Chapter 93

"Sofia, my father asked me nicely to stay at home until I give birth but I didn't listen. I went out when I was eight months pregnant that's when I lost him. It was a boy and he died because of me. It was a hit and run--"

"I'm sorry for your loss but Elijah isn't him and I'm not you. We'll be fine." I gave her hug but it didn't last long.

What if Elijah wasn't the boy, Emily might be the one I loose. I stood still, the seconds turned into hours and I shut my eyes and everything happened so fast. I heard the car brake so loud and my eyes open to see that the car didn't hit me instead the driver quickly turned the car away from me.

"Are you crazy?" I shouted at the man who was in the car. I know it's my fault for being in the street this time of the night and I should be thanking him for turning the car from my way. I can't believe I'm selfish and didn't even ask how he is.

"You crazy." He shouted getting out of the car. "Because of you my car--- what the hell are you doing here?" His whole tuned changed.

"Benjamin I thought. . .I thought you were going to kill yourself." I shouted and hugged him. I know he left me and doesn't love me but I was too happy to see him that I forgot about the pain.

"Why Benjamin?" I shouted breaking the hug. "You left me and you wanted to still kill yourself. Don't you think you put me through so much pain already."

"That's why I wanted to kill myself." He replied as if it was nothing. He wanted to leave me alone in this world with two children.

"Killing yourself would've just caused me more pain. I would've never forgive you and myself." I was crying but at least the rain was helping.

"I'm sorry." That's what he always says as if it makes me feel better. "I thought you would be happy if I died, Sofia you said you would be happy and that's all I ever wanted for you."

"Benjamin I was happy, I was happy when you were with me but you left. You left me Benjamin and I don't even know what I did. Benjamin you leaving me hurts and it still hurts till now." I mumbled shaking my head.

"Why were you outside this time when you pregnant and it's raining?" Benjamin asked changing the whole topic. That's what he was always good at, changing everything.

"I lost something." I lied and he laughed nodding his head.

"You love me that much to run in the rain like crazy without shoes." Benjamin said and I shook my head.

"Maybe I loved you like crazy but not anymore. I told you if you died I would act like nothing happened, like I never met you." He quickly went to his car after I said that to him.

"Here." Benjamin said taking my hand and I looked at the thing he gave me. I couldn't believe what it was. "Shoot me then, I promise I won't hate you for killing me and no one will ever know." I pointed the gun at him and he smiled because he knew I couldn't do it. I could never kill him.

"Just leave me Benjamin." I shouted giving him his gun. "I was in a hurry to stop you because Elijah and Emily would never forgive me for driving their father to the point where he commits suicide. So don't think I still love you."

"Let me take you home before you catch a cold." Benjamin said and I shook my head.

"I can go home myself. Go back to your wife that you love so much." I sounded so jealous but it's not like he cared. I quickly started walking and the stupid thunder just had to scare me. I turned to look at Benjamin who was laughing and waving at me.

I started walking again and thunder got worst.

God why are you doing this to me when I'm so scared of thunder. That sounds just scares me so much. Please god don't let me ask a cheater for a ride.

I prayed walking and turned around again just to see Benjamin still standing there in the rain. Finally when I thought the rain stopped the thunder became worse and I ran back to Benjamin.

"I thought the house was that way." Benjamin said laughing and I ignored him going in the car.

"So we are going to be doing the silent treatment now Sofia?" Benjamin asked getting in the car and it reminded me of when he made me chased after his car.

"Why did you make me chase the car?" I asked and he looked at me confused trying to start the car. "That night we were going to the party after we got married."

"You were making me late and don't forget you also lied to me the next day after embarrassing me that night." He replied still trying to start the car.

"Doesn't it work?" I asked and he shook his head. "I left Eli at home alone---."

"What?" He shouted. "Didn't you take him to the neighbors house or something?"

"As if you care about him. You didn't even visit him since you left with the love of your life or is she pregnant and you don't want Elijah anymore." I got out of his car because it wasn't starting and I can't stop worrying about Elijah being home alone.

"I don't love Carlene." He said walking with me. "And she's not pregnant and of course I love and want Elijah. His my son." He added.

"Oh so you no longer in love with Carlene, I wonder who the next girl you going to be breaking her heart is." I said walking.

"You so jealous Sofia even though you shouldn't be. Now let me carry you please unless you want to carry on walking with your bare feet in this cold." We both started walking and I looked at him angry.

"First tell me who is the girl you love? Is it Mercy?" I asked and he laughed.

"Who is Mercy?" He is definitely good at acting.

"Your PA." I didn't want to add anything else to it. I didn't want to tell him she told me about them kissing.

"I didn't even know my Personal assistants name is Mercy but no it's not her. I just know her cousin who is rich that I do business with. Now let's go." He picked me up. "You can keep staring at my chest." He chuckled and I closed my eyes because I was tired of him thinking I am so much in love with him.

"Finally." Benjamin sighed relieve as soon as we got home.

I quickly looked for the key and opened the door. I'm so happy my baby is safe because I don't know what I would've done if something was to happen to Elijah.

I quickly went in his room and gave him a kiss on the cheek. His definitely a heavy sleeper like Charlotte said.

"Should I make you something hot to warm your body after all you pregnant." Benjamin asked as soon as I got out of Elijah's room. "Please Sofia." He added and I nod going to my room.

I was freezing, I can't believe I risked my baby's health for someone that doesn't even love me. I was in bed under the blankets when he came with a cup of coffee.

"I'm still busy with the food." Benjamin said handing me the cup of coffee. "What's this?" He asked taking Elijah's album and I quickly put the coffee down. I tried to take the album from him but of course he was stronger.

"Benjamin give it to me." I shouted.

"I have a right. I'm his father." Benjamin is really a funny guy.

"Yes you his father but you not the owner of those pictures and everything else, I am." He shook his head when he heard me.

"Sofia, why didn't you share it with me. You got to see him grow up but I didn't." He mumbled.

"Fine. You can watch them but you not taking it." I quickly got back in bed and took the coffee. "You hate me - should I trust you and drink it?" I asked debating whether to drink or not because his words wouldn't make a difference.

"I don't hate you and I would never poison you." He sounded sad so I drank it even though I don't trust him.

"You don't love me and yet you say you don't hate me." I continued drinking.

"Maybe I love you so much to think about hating you." He replied and I choke on the drink. "Are you okay?"

"Get out." I shouted. After everything he made me go through, after everything he has done to me he has the guts to tell me he loves me when he said he never did.

"What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?" He asked acting confused.

"I said get out Benjamin. Just leave." I shouted ignoring what he said.

"Sofia I have to tell you something. I promise I never meant those words. I swear I never cheated on you. I had to do it, I didn't have a choice." Benjamin said quickly and I looked at him confused. "I always loved you and I always will even if you don't love me anymore." It broke my heart of how he thinks I loved him so little. I love him more than I ever loved myself and I would take a bullet for him.

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