“well atleast im back now to make the day more interesting”
This time she laughed properly and to me it sounded like a chorus of birds. The very sound of her laughing immediately made me feel like I could fly and lifted me up in an instant. She must have seen that my smile had clearly grown and I must now look like a complete goof, she smiled back at me and we spent the rest of the form discussing different D&D games that we had played, hers were with some online friends that she had and mine from our usual group. The bell went and my heart sank as I realised that the next 2 hours would be filled with maths problems and algebra when I would much rather just be sat talking to Abbey. The lesson dragged and due to it being a double session it dragged even more than normal. My mind was now completely filled with different images of abbey and how much I just wanted to hold her and maybe even kiss her, this was so unusual for me as I was normally swept up in trying to do the work for school. today for some reason no matter how hard I tried I just couldn’t get her out of my mind. As soon as the second bell rang signalling that start of break I chucked everything into my school bag and dashed for the door. I was halfway through when the teacher Mr frind shouted out
“don’t forget pages 112 through to 120 on my desk by tomorrow end of school please”
I carried on with the half running pace that I had and found my way to the courtyard. Their she was the one thing that made my day seem bearable and not like I was just doing thing as they needed to be done. I felt my heart jump as I sat next to her, I had decided that I would bring in my D&D book to try and plan a session with her over the breaks. It was a good reason for us to spend time together and also a great reason for the others to leave us alone as they didn’t want to ruin what we may have had in store for them. We sat discussing possible monsters and areas that the group could visit. The sound of the bell was like an atom bomb going of inside my chest, my heart sank and I didn’t want to get up from the bench, my one consoling thought was that it was only another 2 hours until I could see her again.
The next to lessons felt longer than anything I had experienced and I had also decided that I needed to ask abbey if she would at least go on a date with me. I could feel every beat of my heart in my chest as the time for lunch grew nearer. I knew I needed to find the courage to do this and so I created a plan, I would first of all go and check the courtyard and see if she was their, step 2 if she was their I would go to the toilet and make sure I looked decent, step 3 talk myself up and go sit next to her, step 4 talk about D&D for a while and then the final step just ask her out. The bell sounded and my heart near enough jumped to my throat. I had never experienced anything like this before and to be honest I had never even thought about asking a girl out, I knew the older kids had relationships but I hadn’t really seen the point of them. I had also found girls attractive before and had shall we say acted on those feelings but this
feeling was different.
I made my way to the courtyard and peered around the entry way, sure enough their she was a picture of perfection to my eyes. I headed straight to the toilets and checked myself in the mirror my black hair sat in its usual messy manner and my eyes were their normal sapphire blue. I paused and tried to style my hair for a moment. I stopped and had a look at myself before deciding that actually the way my hair was before was better. I then looked at my uniform and decided to loosen my tie and unbutton a top button, I still didn’t understand why my appearance at this point meant so much to me. I had never bothered to try and fit in before why now did I need to. I was reminded by the image of abbey sat in the courtyard and after another quick check I knew I was ready. The entire walk from the toilets in the main corridor to the courtyard I just kept telling myself
“its fine, you can do this, you got this”
And other such things to talk myself up. I did at one point think what is the worst that could happen and immediately changed my line of thought as this lead to her saying no in my mind and created a feeling of empty nothingness within my stomach. I quickly went back to thoughts of its fine and you can do this. I sat next to her and noticed the perfume she was wearing. It was soft and floral almost enticing it made my whole body feel like electricity had begun coursing through me. I paused for a moment breathing in her smell before I spoke
“s..so wanna carry on with the D&D stuff we were doing earlier?”