Chapter 12

(***Aaron***)

I had every intention of only going to Rylan’s for some kisses and maybe trying that thing called snuggling with her. However, all rational thought flew right out of my head the instant she let me in her room. I just couldn’t hold back anymore.

She was wearing nothing but a towel and was still drowsy from sleep when she let me in her window like some love-sick teenage boy. It was the single most erotic sight I have seen in my life. Right then and there, I made a choice, and there was nowhere else I wanted to be than in her bed, making her moan my name.

I would have stopped when she wanted to go further, and I didn’t bring a condom. Then that saucy little minx had to flip us over and tell me that she had some. My gut didn’t like knowing that she was prepared, but my heart and body were completely on board with the direction things were going.

Right now, she is between my legs with that amazing mouth wrapped around my cock. I am fighting my body not to explode too soon while she applies delicious suction and strokes my balls. I dreamed of her like this for years, and now that we are finally here, I am completely at her mercy, just like I knew I would be.

“Fuck, Ry, if you don’t stop soon, I am going to explode.”

Rylan stops long enough to pull my shaft from her mouth to look up at me. “I want you to. I want you to let go and come for me.”

She winks at me, then goes right back to working her magic. I have imagined this so many times, but the reality of it far surpasses anything I ever dreamed of. She is a goddess personified, and she knows it.

Between her mouth and hands, I am lost in the pleasure she is giving me. I don’t want this to end, but I feel my orgasm building fast, like a freight train on the tracks. I am making some kind of animalistic growling noise as she takes me higher and higher.

Sometime later, I lost all track of time here in her room. I moan her name as I reach that peak, and her mouth sends me over the edge. She sits up, licks her lips, and then just stares at me with a smile on her face. I love that satisfied look she is giving me.

“That was far better than I ever thought it would be,” she whispers.

“Come here.” I open my arms for her.

She looks at me, then at herself, and laughs. I realize I am naked from the waist down, and I still have my sneakers on. After kicking off my shoes, I sit up enough to remove my tank top, then lay back down and open my arms again.

This time, she lays down next to me and lays her head on my chest. I let out a happy sigh as she placed her hand over my heart and began idly tracing her fingers in the shape of a heart. This was what I wanted more than what we just did.

“When I decided to come over here, this is what I wanted. I wanted to kiss you—maybe some heavy petting—and then I wanted to just fall asleep with you in my arms like this. I have dreamed of this since the night of the charity auction.”

“Aaron, what is it you want from me?” Her fingers are still, and I feel her take a deep breath.

“Look at me, Rylan.” I wait until she lifts her head to do as I ask. “I am done holding back how I feel. When we were in France and you asked me to fuck you and we would deal with the rest later, I walked away because I just wasn’t ready.”

“What made you change your mind? Why now?”

“I realized that if I continued to push you away until I was in a better place mentally, there was a very real chance that I would lose you completely.”

I reach over to cup her cheek when she starts to lay her head back on my chest. I lean my head over to capture her lips with mine in a soft kiss, then pull back to just look into her beautiful blue eyes. Two fat tears slip from her eyes, which causes my heart to break a little.

“How do I know that you won’t push me away again when things get hard while you work on getting better?”

“Ry, I can’t promise not to push you away again, because there will be bad days to come for me as I go. What I can promise is that I won’t push you away like I used to. I fought my feelings for you for too long, and it hurt you, and I am done fighting with myself on that.”

“I just need to know what I am to you, Aaron.”

With a swift move, I roll her over so that she is on her back, my body over hers, and I cup her cheek. “You are everything to me, Rylan. I know I am safe with you because you know what haunts me. I feel more comfortable with you than I have with anyone other than Quinn. Will you be my girlfriend?”

For the first time in a long time, I am nervous about a girl. I have felt like this since I was thirteen and asked Megan O’Malley to the school dance. I watch Rylan’s face and wait.

She nods her head after a few moments and smiles at me.

“We can take things at your pace. I want to take you on dates, talk about the future, and get to know you better than I already do.”

With a laugh, she leans up to kiss me. I pour everything I feel for her into this kiss. Soon her hands come up to wrap around my back, and her legs open to accommodate my body on top of hers better. I rest one arm on the bed to lift some of my weight off her while my free hand strokes up and down her side.

The kiss turns passionate quickly, and I groan when she starts to grind her hips against me. I can feel her wetness against my shaft as she rocks against me. Is it too soon to make love to her after asking her to be my woman? Hell no.

I pull my mouth from hers and say, “Rylan, if you don’t stop, we may go too far tonight.”

She hooks one leg over my hip, then reaches down between us to grab my raging erection. While looking me in the eye, she rubs the head of my shaft through her wet fold, making it nice and slick. I close my eyes as I savor the feeling of her hand wrapped around me.

They fly open when she places my cock at her opening and lifts her hips, causing me to enter her just enough that only the tip is inside. Holy fucking shit, she is so ready for me. Instinct causes me to flex my hips forward, pushing all the way inside her. I hold still as I stare into her equally shocked eyes.

“Fuck, Rylan, you feel amazing wrapped around me. Have you wanted this as much as I have?”

“Oh, Aaron, please...” She moans my name and tries to move her hips, but I grab them with both hands to hold her still.

“No, baby, I am bare, and we can’t do this without a condom.”

She lets out a frustrated growl, then points at the dresser. “Get one, because if you don’t finish this, I might go up in flames. Make love to me, Aaron.”

