Chapter 43: Chapter Fourty-Three

Olivia

On Monday when I got to my office, Desiree was waiting for me. Apparently she had a good time with my brothers they put it all night long and land and choose to his word made sure that she got home safely.

"How do you handle all the hotness that surrounds you girl?" Was the first thing she said when she got into my office actually.

"Dude, ew. Don't talk to me about my brothers being hot." I'd told her.

She said she was disappointed because when Landon dropped her off at her condo he didn't even want to get in didn't even hint to her that he was actually maybe attracted to her. "He was a total gentleman, it's disappointed really." She said as she slouched on my chair.

And she was sad about it and said it was because she really liked him. When I asked her if it wasn't the alcohol sh laughed at my face and said she could handle her alcohol and left my office.

I have decided to go see Dr Smith alone at my break, especially because Jason won't be back until later. I want to do this alone first without anyone holding my hand or anyone at my side. That's what I told the doctor. And I made him promise to not tell my fiance. He had another doctor perform the ultrasound because he had a patient.

"I'm guessing this is your first baby?" Dr Lovey asked me. I asked him if it's his name and laughed saying it's a surname. I've never heard of such a lovely surname before.

"Uhm, yes." I answer him quietly.

"This is gonna feel cold." He tells me already pouring the gel on my naked lower abdomen and when I screeched he laughed.

When he took the wand and started moving it on my abdomen, spreading the gel along the way, he started talking again. "There's not much to see as you're still early in your pregnancy, but do you see that tiny dot there?" He asked me pointing towards the screen of the ultrasound and I nodded. "That's your baby. I'd say wait a few more weeks, maybe three then come back and you will see some development."

When we were done with the ultrasound, he gave me a few tips and precautions for the stage I was in and I was on my way back to the office again. I would keep this to my chest until I feel Jason was ready to hear of it, which would be never honestly.

Interestingly, he asked me if I'd made up my mind when he got home later in the day. "I think we should wait until at least I'm two months. I read in the internet that you can actually see development in from the second and third month. The first one there's nothing to see." I told him the lie without looking at him. He was good at reading my face. But it wasn't entirely a lie because I knew if he went to the internet he'd find what I told him.

"Yeah, ok. I was just hoping you'd decided to put me out of my misery." He'd replied and I couldn't help but laugh.

"Baby you're making yourself miserable. Relax and let things happen on their own." I said and kissed.

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For the last two weeks since I told him that lie, he's been asking everyday if I've changed my mind. I've given him the same answer as before and yet he kept on asking, so I decided to buy a calendar on the fourth day he'd asked me and everyday I marked it down to the day I told him we'd go which is today. I put it on his side of the bed where he could see it and he stopped asking.

I'm not going to work today, because I have an appointment. Jason is going to meet me there around eleven. He had Rudy assigned to me and Julia's driver to drive him around for the day. He said he'd rather have him protect me when he was not around to do it himself.

And so here we are in Dr Smith's office. I actually have a little bump and I'm finding it weird because I'm only two months. And like the last doctor who attended to me had done, Dr Smith puts the cold gel on me and all. He is silent as he looks at the screen, not talking like that other doctor. When he does talk though, I'm surprised and not at the same time.

"It looks like we have two babies in the nest." He finally says pointing towards the screen. Jason's hand on mine tightens, urging me to look at his happy face and I laugh out loud.

"One would think you're the one pregnant what with your excitement." I tell him and Dr Smith agrees with me.

"I'm going to ask that you eat carefully and take vitamins. I will have a presentation written for you so you won't be confused. Then starting from the first week of next month you come for monthly check ups. We good?" He speaks looking at me, when I nod yes he turns to Jason after taking ultrasound photos and gives them to him and my fiance is the happiest I've ever seen him.

Dr Smith continues giving me instructions and asking me if I've started having any hormonal problems and cravings, which I've not had yet. He tells me that he will hold off on the prescription for now and tells me to come back if I start having them before my appointment date.

Rudy drops the reluctant CEO at his office and takes me back home. When I get off, Rudy congratulates me saying I've made Jason the happiest man in the world. When I get upstairs, I immediately call my mother and give her the news. She is as happy as Jason is and tells me that we need to celebrate. I tell her that I will organise something for the weekend and we chat a bit more before I let her go.

As I roam around the house alone, I ask myself why I'm not as everyone seems to be, even Rudy is happy. I'm mean it's not like I didn't or don't want kids, I do. But it's like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop in a way, I'm waiting for disappointment. I don't know where these feelings come from and I don't understand them.

I want to talk to someone about it but I know I can't talk to Jason, he'd never understand. He'd think I don't want my babies, and I do. But I don't know how I feel right now and it's irking me. I know my mother would understand but I feel like if I told her, I would be bursting her happy bubble also.