Chapter 30

Alex’s POV

I have always studied books on mating because it always interested me. I longed to find the guy who would sweep me off my feet and make me feel happy no matter the circumstance.

I remember that one time my English teacher made me read a book that contained a female character who had said that she had never loved a man physically.

I laughed as I thought to myself. 'they must be sexually compatible'

she must have noticed my thoughts because she looked at me and then she said softly "when you love someone physically... it's not just by mind its... I don't know if I can explain it and I don't think you know what I mean since you have never experienced it."

I remember looking at her eyes glitter as she thought about something... someone.

I wanted to know what she was feeling. I wanted what was in her eyes that day. 

Soon I began to look up everything on mates and I was fascinated at the thought of having someone who would make me feel something rare. 

I read up on the mating process and the books described a females heat as painful.

they were so wrong...

it's fucking painful. 

The feeling of your body burning up hurts from the inside out. the only thing is that your body wont melt. 

I try to get up from the floor but I fail.

the heat brings forth a headache and I'm left there laying down in the cold marvel floor unable to absorb the coolness. only heat.

'Why does this always happen to me?' I ask myself as I look at the ceiling panting trying to not cry.

'I would like to know that as well' I hear Ruth say inside of my mind.

I laugh loudly and bitterly. 'look who finally decides to show up.'

she stays quiet for a moment before she says 'Alex, I couldn't help it. you are slowly progressing to the point that you won't need me anymore. the only reason as to why I'm here now is because this is the last time ill ever meet with you ever again.'

'what the hell is that supposed to mean?' I ask mad.

'it means that I will be giving you my wolf powers and ill disappear. that's how the system goes. I pass down to you my powers then when you die your spirit will be born in another child and you will be their wolf. you will hand down your power to them and that's how the system continues.'

'what if I don't want you to go?' I ask as my voice cracks a little.

she stays silent 'there are some wolves that don't ever speak to their humans because they are afraid of getting emotionally close. I chose to meet you and to get to know you, because I want to remember you.' she sighs 'someday, when we have been reborn... I hope to meet you.'

I feel a tear roll down towards my hair as I turn myself over to be able to stand up and I succeed slowly.

I slowly walk towards the door and I try my hardest to walk towards the wall and sit with my back against it.

'damn it.' I say inside of my head as I look at the door with hope. "Blaise... hurry"

Blaise’s POV

I run towards the main doors of the room where Alex is at and I stop. I have always wanted to be with my mate but never in this way. 

The group of men who were going to attack us ran back to where they came from as soon as Patrick announced that Alex was on heat. I could feel their embarrassment from being wrong the whole time about me and Alex. 

I didn't even bother to get guards to go running after them since I figured that with what they had seen they would spread the word and I would avoid more problems with the rest of the wolf society.

I look at the doors as I inhale the strawberry scent. 

how do I describe this scent?

it's very addicting and I absolutely love it. it drives me senses crazy and it makes me want to inhale more of it. It's absolutely something that I have never experienced before.

I walk over to open the doors and I see Alex sitting down next to the door looking at me with the softest expression in the world. Her eyes usually look filled with strength and a hard expression but today at this very moment she looks at me with this incredibly soft and kind expression. 

I carry her in my arms as I walk out of the room and walk towards our own room.

"Blaise" I hear her say as she holds my neck with her arms and kisses my neck.