Chapter 52: An Impossible Mate-2

Unable to stay calm, I had involuntarily started destroying random furniture and other merchandise around me, and that made Alpha Marco immediately abandon all his other duties and come back with me. I told myself repeatedly that my uncharacteristic behavior was only because I was itching to get back to my duties back home. So why is it that when I got out of the car and saw her standing in front of me, it took every last bit of my self-control to not run up to her, engulf her in my arms? And never let her go... And when that insolent Marco dared to lay his dirty paws on my mate, I could have sworn I would have ripped him limb from limb, had it not been for John mind-linking me to calm down, and Cole stepping in to break up our confrontation. Immediately after I had had the overwhelming urge to hear her voice and when she had smiled at me, I knew she would be my undoing. I couldn't stop my gaze from falling to her luscious pink lips, and I told myself it was just an involuntary action, that it meant nothing at all. So why is it that when she gasped and stepped away from me, I felt an overwhelming wave of displeasure run through me? And why is it that when I heard that John had let her go into the woods again, I had felt so much anger that I could have brought the entire building down. And again, why is it that when I heard Cole say that she had disappeared and Talon couldn't find her, I had experienced the most extreme form of panic and fear I had ever felt? When I had shifted into my wolf, Kai had immediately known where she was and relief had washed over me. When I heard her scream I felt like I had been stabbed right in my heart. And when I felt her fall against Kai and land softly on the ground, as her beautiful soft eyes gazed into mine, I felt an unfathomable affection for her, as I found myself reassuring her internally, whispering in my mind, It's okay, I'm here But when she quickly stood up and asked if the CEO was there I found the same line resounding in my head. It's not possible For her to have heard my thoughts, even before I had marked her, was just illogical! But she had heard me, and yet again I had no idea how she did what she did. But somewhere deep inside of me, I knew I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life finding out. That thought had both shocked and disturbed me, and I knew I had to reign my overflowing feelings back in while I was still willing to do so. But then again, was I really? To make matters much worse, Kai had immediately accepted her, quite wholeheartedly so. And even though he was an extremely wise and powerful animal, in the end he was still an animal. They were accustomed to following their most primal instincts. He knew she was his mate, so, he loved her. No questions asked, no answers needed. He thought of nothing else. He loved her now and would continue to love her, regardless of whatever happened. And I could only wish things were that simple for me. So I collected all of my remaining will power and struggled to maintain whatever semblance of detachment I could still afford to display. But then she had to go and start talking, and I felt myself wanting to hear her voice every morning, afternoon and night. She had to go and tease Kai, and he had to bond with her, and I felt myself longing for the same bond. And she had to say that my eyes were beautiful, and for a minute I couldn't believe my ears. My eyes were beautiful? Had she ever even seen her own?! And when she kissed Kai's head, I knew I was goner. All my self-control was exhausted and I found myself wanting to do nothing more than to accept her- this clumsy, silly, lighthearted woman, this angel- my mate! And when that fact registered inside of me, I realized something that blew my mind. I realized that I already had. I already had accepted her! But that...is not possible!...wait...JOHN!!! I had stormed to his office, to give him a piece of my mind about manipulating my actions, but the minute I opened the door, and stepped in, that same intoxicating scent of exotic Arabian perfume assaulted my senses, briefly making me forget everything till my mom's voice from long long ago resounded in my head yet again. "No matter what happens, as long as your mate is still out there, you will always have a reason to go on living." A small, soft, gentle frame pressed into my chest and tingles shot through my body making shivers run down my spine. "And she will make you very happy-" Immediately my hands clamped down on two small shoulders, not wanting to let the source of that heavenly scent and exhilarating tingles move away. My eyes immediately found the soft brown ones of the woman who had occupied all of my thoughts. They looked tired and afraid, and I immediately found myself wanting to cradle her in my arms and protect her from this world. And when her soft pink lips parted she whispered the same word my mom's voice whispered in my head, "-Zuerien" At the sound of her sweet voice saying my name, my eyes went wide and an immense pleasure flooded through my body. My grip on her shoulders tightened as the need to mark and claim her grew immeasurably. It took about a second but the weariness in her eyes cleared, and an all too familiar expression of shock graced her lovely face. Her beautiful eyes widened and a soft gasp escaped her lips, and I immediately knew she would be performing an Olympic jump away from me the next second. But I don't want to let her go... So I quickly moved my hands down her arms and slid them around her slender waist, locking her to my frame. Never once did my eyes leave her bewildered ones, and I didn't miss how the shock in her face quickly morphed to utter confusion. And the next minute she was struggling in my arms to get away, just like she had done the entire time we had been outside the hospital. In that case, I'd do the same thing I had done then too.