Chapter 47

**Lily**

“Please give me some time to process.”, I whispered while my lips were still resting against his. I pulled away and shut the door. I was still inside the bedroom, Matteo was not.

Deep in my heart I know I will forgive him, but I also know that I’m not yet ready to do it now. I needed time to get to that point, and I wanted Matteo to wait. He did lie to me. Fine, maybe he didn’t lie outright and to my face, but he did withhold the truth from me. The truth is that he is a mafia leader and a criminal, and I am not. I also had no idea what it meant to be a mafia leader like he is.

I do believe that he loved me. Okay, I know he didn’t say it like that. He said that he was falling in love with me, but to me that is mere semantics. It was the sign I wanted and needed from Matteo. I needed to hear that there was a feeling, a pull to me that went beyond physical. I have it now, and it gave me a sense of confidence.

At the same time, did I want to be linked to a mafia leader? Even if I didn’t commit any criminal activities, I would be a criminal by association. Did I want that life for me? Did I want to have a target on my back, assuming that Matteo has his enemies? Could I deal with that?

Who was I kidding? I will forgive him, and I want to be with him. I didn’t think it was possible to fall so fast, but the longer I get to reflect on my feelings for Matteo, the more I realize that I had tried to ignore any feeling of infatuation, caring, or love.

I flopped onto the bed, not sure what I was going to do now. I had just decided to surf through Netflix, knowing that I wouldn’t find anything that would interest me, when Norah called me.

“Hi stranger!”, Norah laughed through the phone. I put my phone on speaker and laid back on the bed. Her laugh was infectious.

“I heard shit went down?”, she asked. Norah had this way of making heavy topics seem like gossip.

“Yeah, it did. I’m sure Emma already told you though.”, I grinned, though the shit that went down was no laughing matter.

“You know she did. So, lover boy is a criminal?”, she summarized. Norah had a way with words.

“Matteo is a leader of a mafia clan.”, I answered. I heard Norah whistle.

“And what are you going to do now?”, she asked. The million-dollar question.

“I don’t know. I know that I will forgive him for lying. I do want to be with him. But I don’t know if I can live his life.”, I answered truthfully.

“Well, you won’t know without trying.”, Norah chuckled. “Will you be able to find someone who can satisfy you in bed like he can?”

Did I mention just how invested Norah is in my love life? She felt no shame talking about sex.

“I don’t know? I never did before.”, I replied.

“Exactly! If there is one thing that I learned, it is not to let someone go when he is your match between the sheets. That’s when I knew Adam was the one for me. He pushes me to my limits sexually.”, Norah disclosed. A little too much information for me if you ask me!

“Norah!”, I yelled, my cheeks getting flushed. One would think that by now I was used to Norah’s ease of talking about sexual intercourse.

“Lily!”, she mocked me. “Get over yourself! You know that if Matteo wouldn’t push you sexually, you would complain to us about him boring you in bed.”

Norah wasn’t wrong. I get bored very easily in relationships.

“I know, I know. I just don’t need to know about you and Adam!”, I laughed. I heard Norah laughing in the background.

“So, you don’t want to hear about Adam and I having sex on the kitchen counter?”, Norah teased me. I was about to get sick to my stomach.

“Just don’t ever serve me food again that was made on that part of the kitchen counter!”, I yelled. The serious part of our conversation was done, the rest would be to lighten the mood. Meanwhile, I knew what to do. After hanging up, I would go down to talk to Matteo. I needed to understand what I would get myself into.

I walked down to find the house empty. I guess that was normal on a workday. Now I was determined to get the information I wanted, I decided to walk into Matteo’s office. I did knock but didn’t wait for his answer. I was a bit surprised by Ennio, Luciano, and Renzo in his office. Likewise, they were surprised that I just walked in. Matteo, on the other hand, just smiled.

“Ciao, cara mia.”, Matteo said as he sat down in his chair. I walked up to him, and caressed my fingers over his collar bone as I went to stand behind him. A plan was forming in my head. If he was a mafia boss, he would be able to help me with finding out what happened to my mom. I know that he already was looking into some things, but I’m sure he could also help me to uncover the entire mystery. Asking for help just wasn’t one of my strengths, and thus I didn’t know how to get him to help. The only thing I could imagine in my not so creative mind was seduction.

“Hello you.”, I whispered in his ear. Matteo waved a dismissal to the men, and they immediately stood to leave his office. Ennio grinning as he shut the door behind him.

“I’m glad you decided to leave the bedroom.”, Matteo smiled as he grabbed my hand. I let him, and walked around to stand in front of him, letting my ass rest on the edge of his desk.

