Chapter 34

Adara's POV...

My door was left locked emotionally, tears on my face. The thoughts about how badly I was being treated appeared in my mind and my heart became so weak.

"Why couldn't he look into my face at least, instead he almost got me killed?"

I got myself locked in, and I almost got insanely shocked in the pool of emotion.

My thoughts arose, and I wondered who might be knocking.

"Who's that?" I thought to myself. I became more emotional, and I couldn't hold back my tears. Knocked again, I felt so irritated, but I remained silent, weeping all alone in the dark room.

"It's me, Ashir," he said.

"Ashir, why would he come to my room again after he almost got me killed?"

I remained in the room silently and altered no response; instead, my tears grew bigger. Though I felt like opening the door, my feelings wouldn't let me.

"I truly know that I have wronged you. I shouldn't have treated you that way so heartlessly. But I have realized my mistakes, that's why I'm here," he explained emotionally.

His words echoed deeply in my mind, and my soul started shaking.

"Are you apologizing sincerely? Or are you here to fool me again?" I asked curiously.

"Nope, that's not it. I don't mean to treat you that way. I sincerely apologize," he responded.

I felt so relieved, and I opened the door gently. Ashir walked in slowly, and he looked so sad to see me in such a state, so emotionally down.

My heart eased, and I stopped crying, standing for a moment and staring at each other's faces. He moved closer to me and held my hands.

"Please don't cry like this anymore, and try to avoid me when I'm out of my normal state," Ashir said thoughtfully.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have gone that far," I said.

"No, it's alright. I almost got you killed."

I became so relieved, and my worries disappeared at that moment. Ashir stood up after some minutes, and I was left thoughtful.

"I'd love to go now; I'm sorry I'm yet to be myself," he said slowly as he walked out of my room.

My thoughts grew bigger, and I wondered if I had wronged him because this is unusual. I tried questioning him why, but he locked the door before I could stand up, tears on my face. My door remained locked thoughtfully and sadly, but no one to comfort me. A few minutes later, I heard a knock on the door again.

"Who is that, could it be the Alpha?" I became so thoughtful and a bit excited, knowing that the Alpha could understand my feelings.

"Who's at the door?" I asked uncertainly.

"Hey Adara, it's me, Jameson."

"Jameson…" I quickly stood up and cleared the tears from my face.

"I'm coming, please give me a few minutes," I responded, tidying up my room. A few minutes later, I unlocked the door.

Jameson looked so worried, and he asked curiously immediately after he entered.

"What happened? Why did you lock yourself up in your room this beautiful evening? Is there a problem?" Jameson asked.

Sighing, my mind traveled far, and tears started dropping on my face. I became so thoughtful and wondered if Jameson really knew nothing.

"Nothing, Jameson, I'm just a bit depressed," I responded, trying to control my feelings.

"Do you mean nothing? But why the tears on your face?" Jameson asked.

"Hmmm," I looked into his eyes thoughtfully, then nodded my head.

"To tell the truth, I'm not fine," I responded stodgily. Jameson became so thoughtful and sad.

"Yes, I could feel that, but why were you so sad? What happened, please tell me," he responded.

I felt ambiguous, and I wondered if telling him the truth would work. Truly, I knew that my feelings with the Alpha were forbidden, and it may lead me to critical punishment, but I felt so hazy at the same time, knowing that the only person who could help me out at this moment was Jameson. He is my only clue to the Alpha, and I became so worried, doubting what to say.

"Would you believe it if I said this?" I asked hazily.

Jameson looked a bit lost; I could feel how confused he was.

"Sure, I trust you, Adara," he nodded.

I looked into his eyes warily, giving it a second thought, but finally spoke up.

"Could you believe that someone claimed to be the Alpha's mate today?"

"Wow," Jameson said surprisingly and proceeded to ask, "Who was that?" he questioned.

"She's someone unknown, only the Alpha did. She came to the castle a while ago, disguising as a maid and disappeared for a few days, but she turned herself in today, claiming that she's Luna," I explained emotionally.

Jameson became a bit surprised and asked confusingly.

"Do you find out who she was?" Jameson asked.

My mood went off for a moment, and I responded ambiguously.

"No, I didn't hear the whole conversation, but I could hear her claiming to be the Alpha's mate, and the Alpha is still left in confusion, thus I was," I responded thoughtfully.

Jameson looked so confused, and he went silent for a moment.

"Don't be so worried, dear. Not I, not you, and not the Alpha could select their mate themselves; only the gods did. It's unfortunate, and it has been our burden for decades that the Alpha would reject their true mates unwillingly without a specific reason. Thus, a cause like this. This curse has been in existence for the past generation, and no one has found a solution to it. It has been prophesied already," Jameson explained.

My mind traveled fast, and I became so depressed, lacking an idea of what to say.

"Could the curse be reversed according to the prophecy?" I asked uncertainly.

Jameson looked so worried, and I felt so hopeless.

"No, I did not know about that. The only thing I know is that the Alpha would reject their mate when it comes to mate selection," Jameson responded.

"That's so unfortunate, how could that be?" I thought to myself and asked, worrying.

"Is there any record or clue that backs up the prophecy?"

Jameson looked so fuzzy and became thoughtful.

"Yeah, I think there is an ancient book called the Book of the Past. The book should contain all the information you're curious about," Jameson explained.

I felt a bit relieved, even without having the book, but I knew that the book would expose me a lot, especially about the past.

"Where is the book?" I questioned.

Jameson looked so worried, wondering where the book might be.

"I don't know a specific place, but I knew that the book is in this castle. Only the Alpha would know," Jameson responded.

I became really worried and wondered where the book might be kept. Even if Ashir knew of it, he wouldn't tell me, at least not this time.

"Could you at least lead me to the book?" I asked uncertainly.

"Yes, I'll try my best," Jameson responded.