Chapter 101: I Feel So Helpless

~Alina Pov~

I didn't care about what my parent were saying right now, all I wanted was to see if Kennedy was okay as I was getting uneasy and lost, I could feel his uneasiness, and not even bothering to ask where he was, my feelings led me to him.

I walked through this unfamiliar place and kept on walking and running until I saw an opening that revealed the familiar pack and people. I smiled joyfully and ran towards our home, as I got closer to home, the feelings became stronger and I knew I was right- Adams was home.

Immediately I got home, I didn't bother about the surprise gazes and greetings of the guards and omega maids, I ran towards the step and ran to his room, then knocked soundly but no one answered me. I tried connecting with him through the mind link and all I got was silence which made me realize Kennedy had locked his mind.

I felt so uneasy and anxious about everything and all I wanted was to know what his thoughts were and tell him not to think too much. I clenched my fist and glared at the door and when I hit it with my fist, it opened which shocked me. The door had been opened from the start, I scratched my head in embarrassment and walked inside the room quietly.

The room was so dark which made me frown, but I kept on walking forward with my wolf eyes, I looked around and frowned, I could smell his scent in this room which was normal as this was his room but somehow I couldn't seem to find him here, I bite my lips and immediately left the room and walked towards my room, and I found it locked from the inside which was enough to tell me he is inside my room.

But my problem now is how to open the door, I can't communicate with him and I don't think he would open the door if I knocked but I still needed to try my best, right?

I swallowed hard and began knocking, I knocked gently at first but hearing no response, I began hitting the door loudly, but still, I heard no response from him.

I felt so frustrated that tears began dropping. I felt so heartbroken, I wanted to break the darn door and rush in but I couldn't. This was the first time Kennedy would treat me this way and it has always been me acting like a kid and throwing traumas but that was because I knew my mate would surely come for me and pat me even if I was in the wrong.

But now I feel so helpless when it comes to him. "Wuuu…Haah!" Hoarse uncorrent sounds came out from my throat as I tried talking even when I knew nothing would come out.

Tears rushed out like its has been waiting forever, and even I don't understand why I am being so emotional, I just suddenly felt like feeling and being close to

My mate but somehow, he doesn't even want to see me, and knowing it is so heartbreaking.

I feel so depressed all of a sudden and feel it's so unfair. My parents had doubted him and not me so why wouldn't he talk to me? If there was a problem I was ready to assist him and come together to brainstorm together so why does he need to lock me out of his mind?

My hoarse and croaked voice resounded loudly in the hall as I pounded on the door hoping he would hear me I think he couldn't take it anymore as the door suddenly opened making me fall inside and into his arms.

"Alina!" His Hoarse voice sounded concerned seeing me fall, and he held me tightly but I used that opportunity to cling to him and not let go.

I didn't want to let him so he would shut me out again. I don't want it, it feels horrible! So horrible!

"Alina…" He called slowly and hugged me tightly and when I raised my head to look at him, I saw some red patches in his eyes, his eyes were so red and aggressive making my heart ache so much. I stood on my heels held his face in my hands and placed his forehead on mine.

I looked into his eyes and then, "Kennedy…" I called out so softly and I had thought he wouldn't hear me as he had blocked me but who knew he would press his head on mine?

"Hhmm..?" He whispered which surprised me and then made me so happy. I smiled amidst my tears then he raised his fingers and cleaned my face with a frown.

"Why are you crying?" He asked gently and calmly.

I shook my head and pouted angrily, then I heard him chuckle and kiss the remaining tears off my face, then leaned down to capture my lips in a hot kiss.

This kiss was rough and intense and it was like he was trying to calm his emotions from being intimate with me which he had always done.

I noticed Kennedy loves touching and connecting with me when he is in a bad mood. He kissed me so deeply and it couldn't be more rough and hot at the moment.

His hands snaked around my waist and he pulled me closer to himself and then hugged me tightly and then before I knew what was going on, I was inside the room and the door was closed tightly.

He kissed me so much that I could feel the pain in my lips, and then after having enough of my lips, he moved into my mouth and swallowed it all, my muffled cries, my spit, and my tongue, he sucked and swallowed it all then be pinched my chin and made me look up at him-

"Baby… I feel so confused and helpless. It's been so long I felt this helpless and I don't know what to do, I don't know…" He said then closed his eyes tightly to avoid looking at me.

I looked at the pale face in front of me and felt the heart-wrenching pain. I gasp then held him closer to myself. I needed to make him feel better and loved. I needed to reassure him and the only way to do that-

"Hey!" I called out in my heart and he looked into my eyes in confusion.

"You want me?" I asked and seeing him look stunned, I smiled gently, "But I want you, Ken… I crave for you!"