Chapter 100

I had dosed off thinking of yesterday, I even had a dream that had mingled parts of Claire coming yesterday and violent full moons. I don't know what that was supposed to mean but I linked it to the coming full moon that was to happen at the end of this month. The dream didn't concern me that much I had better get up and started.

I turn over to look at my pups, I find them awake and seated in their crib. Raven notices that I am awake and immediately craws towards me. When she can't go any further, she reaches up and grabs for the edge of the crib and boosts herself up to stand.

I make a funny surprised face for her, gasping "You can stand now?" I ask grabbing for her and lifting her over the crib. She giggles so hard that when she is finished she is out of breath and left with toothy-gummy smile.

I hear grunting noises coming from the crib and see Rafe standing as well signaling that I carry him too. I carry him over to the bed and let them sit with me for a while.

As the pups sit and play around on the bed, I notice that Rafe had assumed an older brother role towards his sister. He was protective of her and wouldn't let her anything that would hurt her. funny, they were only babies. How could he possibly feel some kind of responsibility towards his twin sister.

Whatever it was I was just happy that they were able to know to take care of each other. If that wasn't smart, then the standards of smart for baby level had just gone up.

I let them play for a bit before bathing and clothing them. I take a bath myself and dress plainly like I wasn't going anywhere but the park. If I wanted to do this then I had to do it right. I didn't want to have an awkward encounter with Aiden when he clearly didn't want to see me. I didn't want to see him either.

Traveling alone was going to be a hustle since I had two pups in my hands and no one to share the duties with. So traveling heavy was out of the question. I still needed to look like I was coming back before some snoopy head goes on ahead and tells on me.

I had called a taxi to come pick me up, it was a bit difficult to find one but I did. While I was waiting for it to arrive, I get busy with arranging all the things I was carrying. Three sets of clothes for the little ones each, a dress for me and a t-shirt with some jeans. The rest was money since I was going to need a lot of that where we were going.

Speaking of that, I was yet to decide where I was fleeing to. I wanted to go to a place that no one would ever imagine and hope of finding me was zilch.

Next, I strap on the thing that is supposed to suspend a child to your chest or back or both at once if you had two. It was a very convenient devise and helped mothers all over who had the burden of two infants. While Aiden was online sometime back before giving birth to the two lovely pups, she thought it funny to buy one of the suspender things but this one was meant to put both babies in the front.

I had thought it funny too until today. Lucky for me it had been packed together with all the babies things. Boy was I glad for goofy online shopping.

Securing the pups into the little seats I strap them to me and making sure they are comfortable. About my comfort? It didn't matter, I just wanted them to be where I can easily see them.

Leaning slightly towards my back, I reach for the documents that I had only opened once and not signed. I unseal the envelop and take out the papers inside. I should have had a person look at the legal documents but I didn't need the extra work of paying them when I desperately needed the funds to start a new life.

I didn't have that much but it was going to get us an apartment and some food for at least a month. I planned on getting a waiting job there or anything I could get. It wasn't a smart move on my part since my toddlers were not old enough to be left at home alone.

I look at the papers again and notice for the first time what I didn't notice at first. The documents weren't signed yet but they did carry mine and Aiden's name.

I didn't want the pups to ever see a tear in my eyes, I didn't want them to endure such sadness because their mom was sad. Whatever it was, my pups were going to grow in happiness even when I was sad. So I swallow down the ball of tears that was threatening to spill out.

I grab for a pen in the same fashion I did with the papers because I couldn't risk bending forward and losing my balance. Swallowing hard I put pen to paper and sign away.

Just like that it was done, I have agreed to separate from my love, the love that has taught me to love. I guess my life was not meant for good things, I was just glad that from this all I came out with a family that would never abandon me. I had these beauties till they turned eighteen or more.

Sealing up the envelope with the signed divorce papers, I whispers hushed words to my pups "Shh, don't worry, everything will be fine" it was more to myself than them. On their part, I was going to make sure that they were happy till they start asking questions. But that was for later.