until we’re satisfied and decided to go downstairs.
We ate our breakfast silently and went to work together. Tinapos ko ang trabaho sa araw na ‘yon habang nag-iisip kung paano ko masisimulan ang pakikipag-usap kay Callum tungkol sa merging ng kompanya namin at ng kaniya.
I wonder why he didn’t agreed to my father’s proposal about that merging? What are his plans in this marriage if he doesn’t want to be associated with our companies, too? I don’t really know why did he agreed to this marriage and chose me to be his wife when he can choose or pick some other girls that have more credentials or have more known family name. Our family is not that known in this country and our companies . . . are slowly going down to bankruptcy. Why me? Why did he chose me, instead?
“These are the final design my team made,” sambit ko nang makapasok sa opisina ni Dustin dala ang final design na ginawa ng team ko.
Though I said they still have almost four days to finish these, they finished it before the deadline. And they want me to pass this to Dustin for approval.
“Lahat?” he asked when he accept the folder.
“Yes, just for approval. They will present it to you if you want. They also finalize the target budget. My secretary will inform the accounting department if it’s approved.” tumango siya habang pinagmamasdan ang laman ng folder.
Binasa niya at sinuri ‘yon habang ako naman ay kumuha ng prutas sa kaniyang mesa. Napatingin siya sa akin at nagtaas ng kilay bago umiling. He’s used to it, kung makatingin naman ‘to.
“They still need to have a presentation to the board. It’s all fine for me.” ako naman ang tumango bago nagpaalam sa kaniya at kinuha ang folder.
“I will inform them. Thank you, Dustin.” Ngumiti ako sa kaniya.
“Anytime. You should have your lunch now. I still have a meeting ongoing, so I can’t accompany you today.”
“It’s alright. Next time, then. Bye!” sambit ko at lumabas na ng opisina niya.
Tinawag ko ang team para paghandaan ang presentation sa mga susunod na araw. At pagkatapos no’n ay bumaba na ako para kumain. Gusto ko sanang utusan si Chris kaso marami siyang ginagawa kaya ako na lang ang bumaba.
Nang nasa lobby na ako ay napatigil ako nang may makitang pamilyar na likod na nakatayo hindi kalayuan sa kung nasaan ako. May kausap ito sa cellphone habang nakatayo roon. Naroon din ang mga bodyguard niya ilang metro ang layo sa kaniya. Napakagat ako sa pang-ibabang labi habang tinatanaw siya.
Iniligid ko ang paningin at nakita ang iilang empleyado na nakatingin kay Callum habang ang lalaki naman ay walang pakialam habang nakikipag-usap sa cellphone. Some visitors were also eyeing him as if he’s an alien in Earth.
“So eye-catching.” bulong ko bago naglakad papunta sa gawi ni Callum.
Huminto ako isang metro ang layo sa kaniya, hindi pa rin siya lumilingon kaya tiningnan ko na lang mga taong napapatingin sa kaniya. Why are they looking at him?!
Noon pa man ay agaw pansin na talaga ng kagwapuhan niya. Lalo pa ngayon na mas gumwapo siya at lumaki ang katawan niya. Pati ang tindig ng katawan ay nakaakit talaga. Kaya hindi ko masisisi ang mga babaeng ito kung mapapatingin sila o mahuhumaling kay Callum. He’s just too much. Even his brooding eyes were damn attractive.
Napatayo ako nang maayos nang matapos siya sa pakikipag-usap sa cellphone at dahan-dahang lumingon sa gawi ko. Bahagya siyang nagulat pero nakabawi rin at lumapit sa akin. He crouch to kiss my lips. Publicly! Napakurap-kurap ako bago tumingin sa kaniya nang mariin. He’s too oblivious with the people’s gaze.
“Hey, my wife.” Pakiramdam ko ay kulay kamatis na ang aking pisngi lalo pa nang bahagya siyang ngumiti at hinawakan ang aking siko nang marahan.
“Why are you here?” I asked, confused.
He shrugged, “I’m here to ask you for a lunch date.” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at hindi makapaniwala sa narinig.
He’s asking me for a lunch date. A date!