Valerie’s p.o.v
I needed to fly away from the room, from the house, every single place he had being in this place... it was either this, or I was definitely going to loose my sanity.
I walked out of the room as calmly as I could then...
“Fuck!!!” i yelled into the pillow, immediately I entered the room. “I am so stupid!” I muttered, slamming my head against the pillow.
I kissed him.
I Kissed Hades
I kissed my mother’s fiancé!!!!!!
I felt something-guilty- claw at the insides of my stomach.
I kissed him and I enjoyed it.
“I was horrible, no. I was worse than that. I was a monster.
“this was a one time mistake, all I need to do, is give him space. I needed to leave this house as soon as possible and get some fresh air, and NEVER EVER come back. Even if it cost me my arm and right knee. I was willing to do that.
I stood in front of the mirror, cringing at how I looked. “how the fuck was he able to kiss me whilst I looked like that!!!!” I whisper-yelled.
I looked even worse than I originally thought.
‘I needed a shower’ I thought to myself but the thought of going back there to the place where we had just had...
i shook my head “there is definitely no way I am going there”
I removed the night robe from my body. Changing into my clothes swiftly.
‘i definitely needed to get the hell out of here.’
I moved through the halls quickly, my footsteps echoing off the marble floors but not enough to alert anyone. I barely noticed the ornate details that had once fascinated me. I just needed to get out, to put some distance between us.
I reached the front door and shoved it open with more force than necessary, the cool air of the late afternoon hitting me like a wave. I took a deep breath, filling my lungs with the scent of relief
He wasn’t here.’ I thought, smiling a bit to myself.
“Valerie?” I heard my mother’s called, causing a shiver to run down my spine.
I turned to look at her, hoping for my sake that It was my mind trying to fuck with me.
Alas, it was not.
There, my mother stood, looking at me with a smile on her face with a hint of confusion. “Love? What are you doing here? She asked, sat In Hades’ lap.
It felt wrong to look at.
Hades looked like anywhere but at me.
“I.. I..”
“I went out for a drink and saw her drunk so I decided to take her home since she could not drunk drive.” He said, totally ignoring me like I did not exist.
“Awwn baby, that was so thoughtful of you,” she said, looking at him like the stars aligned at his command. “who knows what would have happened if you weren’t there” she cooed.
“I have told you about your drinking Val” she sighed, giving me this disappointed look. “Do you know what would have happened if he did not find you?” she shook her head.
‘I probably would have been better off ma, I would have not kissed your man and feel like shit’ I told myself but instead of saying it out loud like I intended, I sighed. ‘I was being careless, sorry mum.”
She stood up from his lap, coming closer to me and then hugged me. “Please don’t do something so reckless again, you are all that I have and hold as dearly as myself.” I could feel the ache as she hugged me tightly, shaken at the thought of being scared and alone. She had been to my bar a few times, she had seen how I was treated by men, drunk men to be exact and while it did not faze me as I knew how to handle it, she went hysterical when the first man approached me.
I sighed. Why did she have to care for me?
For a moment, I wished she was wicked and cruel to me, then I would not have to feel this way for kissing him, or even feel terrible that I was attracted to him.
“Please? Can you be careful?” she pleaded, her voice soft as she hugged me tighter.
“Of course mum, I would be. I can’t have you being worried for me.” I hugged back, chugging down the guilt.
“thank you” she gave me aa smile, pulling away from me. “I’m going to check in on the cooks, since we are all here, let’s cook breakfast.
“Actually mum, I...”
“I am not having it Val, we are soon to be a family, please? This way you get to know each other more and ...” she desperately wanted it to work out, me getting along with him... if only she knew....
She rushed in, giving me no opportunity to change her mind about breakfast and leaving me with Hades.
Fuck ..
‘this was not a big deal. All I had to do was pretend that he was not here and...’
“About earlier, you better Not say a word to her. It was nothing but a stupid kiss thar should not happen again, it was disgusting and It was –
I cut him off, not wanting to hear what I already knew he would say. “a mistake... right?” I turned to him to confirm. It was the truth but for some reason, those words cut me deep. “it was a mistake. I get it and please” I rolled my eyes in attempt of being sassy but it was just to keep the tears at bay. “I am not stupid enough to tell her about this, it was something stupid and foolish I allowed cause I have some pent up energy”
I mentally cursed myself.
‘Why did I need to say all that?!’ I thought as I tried to school my face to keep the emotions from reflecting on my face.
His eyes darkened and he looked like he wanted to say something but refrained. I made a move to leave but I saw my mother standing
I felt my heart enter my mouth from fear. Had she heard me?
She definitely heard... I am dead.
“I can’t believe you were about to leave! I said we would have breakfast!!!!” she said, looking completely ignorant of the conversation that just took place.