Chapter 31 Chapter Thirty-One
Raikin and Ryder both turn to Reece, looking at him with furrowed brows. He doesn’t look at them though; his eyes remain on me. Watching me with a gentle, encouraging smile that pushes me forward. “Reece mentioned you guys have wanted to find a girl you could share. Not just sexually, but in everything. Dating, hanging out, being together sexually and not as a group.”
Ryder and Raikin eyes light up in understanding and they both smile. “Is that something you are interested in baby?” Ryder asks, looking at me hopefully.
My cheeks heat and I look down at the floor not able to make eye contact with him when I answer. “Yeah. At first, I wasn’t sure how it would work, but Reece said you guys wouldn’t be jealous of each other or anything like that. Ryder you know I love you, and I like you Reece and Raikin. I know I could fall in love with all three of you guys with time. I just wasn’t sure if you guys all felt like I am the right person. The kind of girl you guys imagined for this type of relationship.” I say feeling unsure. My self-consciousness making me doubt myself.
Ryder stands from the bed, tilting my chin up with his hand so I am looking into his eyes. “Baby, I think you are the perfect girl for this. You are exactly what we have been looking for. If this is something you want, I would love to give it a try.”
I nod my head slowly. “I think I want this. I definitely want to try it out. I have never done this or anything like this before, I have only had one boyfriend before you. So, you guys will have to be patient with me.”
Reece stands up, putting his hand on my lower back from the side of me and Ryder. “Of course, baby. We will take this slowly; we will go at your pace.”
Raikin comes over putting his hand on the middle of my back from the other side of me and Ryder. “We have never done this before either baby, so we will take it slow and learn together.”
I smile, looking at each of them. So, this is what it will feel like all the time. Having the support of three amazing men, three times the love, three times the affection. Three times the happiness. I hope I can be everything they want and more. I want to make them just as happy as they have already made me feel.
I lean forward kissing each of them. One quick soft peck on the lips. “We will make this work.” I say feeling more confident with the three of them around me.
“Yes, we will baby.” Reece says winking at me.
“I don’t think we should tell Dad and your mom. At least not right away. We need to work things out together before we start telling people.” Raikin says surprising me with his seriousness. So far, he has been the playful one, always joking and making me laugh. I guess I still have a lot to learn about all of them.
Reece and Ryder nod their heads agreeing with their brother. “That’s a good idea; we don’t need them giving their opinions on this before we even get it worked out ourselves.” Reece says.
“Sounds good to me. I’m sure my mom will freak out when she finds out, but I don’t care. I just want us to be happy.”
“That’s what we want too baby.” Ryder says kissing my forehead.
Reece and Raikin each kiss my cheek, and we make our way down stairs. We decide to watch another movie together before mom and Curtis come back home ruining our alone time together.
Ryder sits on the chair, letting Raikin and Reece sit by me on the couch. I lay my head on Reece’s lap and put my feet across Raikin’s lap. Reece plays with my hair, rubbing my cheek every so often with his thumb. Raikin rubs my feet and legs and I let myself relax into them.
They turn on a Christmas movie, and I wonder if this is what it will be like every day together. I feel so comfortable around them. They make me feel loved and cared for.
We talk some during the movie getting to know each other more. The guys tell me stories of what they were like growing up. Each brother telling the worst stories they can think of about the other. I laugh so hard my stomach hurts.
They take turns asking me about my childhood and what it was like growing up with just my mom and her tons of boyfriends she was always bringing around. I tell them how my dad left when I was four and how my mom blamed me for him leaving her. I learn how their mother died when they were all pretty young, and their dad got so depressed he practically shut down.
Reece explains how it became his responsibility to care for his two younger brothers, which is why he is so protective of them. They pretty much took care of each other, helping each other with everything. Making sure their dad didn’t fade away.
Ryder tells me how my mom is the first woman their dad has been with since their mom died, and I really hope my mom doesn’t screw this relationship up. I don’t want Curtis to have to deal with another heartbreak.
By time the movie is over, I feel like I have known them forever. I have never felt so close to anyone in such a short amount of time. Before them I hardly ever let myself get close to anyone. Every time I got close to anyone, mom would move us to some new town and a new school. I would always end up losing touch with the people I was friends with. It always felt like she did it on purpose. Every time I started to be happy, she would move us.
“Dad and Carolyn will probably be home soon.” Reece says, looking up at the clock on the wall.
I sit up on the couch. “I guess I better go put some pants on.”
Raikin gives me a mischievous smile. “You could or you could lay back down. I was really enjoying the view.”
I feel my cheeks heat up and I laugh. “You are terrible.” I say smacking his arm.
Reece and Ryder laugh too. Raikin raises his hands, shrugging his shoulders. “Hey, I was just being honest with you baby.”