Chapter 18: Don't move so fast (explicit content)

Benjamin's POV

I couldn't believe what was happening. It was impossible to wrap my head around how quickly everything was happening. Completely overtaken by my desires, I ripped open her shirt and squeezed her breasts with my hands. I licked her chocolate skin and nibbled on her dark nipples. She moaned my name twice in a deep whisper and whipped her head backwards.

“Fuck! I want you so much, Mina! I fucking need you” I groaned as I sucked and licked on her hardened nipples. I couldn’t believe I was finally touching her. Her skin was velvet smooth and I could feel her goosebumps under my touch. I was getting lost in her smell, in her taste and in the way her body felt on top of mine. I was so hungry for her that I bit her breasts one after the other, lightly at first then harder.

“Oh! Fuck!” She screamed out right before pursing her lips shut to stop herself from yelling out and oddly enough, it angered me.

I didn’t want my mate to silence herself and to deny herself pleasure. I wanted her to give in and let go. More than anything, I wanted to hear her scream out my name, letting me know that only I could make her feel that good. I slipped both my hands under her leggings and gripped her bare ass ferociously. She stifled her gasps as I spread her ass cheeks and slid my fingers down her crack to meet her wet pussy. I began to rub on her and met her clit with my middle finger. Unable to control herself anymore, Mina let out a loud moan and pulled my hair backwards forcing me to stop feasting on her tits. We locked eyes and I couldn’t help my smile from forming when I watched her eyelids flutter and her body shiver as soon as I forced my finger in her. She was so beautiful and so tempting. I’ve waited years for her and damn it, if it meant waiting for her specifically, I could’ve waited a hundred years more. I could feel my wolf purring in agreement when she leaned in to kiss me, not letting go of my hair. He was enjoying our mate as much as I was.

“You’re so fucking tight, Mina!” I moaned on her lips as my finger managed to make its way in and out of her repeatedly. “You’re all mine, Mina! No one else’s do you hear me? You’re mine!” I said breaking our kiss and licking the crook of her neck, ready to mark her.

To my dismay, Mina tensed up at my words. She jumped out of the bed covering her chest and bolted towards the bathroom. In an instant, I found myself alone in the room with my wolf, both of us left horny and confused. I couldn’t understand why she had reacted that way. I knocked on the bathroom door hoping she would talk to me.

“Mina, are you okay?” I asked worried. “I’m sorry about all this. I shouldn’t have… Mina, I’m sorry” I said feeling guilty. She’d had to deal with so much already today and I added onto her stress. I could feel her struggling with her feelings and I thought it was best to leave. It seemed like she could’ve used some time alone to clear her mind.

I made my way downstairs and laid on the couch. ‘*So there’s no sleep tonight*.’ I thought as my mind replayed our intimate moment on a loop and I brought the fingers that had her scent to my nose. I had been with my fair share of women but I had never experienced a desire so deep before. Everything about her was sending me into a frenzy and I cursed myself for being weak. If she hadn’t stopped us tonight I could’ve marked her and made her mine and I couldn’t allow that to happen, yet. Not before knowing if she loved me or if she could handle the responsibilities of a Luna.

I had barely slept an hour when my parents came down the stairs the following morning. From their faces, I knew I must’ve looked horrible. They offered me coffee and I declined letting them know my presence was required in the training facilities. I could leave knowing Mina would be safe with my family besides I didn’t feel like talking which would’ve been inevitable if I stayed. I wished them both a good day and left in a hurry.

Roxanne’s POV

“Ahhh!” I screamed when I opened my eyes and saw Mina sitting in the blue sofa next to my bed, staring back at me.

“I gotta talk to you.” She spoke softly and I could see the worry in her face.

“Can I wake up first?” I asked yawning but sitting up on my bed nevertheless.

“Benji and I kissed last night…”

“Really? When?”

“Last night. In my room. Well, his room…” She was pinching and rubbing her fingers and I knew there were more confessions to come. She only did that when she was nervous about telling me something.

“What?” I asked pressingly.

“Well, we… we did a bit more than just kiss. Actually, a lot more.”

“Eww! I don’t wanna hear that!” I got out of bed blocking my ears. There was no way I wanted to hear about my brother’s sex life, not even for my friend.

“Roxy!”

“No, Mina! It’s gross. You and my brother can keep your dirty stories to yourselves.” I heard her sigh as I walked away and towards the bathroom when a thought hit me. If he marked her, Mina was our new Luna and I squealed in excitement as I darted back to my friend. I grabbed her face and turned it left and right looking for the mating mark my brother would have left on her neck.

“What the hell are you doing?” She pushed my hands off her face while I stared at her confused.

“You guys didn’t… you know… did you?”

“How’d you know?”

“‘Cause he didn’t mark you!” I pointed to her neck and replied a little frustrated.

“Mark me?”

“Never mind.” I sighed. “Benji will tell you about it. But wait, if you guys didn’t have sex, what did you do?” She looked at me an eyebrow raised then looked to the floor. “Yuck!” I let out, grossed out by what I just understood. I was going back to the bathroom when she called out my name. I looked back at my friend and for the second time registered her worry. She was tapping her foot and clenching her fingers.

“What’s wrong, Mina?” I asked her sitting in front of her placing my hand on her jerking knee to try and calm her down.

“It’s just… Everything was moving so fast last night. It made me think about Micheal and I’m scared, Roxy. I’m…”

“Oh babe! Benjamin is nothing like Micheal, Mina. I swear!” I cut her off, wanting to reassure her. “ Micheal was a piece of shit but my brother is a good guy. He’ll never hurt you.”

She stood up on her feet and turned away from me as she didn’t want me to see the tears forming in her eyes and just like that, we were back in time, to three years ago. Mina was hurting and crying because of Micheal and I sat there, silent, sad and feeling helpless. I hated that sad excuse of a man and I hated what he had done to my friend. Every time I thought about him, I wanted to kill him for being so cruel and I also hated myself for being the reason she fell in love with him. I had pushed her to go out with him and to give him a chance and I felt responsible for her pain. I was clueless to what he was doing for months and when I finally found out, I almost did kill him. He got away and was never seen or heard of again.

“It’s just that it’s moving so fast. Two days ago, I didn’t know Benji and now I’m just supposed to be his mate? I’m supposed to be his and surrender myself to him? Roxy, I’ve been down that road before. Jumping into something so strong without thinking and it brought me to hell… I don’t think I can do it again. I don’t think I can allow that. I’m sorry!” She was sobbing uncontrollably. “I’m sorry! I don’t want to disappoint you or him! I’m sorry!”

I jumped to my feet and hugged Mina tightly. I understood where she was coming from. It took her a while to come back from the dark place she lived in and even though she was doing better, it was unfair to ask her to give herself back up to any man, mate or not.

“Shhhh, Mina. It’s okay.” I rocked her lightly, soothing her. “You don’t have to do anything. I understand. And Benji will understand too if you talk to him. You could never disappoint us.” Once her tears let up and her breaths steadied, I let go of our embrace.

“Everything will be alright, babe.”