“It’s boring in there.”, I grinned. “And deep down I know I want to be with you. I just will need some time to process certain things.”, I added seriously. “But in the short time, you have fed my addiction to sex with you.”

I pulled my shirt over my head and dropped my pants to the floor. I heard Matteo hiss. I guess he wasn’t expecting this to happen so soon.

“What are you doing, bellisima?”, he whispered. I leaned back on the desk and ran my hand down from my neck, over my breast, down to my inner thighs. I heard Matteo drawing in a breath through his teeth. Norah’s words repeated in my head, she was right. I needed someone like him to push me sexually. I needed someone opposite me where I could do things like this, because I enjoyed this and not everyone appreciated it. Trust me, I knew that from experience.

I tickled myself over my panties, and my other hand fondled my breast through my bra. Matteo readjusted himself as he shifted in his seat. I heard him mutter under his breath, but I couldn’t understand what he said.

My arousal was getting my panties dampened when I saw Matteo getting hard by my actions. I reached behind my back to undo my bra, which I dropped to the floor. One hand went back to my inner thighs immediately. I slipped a finger underneath my thong and slid it through my slit. It has been a couple of days without any action because of all the events that went on, and this felt good. It made me moan softly and my head fell back. Quickly, I got off the edge to slip my underwear down my legs, and I hopped back up to continue what I was doing. I glanced at Matteo, and I saw his eyes hooded and glazed over with desire and lust. Just looking at him, made my arousal spike. My pussy was wet, and I could only think of wanting to chase release for myself. So, my fingers played with my clit, teasing myself to the best of my ability. I let one of my fingers slide inside of my pussy, and I moaned hard.

“Lily.”, Matteo breathed. Through my own hooded eyes, I noticed that his pants were opened and slightly pulled down. His cock was pulled out of his boxers, and he was stroking himself whilst looking at me. I didn’t think I could get more aroused, but the sight was so incredibly erotic that I got even more excited to seduce him. The plan I originally had was gone from my mind. The only goal I had now was to make him and myself cum.

“Bellisima, you make me so hard.”, Matteo moaned, while he fisted his cock up and down slowly. I saw the head of his dick glisten and licked my lips at the sight before me.

I pushed my finger in my pussy as deep as I could, while my other hand started playing with my clit. I rubbed it softly in circles, pushing myself closer to the edge. The familiar feeling that was building in my lower body that I enjoyed, was telling me that I was on the right track. I pulled my finger out, and pushed it right in, curling it in order to touch that sweet spot that made me feel unbelievable pleasure. Slowly, I began to lose myself in my own pleasure. I threw my head back, arched my back, and closed my eyes. I started to focus on feeling alone, forgetting about everything else. I heard Matteo’s heavy breaths in the background, but it didn’t matter anymore.

My legs started to tremble, and I was struggling to hold myself up. I felt Matteo touch my lower legs, and put them on his chair, meaning that he had rolled forward and now got an even better view of my pussy. I pushed my finger in faster, and the rubbing on my clit got harder and faster as well. I felt my orgasm luring on the horizon.

“You are so wet, cara mia. Slip in a second finger for me.”, I heard Matteo whisper in a deep, hoarse voice that was struggling to keep his normal steady tone. I obeyed him immediately and slipped a second finger in my pussy. It felt full and delicious. The fingers rubbing my clit sped up even more, and the amazing feeling in my lower body kept building. I struggled to open my eyes, but I wanted to look at Matteo.

He was fisting his cock fast, and his eyes were fixated on my pussy. The desire and possessiveness I saw in his eyes made me moan loudly.

“I bet your pussy is so tight. I wish it was my dick in there now.”, he groaned. “I want you to add another finger, Lily.”, he breathed. I moaned at his order, but I wanted to obey him, knowing in my heart that he wouldn’t push me further than I could take. I pulled my fingers out completely and pushed three in fast. I moaned at the stretch. I was so wet that it didn’t hurt me, and it made me feel so good. I pumped faster, and I rubbed my clit as fast as I could by now.

“That’s my bellisima. Cum for me love!”, Matteo groaned. His words encouraged me to let go and my actions pushed me over the edge. I felt my inner walls clench my fingers tightly, and I slumped back onto his desk with closed eyes. I continued to rub slowly to enjoy the waves of my orgasm to the maximum.

I wasn’t paying attention at all to whatever was going on around me. I heard Matteo pumping fast as I heard his hand hit his lower belly. I heard him groan loudly, and I felt his load hit my stomach.

“You look so beautiful like this, cara mia.”, Matteo said softly after a minute or two. I looked up to see him staring at me with this mix of love and possessiveness in his eyes. “You belong with me.”, he said smugly.