“Are you sure?”

I moan as she clenches her inner walls around my shaft. That is a nice trick. Knowing she can do that makes me throb. I let go of her hip so I could reach over to the dresser drawer and fumble around inside as I blindly looked for the foil packet I needed.

While I am searching, she takes the opening I gave her and starts moving her hips upward. I almost lose all concentration as I feel that silky glide of my shift in and out of her pussy. She is tight, and I don’t want her to stop.

“Woman, hold still,” I groan.

Rylan laughs, which causes her inner muscles to clench around me. Thankfully, I find what I am looking for before I lose my damn mind and fuck her raw. I rip the wrapper open with my teeth, then pull out of her so I can sit back on my knees. After rolling the condom on, I just stare down at her in amazement.

Her skin is flushed, her lips are swollen from our kisses, and her blue eyes are filled with desire. With her legs open and ready for me, I send up a silent brief prayer in thanks for making her mine. I want to take it slow, but I have a feeling that the second I am buried back inside her tight, wet pussy, slow and steady, will be the last thing on my mind.

“I want it on record that I didn’t come here for this.”

“Shut up, Carter, and fuck me already.”

“Yes, ma’m.”

I lift her left leg, hooking it over my hip while I am still sitting up on my heels, then I slide into her slowly. I watch her face as I do. There is such a beautiful expression on her face. It is a mixture of pleasure, happiness, and amazement.

The condom makes this feel different, but it is still amazing. I want to take it off and make love to her bare. Maybe one day.

I slowly pull almost all the way out, then thrust back in just as slowly. I keep this rhythm going until she opens her legs further in a very clear invitation to move faster. Picking up the pace, I place one hand on her chest, right between her breasts, and use my other hand to pull her closer to me so that her ass is on my knees.

This angle lets me go deeper as I thrust into her.

“You feel so fucking good, Ry.”

She moans my name, then tries to pull me down to her for a kiss. Instead of doing this, I pull her up into my lap as I set us up for the lotus position. My legs crossed, and hers wrapped around my waist. I flex my hips upwards as she uses her legs to move up and down on me.

In this position, I can now fuse my mouth with hers, effectively silencing her moans as they get louder. We rock together for what feels like hours as our pleasure builds. Soft sounds of our lovemaking resonate throughout the room.

I tear my mouth from hers to stare into her beautiful blue eyes. Making love to her is so much more than I ever imagined it would be. The deep emotional connection we share makes it better. I want to whisper those three little words that I know she wants to hear, but I am just not ready to go there yet.

I do love her. It took me too long to realize that. I will tell her one day, but not tonight. She may not believe that I mean it after everything I put her through in the past. I want her to have no doubts in her head when I say it for the first time.

“Aaron, this feels...” She breaks off and moans as I lean back on my hands and thrust up into her hard and fast.

I feel her inner walls tighten as her orgasm rips through her. Her pussy milks my cock as I continue to thrust into her. I slow down as she leans forward to put her head on my shoulder. I keep the pace slow and steady until I feel my release chasing me.

“Aaron, I am so close. This feels so fucking good,” she whispers in my ear.

“Me too, Ry. Come for me one more time, baby.”

“I love hearing you call me that.”

“Oh, fuck Rylan. Fuck, baby, I am so close.”

She lifts her head off my shoulder, then moves her hips faster. Her pussy clenches around my cock as her orgasm hits, and it sends me over the edge with her. I fuse my mouth to hers as she continues to rock her hips, riding out her orgasm.

When she stills, I move us so we are flat on the bed, then roll off so I can get rid of the condom. I come back and crawl into bed beside her, tucking her close to my side. She shivers a little, so I reach to the side of the bed to grab the blanket that fell on the floor earlier in the night.

“Oh my goodness, Aaron, that was...”

“Amazing.”

“Yes, it was. How have we managed to not do that until now?”

“My stubborn ass.”

Rylan laughs, but then pops her head up off my shoulder to look at me. “I get why you pushed me away all those years, and I am sorry for being so damn pushy about what I wanted.”

“Hey, let’s leave all that behind us, okay? I made some mistakes where you were concerned, and you knew what you wanted and went for it. That all led us here, and I like where we are right now.”

She lays her head back on my shoulder and lets out a yawn. I grab her hand, place it over my heart, and close my eyes. I should probably get dressed so I can go home, but I have no desire to leave.

“I can’t believe you snuck in my window like a teenager. Why didn’t you just wait for me at the front door after you texted me?” She laughs as she remembers how I climbed into the window earlier.

“Well, I waited but got impatient, so I walked around to the side of the house. It occurred to me that I looked silly out there in the bushes waiting for you to open the window. Knowing what you were wearing made me happy that I didn’t wait at the door.”

“Oh, yeah?”

“Yes, because, if you recall, things moved quickly once I noticed you were damn near naked.”

"I am still very naked." Her voice trails off as she strokes my semi-erect cock.

It doesn’t stay that way for long. After grabbing another condom out of the drawer, Rylan tears it open and then rolls it onto my cock in a smooth motion that I will have to ponder on later. Then she is straddling me.

My woman is demanding when she wants something, and I absolutely love it. We spent the next few hours making love before finally falling asleep in each other’s arms. This was an amazing night, and I have hope now for the first time in years.

Rylan Danvers is my light in the dark.