Chapter 23: Alpha Daniel

Ben's pov

I watch her walk away from the mess that she made, I’m still soaked, and the girl next to me still bitching about her hair and dress; I just want to push her away and run after that feisty blonde girl that been haunting my dreams, hell every waken moment for the last two weeks since I left her.

I have been with a new girl every day of the week, all brunettes, but I never get further than third base. My dick seems to be on a fucking strike since I meet her.

I sigh and get up, ignoring the bitch still complaining to the owner; I don’t even care about what happened anymore. I’m a beast, and I can handle some damn beer being thrown at me, especially if it’s her doing it.

“Where are you going, baby? Let’s just get out these wet clothes, forget about that bitch…” the brunette seductively bats her eyes at me, holding my hand hostage when I yanked back, disgusted by her near presents, and calling Milly a bitch makes me fume so much that I almost let my beast out on this ungrateful woman.

“don’t call her that!” I growl without knowing it, making people look at me in fear when I just get up and walk away. I wanted to talk to her after she did that, I saw something I thought I never see again, and it scared the shit out of me.

When she first came up to the table, I was ashamed, like being caught cheating, and how she looked at me like I had betrayed her. Honestly, that’s how I felt when I first saw her eyes. I realized that she was getting too attached to me and me to her, and I needed to end this. Whatever it was, she was human. I wasn’t willing to drag her into the war and the feuding, especially with Daniel going all crazy, threatening to kill anyone coming after Allison.

Fuck.

If I was right, I was in deep shit, so much deep shit that I didn’t know how to fix it or if I even wanted to try to do it.

I just had to see her one more time, that was it, I promised myself while searching for her in the back, but she had already left, the staff told me, all looking at me accusing like it was my fault that she downed me with the pitcher, she obviously well-liked by her co-workers and that makes me proud for some reason and my beast snarls when he sees the males talk about her in a sweeter tone like they stand I chance against me, I’ll rip them apart before they can even say hi to her.

I shake the primitive feelings before heading out, not caring about me being soaked when I follow her faint scent of coconut. That’s what I smelled when I told the brunette she smelled good. I was still drunk then but not anymore; that shower sobered me up quickly!

I run up her stairs like my body is moving all on its own when I pound at her door hard; if she doesn’t open, I will break it down after what happened tonight.

The door flies open, and she stands there still in her work outfit, showing her tan legs that go up to the sky and back again, making me growl at the thought that other males have been eyeing them all night, her boobs showing of hard nipples under the black t-shirt, she must have taken her bra off. I feel my cock getting hard as fuck from seeing the pretty blonde girl standing in the doorway, looking at me like I’m trash with her otherwise warm hazel eyes; now they are just showing how much she hates me.

“What? Did you come back for more? We only fucked once, remember?!” I almost want to laugh at her statement. She’s so fierce right now standing up against me; I know most beasts are afraid of me, and humans take a long way around avoiding me if they can, but not her. No, she keeps pushing me like she has already claimed me without even knowing what the fuck I was and what kind of shit my life came with.

“If you’re here for an apology, you’re not getting one.” She is about to close the door in my face when I growl and push it open, making her tremble from my swift moment of suddenly standing there so close to her and the door shut behind me, starring into each other eyes for what feels like the longest moment in my life.

“Mate.” She whispers as her eyes swirl with the slightest sliver of black into the brown hazel, and if I hadn’t seen it myself, I wouldn’t have believed it.

Fuck.

I back away, knowing she’s not lying; she doesn’t even know what’s happening; when she shakes her head, looking so confused, it breaks my heart.

She is my mate.

My second mate.

Fuck.

I close my eyes, trying to clear my head. No, she can’t be… no, I already had my mate. She was beautiful, and I loved her more than my own life…... and here I am standing with a human girl the moon goddess gave me a second chance that I didn’t deserve.

“Milly, I can’t… I just can’t….” I’m shaking now so much that I can’t stop it; I can’t fucking do this again; I won’t! I step back from here. I will not put her through what comes with my life and the heartbreak.

She looks at me, surprised, and her big eyes are already in tears. She knows nothing of mates, but she understands anyway, and why shouldn’t she be able to? She’s my mate, after all.

“So I'm not crazy then? You feel it too?” she steps closer, not knowing what is good for her. I snap my eyes to her neck, my beast going in full hardcore mode to push his way out and mark his female, but I'm fighting back. I'm not dragging Milly into this shitty world of mine. She deserves better than me. She is young and will find someone her own age, someone who’s not on his second chance and, as she said, a manwhore.

“Yes.” I grit my teeth, giving it all I got, not to let the blackness overtake me. She, not making it easy when she comes closer, is encouraged by my answer and snakes her arms around my neck, ignoring that my eyes are swirling with blackness. She still has tears in her eyes but has a brave smile on her face making me almost succumb to the beast, to mark her, have her, give her everything.

And then, she speaks with that soft voice, it so southing and I could hear her talking forever if I had the chance.

“Just tell me what you need, and ill give it to you.” She has her fingers in my hair, stroking it and making me grunt in approval. The beast started to purr, loving the attention we were getting from our mate, something I never thought would happen again.

