Chapter 63

Killian:

I woke up with Eleanor laying on my chest.

Her eyes were closed as her chest rose and fell, and I didn’t even know how I managed to doze off, but after her hours of crying, she passed out, no longer having the energy to keep her eyes open. 

I unwrapped my arms from around her, careful not to wake her up as I did before laying her more comfortably on the pillow. “I know that you are confused and are in more pain than you can handle, but I give you my word that things are going to be okay.”

My voice was above a whisper as I spoke, and I leaned in, connecting my lips with her forehead before I walked toward my closet. 

While in normal states, I would have come out here with a towel wrapped around my waist after taking a shower; I knew better than to do so. The last thing that I wanted was to scare her off, and knowing that she was sensitive right now, I didn’t want her mind to go somewhere that I wouldn’t be able to bring her back from.

“Killian?” Her voice, despite being weak, was like music to my ears. I smiled and turned around to face her. She sat on the bed and rubbed her sleep from her eyes as I walked toward her.

“I didn’t mean to wake you, I’m sorry.” I said, and she shook her head. She didn’t say anything for a few seconds before she removed the blanket from over her body and straddled my lap. I stayed still, and waited for what she was going to do before smiling as she wrapped her arms around my neck. I hugged her back, pulling her to my chest before kissing her cheek.

“I am sorry for the way that I reacted yesterday,” she said, and I smiled at her gentleness. It was something that I appreciated about her. The way that she was and the way that she spoke. Her heart raced before she moved from the hug, and I cupped her cheeks as I leaned in to connect my lips with hers. She kissed me back almost instantly, and I couldn’t help but smile into the kiss when she wrapped her arms around my neck, pulling me closer as she deepened the kiss.

I bit her bottom lip, gently pulling it as I asked for access inside her mouth, and she opened it, allowing me to push my tongue. She moaned into the kiss, and I groaned as I grinded against her before I could stop myself.

She froze for a second before the two of us pulled away to breathe, and I rested my forehead against hers, taking a deep breath as I looked her in the eye. Both our hearts raced and I smiled as I pecked her lips. “You know, if I don’t stop now…”

“I don’t want you to,” she said, taking me off guard. My heart raced against my ribcage as I processed her words and she nodded, letting me know that she was being serious. “You are my only family, Killian, and I no longer want to live in the fear that anyone would be able to hurt me while I have you in my life.”

“Eleanor, you do realize that this is a big step. Even if I don’t mark you…”

“I trust you,” she said, making my eyes widen.

The fact that I knew that she was as hurt as she was and yet was trusting me was something that I couldn’t help but find myself being happy about. The way that she looked at me told me that she was being serious about this, and I nodded. I connected my lips with hers in a gentle kiss that made her whimper. Her heart raced against her chest, and I ran my hands over her knees before raising them to her thighs and going back again. 

“If you can’t handle it, just let me know, no matter what the situation, I am going to stop.” I said and she nodded. She wrapped her arms around me and pulled me to her lips, making me smile.

“I trust you, Killian.” She repeated. I kissed her jawline before moving to her neck, kissing it, searching for her sweet spot. She whimpered as I kissed her right under her ear and I smirked, sucking on the area as I admired the beautiful sounds that escaped her mouth.

I pulled away as she started grinding herself against me, and I couldn’t help but groan at the friction that she was creating. Her heart raced and I lowered my hands to her ass, guiding her movements before kissing her.

This time, my kiss was more heated, and I couldn’t help but smirk as her whimpers grew louder into the kiss. I groaned and raised my hips to meet hers, and she froze, letting me know that she was ready for me. 

My eyes were fixed on hers as I slowly stripped her off her clothes before making her sit on the edge of the bed as I got up. She watched me, and I couldn’t help but smirk as I took my own clothes off. My dick sprang free, hitting my stomach, and I pumped myself, coating my dick with my pre-cum. Eleanor’s eyes were fixed on me for a few seconds, and I could tell by her racing heart that despite her need and the smell of her arousal, that she was afraid of what was to come.

I nodded at her to stand, and her eyes widened in surprise before she did as told. I smirked and lowered my hands to her ass, squeezing her cheeks gently before I kissed her neck as I turned us around. I sat on the edge of the bed and pulled her to straddle my lap, making her eyes widen.

“I want you to be the one to guide things, El.” I said, and she frowned in confusion. “Keep your eyes on mine and you would be the one to tend to how far things are going to go.” 

“I don’t know…”

“I will teach you,” I said, stopping her. “But I want you to know that you are safe with me, and more importantly, I want you to trust me, therefore, malyshka, I want you to be the one to take charge.”

Her eyes were fixed on mine for a few seconds before she nodded. I smirked and pulled her closer to me as I kissed her right breast. She froze and I couldn’t help but smirk as I lowered my hand her clit as I gently drew circles of eight over her sensitive nub. 

Her heart raced against her ribcage and she tightened her grip around my neck before slowly raising herself as she touched my dick with her hand. I groaned at the sensation and slowly positioned myself under her, I stilled completely, giving her the chance to be the one to take things as far as she could.

She closed her eyes and I cupped her cheeks. “Eyes on me, Eleanor.”

The last thing that I wanted to lose to her when I knew that she was doing something that she was afraid of. Her keeping her eyes on mine was going to be the best reminder that she was safe, that she was in my arms, and that I wasn’t going to hurt her.

She pushed my head inside her, before sitting on me slowly. I stilled when I was completely inside her, and she tightened her arms around my neck, holding me closer before she raised herself a bit and sat down once again. 

Her eyes were fixed on mine and I tightened my arms around her hips, gently squeezing her ass as I thrust upwards slowly. 

“You’re so fucking beautiful, do you realize that?” I asked, watching as she slowly leaned in to kiss me. I kissed her back and couldn’t help but smile into the kiss before she pulled away to rest her forehead against mine. 

Her eyes met mine and she smiled, her smile reaching her eyes, despite the pain that she was clearly in, she seemed to be content. She stilled, looking me in the eye, making my heart swell as I saw her trust in her eyes.

"Thank you, Killian…”