Chapter 17: An Uncontrollable Connection (explicit content)

**Benjamin**

"Fuck," I let out under my beard as Mina rushed past me and her delicious scent lingered in the air behind her. 

Her pull on me was growing. I could feel it. And with every minute it reached new heights, my will to stay away from her only weakened. I was starting to crave Mina's presence like a bad drug, and I feared it would only worsen from now on. Just seeing her tonight soothed mine and Silas's soul like nothing else, and I could still feel the tingles in my right hand from the touch we shared. I was beyond fucked.

Looking for ways to both get rid of her and get more of her, my feelings were all over the place, and I didn't know what to do. I cursed our mate bond and yet sought its pleasure and comfort like a fool. 

'*Goddess, why do this to me*?' I thought, deploring my fate silently as I moved to take Mina's seat next to my sister. 

"How is she taking it?" I asked Roxanne after a while, still shaking my head. 

"Taking what exactly?" my sister asked in turn. "The werewolf thing or the mate thing?"

"Both," I mumbled.

"She needs time, Benji."

"I don't have an-"

"You don't have time, yeah, I know. You said it already," she cut me off, groaning. "I'm telling you she needs it, so you don't have a lot of choices here."

"Rejecting her is a choice."

"Don't even say that."

"Roxy," I sighed, turning my head towards her. "Mina's a human; things will not be easy with us."

"Since when do you need things to be easy? You're Benjamin fucking Miller, hello! Everybody knows you can handle anything, especially the hard stuff. So why is this any different?"

"You don't understand."

"You're right; I don't," she replied, rolling her eyes in frustration. "It doesn't make sense. This is your mate we're talking about, Benji. You've wanted one for so long. Plus, I remember you chewing my head off for leaving Ryan."

"Ryan wasn't a human!" I said a little too loudly. "He's one of the strongest werewolves I know, and he's the pack's Beta! He would have only empowered you."

"And Mina's one of the best women I know. She's strong, brilliant and caring. She'll make a great Luna even as a human, just trust me."

"Of course, you'd say this; she's your best friend."

"No, I'm saying it because it's true, Benji. Stop being so stubborn," she grumbled as she put her empty plate in the sink. "Let me ask you this," she then said, turning back towards me. "If you're so sure about rejecting her, why are you even here? Why stop her from leaving town tonight?"

"You know why," I sighed, pointing to my head. 

"Oh, brother, don't tell me Silas took control of you," she quipped back with an eyebrow raised, completely unimpressed.

"No, but he's not helping," I answered, chuckling under my beard.

"Right," she let out, her mouth curving into a small smile. "I thought Jaya was going to bust out earlier, I swear. Seeing Ryan and feeling August," she sighed and shook her head. "It was all too much for her."

"And for you?"

"Not enough," Roxanne said, wrinkling her nose as her smile widened. 

"You don't mean…?" I asked, grinning back.

"Maybe. We'll see!" She laughed and walked around the kitchen island to place a hand on my arm. "You and I have got a lot of work to do, Benji," she said. "But I know we're up for the task. Am I right, Alpha?"

"Maybe," I sighed and added, "My turn to ask you a question. Earlier, when you tried to convince Mina to stay, you said you had to protect her from something. What was it?"

"You caught that, huh?" she replied before suddenly walking away. "Listen, that's something you'll have to discuss with her, Benji, not me. In fact, there's plenty of stuff you two will need to talk about, so I suggest you get to it, big bro'."

"Seriously? You suck, you know that?" I groaned as she disappeared, wishing me good night through our link.

Roxanne left, and a few minutes later, I got up and went into the living room, where my parents had prepared their large sofa bed for me. I had never used it before tonight, but sleeping in one of the upstairs bedrooms was out of the question. From right here on the couch, I was near the main doors and could hear anyone coming and going from the house, including Mina.

My Mina.

Damn it.

I was a mess, and so were my clothes. I was covered from neck to shin in forest dirt, and I struggled with whether or not to grab a change of clothes. My mate was right upstairs, sleeping in my old bedroom, and though I didn't want to disturb her, I also longed to see her again. It was beyond selfish, true, but I didn't care, and my wolf did even less. So, driven by pure lust and desire, I went upstairs and gently knocked on the door with Silas' howls echoing in my head, and for the next few minutes, my heart couldn't help but race.

"Yes?" Mina's hushed voice suddenly rose from the door's other side, and my breath hitched.

"I'm, umm… I'm sorry, Mina," I stammered nervously. "I need some clean clothes. Wou- would you mind if I came in and grabbed some stuff?" I asked. 

I could feel her hesitate for a moment, but the door to my room finally opened, and Mina's beautiful face appeared. Her scent hit me next as notes of honey and cinnamon spilled into the hallway, and I couldn't help but take the longest breath known to man or beast. All my senses were now fully triggered, and the same hunger that had driven me to her door tripled in size.

Such a beauty she was in her buttoned-up flannel and tight leggings. Goddess, I wanted this woman. 

I needed her.

She bit her lip in anxiousness and backed towards the bed, and it took every ounce of strength I had to head for the closet and not follow her under the covers. It didn't take very long to find some sweatpants, but my search for a shirt halted abruptly when Silas's grunting blasted louder in my head. In seconds only, I picked up on the smell my wolf had sensed before me, and my whole face then burrowed in an old dress shirt I found on the ground.  

I was at full mast, my arousal erupting to the point of no return as I inhaled the unmistakable scent of orgasm and deliriously imagined the ways Mina had pleasured herself with my shirt. My cock painfully throbbed inside my pants as I greedily snuffed in more of her sweet cum, and when I could take no more, I pushed open the closet door. Mina's giant brown eyes met mine before lowering down to my closed fist, and embarrassed, she sank her entire body into the bed.

"I-I-I can explain," she managed to stutter as I walked out, white shirt in hand.

I, on the other, couldn't make a sound other than the deep, lustful growling that escaped my throat and grew louder and louder as I neared the bed.

"Benji, I- I-" she tried to say between shallow breaths, her gaze locked on mine as I climbed the bed and on top of her. 

I slowly cupped her face in my hands, pushing back a few loose locks of her hair and a moment later, I no longer needed the shirt to smell her arousal. Instead, it took over the air as I pressed my lips to hers and hungrily pushed my tongue inside her mouth. 

Goddess, did she taste so good.

Our kiss deepened right away, and while she moaned and shuddered under me, I could feel every inch of myself heating in drunken bliss. But still, it wasn't enough. I needed more, and so without thinking, I rolled us over and sank Mina's hips into mine.

"Fuck," she let out in a deep, heavy moan as my hardened cock pressed against her crotch and threatened to tear against the fabric of our pants.

"Yes," I moaned back, our lips still intertwined. "Let me fuck you, Mina. Please," I cried desperately, begging my mate for a pleasure that only she could give me from now on.