Chapter 57

“ I fucking hate you” I screened to no one in particular. At this moment, I was in a totally different place. My legs taking me to a place that my grief stricken brain could not process.

“I believed in you, I trusted you” I said out, hating myself all the more for trusting him. I saw myself at a bar. With nothing more to think I went in.

“hey sweet cheeks” a guy who was way past drunk said as he walked up to me pressing his front to my behind. I froze, feeling very uncomfortable.

‘I shouldn’t be here. What if Ramney had another asthmatic episode? What if Declan could not get to him on time. What if his inhaler went under the bed again and then they look for it till he passes out?. At this point my leg had found its way to the chair and I took out a seat.

“Declan is caring. He loves them too much.” I tried to convince myself that it was okay and that he was going to be the best father that he could be to the two of them.

“Anything I could get you?” the bartender came Making me look at him not even processing what he said fully.

“Anything” I wasn’t even in the mood to drink, all I wanted to do is to run home and beg Declan to take me back and forgive me for whatever it was that made him mad at me that he threw me out of the house.

The bartender came back with a glass filled with a dark liquid. “Its from the guy over there” I nodded my head, not even bothering to look at the person he pointed to.

I took the glass and finished the liquid in three gulps letting the burn go down my throat.

“Could I get more?” ….

Three

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Fifteen

I had lost count of the number of cups I had requested for. At this point, the bartender kept the bottle beside me so that I could pour myself a glass anytime I needed it. “He said he loved me, why would he do such?” I was talking to the person beside me and I was sure the person was damn tired of hearing my drunk ass complain about someone they didn’t even know about.

“we would have to ask you to leave ma” a guy said from behind me.

“Bu..but my children” I slurred “they need me” at this point, I was barely standing up straight

“Take her away please”

“No please, I said holding the guy that was about to drag me away. “My husband, he comes here every Friday, maybe if I wait till the weekend” I knew I was barely making sense but I tried anyway.

They didn’t listen to me and continued dragging me out like I was some ragdoll.

I sat at the entrance where they had dumbed me trying to figure out the next thing to do, but it was impossible mainly because at this point, I was drunk.

“ I’ll try talking to him one more time l” I said and stood up from where I was sat. “at least let him tell me what I have done wrong. I mean come on! Who throws someone out of the house just like that. He didn’t even let me kiss the kids goodbye. To think he was a gentle man” I scoffed at that and continued my rant.

“The audacity of such an ugly thing to throw me out! Who the hell does he think he is. Just because he is rich! I’ll show him.

I was cut off from my rant by the car barring it’s horn at me and coming in on me with full speed.

“When did I cross the road?” I said trying to remember. It might not have been the right place to do so because not soon after, I blacked out.

What do you mean she isn’t breathing!” I stood still, barely breathing. I could not loose her now, not when I had just got her.

“Gamma I’m trying-“

“Well try harder!” I growled. There was no bloody way I was going to give her up not now, not ever.’ I thought, panicking.

∆flashback∆∆

“You are not fit to stand by my side” my best friend of twenty nine years said looking me dead in the eyes.

“Excuse me?” I said still in shock, still not believing what he just told me.

“I wish it wasn’t this way Cammy. But the pack is scared of you.” I knew where he was going with this, but I was not ready listen.

“Don’t do this, you know this pack is my life! I would lay down my life for this pack!” and in truth, I had done that, not once, not twice. It didn’t bother me though. I would do it over and over again if it meant they got to be safe.

“I know that Cammy! But that does not calm the people’s fears! One moment you’re a ticking bomb and the next you want cuddles from the pups. You hurt a pack member the other day because he said something offensive to you! You know we can’t do that” he looked tired, as though he did not know what to do, or want to do it.

“look, it’s just till you get your mate at least we’d know you would be a little more stable.” He looked at me with a look of regret. We both knew that at this point, it was almost impossible. As much as it pained me to admit it that I might never meet my mate, it was the truth. I had long passed the age of mate finding. Many wolves my age were already either having a pup or sending theirs to high school, for those that found their mates as early as eighteen.

“Who would handle pack duties and support you?” I looked at him, trying to not make it obvious that I was pissed.

“Jerry” he said in a breath

“What! Definitely not! That moron barely knows his left from his right! He is barely carrying out his gamma duties right! You want to add another responsibility to that!” I was seething at this point.

“no, you are going to take his place and handle his duties.”

“You’re…. Demoting me?” I looked at him in shock. It was one thing to remove me because of the situation. But to remove me completely? That was more disgraceful..

“Cammy…”

“No Aaron!” I yelled moving out of his reach as he moved to hold me. “I don’t care what the pack said! You are the alpha! You could have stood your ground” I shook my head feeling very betrayed.

Suddenly, I didn’t see him as a best friend, I saw him as a traitor, someone who was willing to stab me at the back to keep himself safe.

“ I know you’re pissed off right now, but control your tongue. You will address me with respect!” he growled out. I could see his eyes flash gold.

I bowed my head in respect and left his office. There was no way I was going to take this.

I carried my car and drove off. I needed to clear my head. I broke the speed limit not even caring what was going to happen. It not like much could happen anyway. Everyone living in the area were wolves. If by a mistake they got hit, they could very easily get back to their feet.

With that thought in mind, I drove like there was no tomorrow.

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I opened my eyes.

Everywhere was incredibly silent.

Instead of the screams, everywhere was silent. Another person seemed to have entered the room but I couldn’t identify who it was.

“III… Ian” Anna called out…