Chapter 71: Chapter Seventy-One

Olivia

My husband is a pussy. And I mean that. He is scared of holding his own kids. He says they are too small, too delicate. As if I'm not scared of holding them. Honestly if it wasn't for mom and Mrs Belle, I don't know how I would have been able to cope these past three days. But I'm done letting him have his way.

"You know, I think it's good that I didn't let go of my apartment." I tell him, sitting down next to him.

I'm still having difficulties sitting. The pain has subsided but not much. Steaming helped me a lot because I was cut due to the babies being big, so it helped in to get rid of the stitches. And although they are not all out, some of them are out.

"Why do you say that?" He asks me, his eyes on his phone.

"I mean, since you don't want to help with the kids, I might as well move there." My words cause him to now look at me. And the reaction on his face is exactly what I was hoping for.

"Are you blackmailing me Olivia?" His voice is on edge.

"It's not blackmail baby, I'm merely telling you what I'm going to do." I tell him with a full smile.

I love the fact that he never saw this coming. He didn't even think that one day I would use the apartment against him, and this is only the beginning.

"Jason, you said you want kids. But now that they are here, you don't even want to touch them. What do you expect me to do?" I say, wiping the smile off my face.

"I really am scared to hold them. I don't have delicate hands like you. But I promise I will try." He tells me, and on cue, one of them cries.

I look at him expectantly, not moving from my seat. He sighs then and stands up to go fetch him. Honestly, I wasn't going to do it. I don't think I'd survive living without him. He's become a part of me so much. And he is taking too long coming with the baby. I stand up to go see what is holding him. And just as I go enter the babies room, he comes out holding Godric. I swear he feeds more than the others.

Jason is holding him correctly. Which tells me that he's been watching me carefully. The baby is calming down from his cry.

"What took you so long?" I ask him, taking the baby into my hands.

"Picking up a baby is hard." He tells me, following me back into our bedroom.

We made the right decision sleeping with them in our room really, because they always want milk. More so in the middle of the night. During the day though, they sleep almost most of the day, which is good for me because I can also sleep.

Sitting on the bed, Isabella decides to also start crying and Jason goes to pick her up. It's always like this, I almost always feed two at the same time, which is really painful on my nipples because they suck on me real hard. So after I settle Ric, I tell Jason to put Isabella on my other side so that I can feed her too. It's still hard having to feed them both at the same time as I'm not used to it.

"I think we should think about buying them bottles milk." Jason says. I've also thought about it.

"I was also thinking about that. It's going to be hard in a few weeks to feed both at the same time like this." I reply, honestly though, I enjoy breastfeeding, if they were not so many, maybe I would not have been thinking about it.

"Then tomorrow we will talk about it to your mother, see if she can recommend any that is good."

It's already late, and although I can just call her and speak about it through the phone, I don't see it as urgent. As long as for now I can feed them, it's not a big deal. I know for a fact that she will be glad about me stopping breastfeeding also. She has been talking to me about.

When I'm done breastfeeding both children, I give Godric to Jason so that he helps me burp him as I burp Isabella. I know that Liam will also be awake any minute now. Honestly, it's a good thing that my breasts are full of milk, I guess it also helps that I'm always eating to fill them.

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"And when are you going to stop breastfeeding? Because you can't give them both milk, one has to go." My mother asks me.

"Maybe in a month or two. For now, just let me enjoy breastfeeding." I reply to her.

"Ok then. You will tell me then and I will buy the milk, but I don't see it necessary that you keep on breastfeeding."

My mom is really against me breastfeeding three kids. Ever since she came here in the morning and I spoke to her about buying milk for the triplets, she's been going on and on about me starting sooner, which obviously makes sense. I'm just not ready. I don't know if it makes sense.

"Babe I need to go to the office. There's an emergency meeting I need to attend.'' Jason says walking into the kitchen.

"Oh, ok. When will you be back?" I ask him because when mom leaves later I will be left alone. Mrs Belle had a family emergency she also needed to attend.

"I promise I won't be long. I will be an hour or two out." He replies.

"Ok, I hope everything is fine then." I say and stand up to kiss him and he leaves.

I stare after him as he leaves. When I turn to sit down, I find my mother staring at me. If she could read my mind, I'm not sure she'd like what she'd find there. Sharing a bed with Jason is a bit hard, especially when all we can do is kiss. But we can't do anything until I have fully healed. I don't know how long it will take. It's especially hard because we sleep with the kids in the bedroom.

He hasn't said anything but I know he also wants alone time with me. I also know he's been jerking off in the shower. I can only imagine how long he's going to hold himself back. I know that I can't wait for him to fuck me.