“Tell me you reject me. Say your name rejecting me, my full name and yours.” I feel like I want to puke saying those words. She looks at me confused but nods after a few minutes, still holding on to my neck, her arms shaking from the adrenaline pumping through her body just as much as mine.

“I, Milly Reese, reject you, Ben…” she’s crying again, and she stops not knowing my name. My mate doesn’t even know my name; that feels like shit, and I pull her closer, breathing in her scent, coconut; it’s my favorite scent in the world.

“Benjamin, it's Benjamin, sweetheart….” I whisper in her ear, making her shiver even more. I want to lose control of how she presses her fantastic body against mine, even knowing she does it entirely, ignoring that she is getting just as soaked as me.

“I don’t know if I can do this…. I’m sorry, Benjamin…” she still holds onto me and is hanging with her head against my chest, her full weight leaning onto my body; it feels amazing, my heart feels like I can actually breathe again, and my beast is not howling of sorrow anymore.

But this isn’t fair against her, she doesn’t know, about me, about my place in the pack… shit, she doesn’t even know about my first mate…. Fuck… I don’t want to let her go; I want to be selfish and keep her to myself when holding me like she never wants to let go, either.

“It’s okay, Milly, I’ll do it; I know it’s hard; I shouldn’t have asked you to do it….” I smile at her, and she lifts her head smiling back; even with tears in her eyes, she radiates love and warmth toward me, like she has been waiting for me all her life.

I kiss her, I can’t help it, I know I’m supposed to say those damn words, but I can’t, not when she’s in my arms looking at me like she belongs in them, that she belongs with me.

She answers back, pushes upward on the toes making her come closer, and I lift her up, holding her slender body against mine. She fits so well with me, like a missing piece of my heart and soul I thought was gone forever.

“Please don’t make me reject you…” she mumbles the words into my shoulder when we stop kissing. I’m still holding her against me, and I don’t want to do it either, but she has no idea what she’s getting herself into.

“Milly, I’m not human.” I pull her away from me enough so that she can see my face. I have a serious face on, and she stares at me for a few seconds and starts to laugh like I’m insane; that is the reaction I was hoping she would get, not being scared and wanting to get away from me.

“Right…. And I’m bigfoot…” she snickers and runs her fingers through my hair again. It feels so fucking good in a way that I can’t even describe when the tingles shoot through me. I almost forgot the feeling of having your mates touch you; it was better than anything else, anything.

“I’m serious,” I say as gravely as I can, still feeling her fingers digging through my hair, making me grunt in approval. I love that she is acting on instinct, unaware that she wants to touch me all the time, not wanting to let go for a moment.

She suddenly stops and looks at me seriously with her big brown eyes, not a hint of laughter left in them anymore.

“I don’t care.” She keeps her gaze steady, not letting go of mine, searching hers for doubt just to find no, just sheer determination.

I was stunned for a few seconds; she didn’t seem to care, I could tell her I was a mermaid, and she still wanted me. That made me purr, and her smile got back on. She heard the purring as my mate and responded to it, fuck, she is amazing!

“You might care, sweetheart; can I show you?” I don’t want her saying yes to something she doesn’t even know exists when she nods and looks so cute. I want to do nothing other than just rip her clothes off and hold her forever trapped in that shitty bed she has.

This is risky, I’m letting the beast out, and he might take over and mark her. I don’t want that to happen, so I have to control the situation right now in this incredible tiny apartment she lives in.

She looks existed, like a kid on Christmas. I chuckle when I reluctantly let go of her. She seems a bit sad when I take a few steps back, making her back up and close my eyes before opening them up again, black as night.

The beast is staring at his mate, a fragile and beautiful human girl. I don’t care, I don’t care that she’s human, I want her, I need her.

She looks a bit shocked at my eyes, nibbling her lips, making her look sexy, and I growl to make her stop, and she jumps back a few steps from my warning.

“I saw some guys at the restaurant. They had the same eyes as you were talking about mates and stuff and gave me creeps, unlike you, Benjamin.” She smiles in the end, and I growl louder; other males around my female, fucking eyeing her? Rogues?! I’ve already mind link Daniel about rogues being near our borders; when I look at my mate, that looks terrified of the load growl echoing through her home, her breathing is shallower, and her heart racing in her chest, and I smell that she is…. Turned on?

“You like the beast, sweetheart?” I have a slight smirk now, pleased that she was not as afraid of me as I thought she would be. My mate is strong and intelligent… and fucking sexy as hell standing there in her skirt, slightly pushed up and with perky nipples, face flushed with excitement.

She just nods, blushing like she never had me inside her already. I let out a small chuckle again and moved closer to her body. She smells so good, and I just want to take her, not caring about the consequences of what I’m doing right now.

“You smell soo good, mate. I just want to eat you up…” she blushes even more when I’m already back at her tempting body. She instantly pulls her arms around my neck again, like she has never done anything else. She is fucking perfect.

I push my arms around her and pull her up against me again, more intimate this time, touching her nose against mine like we were wolfing, my beast peeking out even after I pushed him back again.

She nuzzles me, and I’m in shock for a few seconds. She already acting more like she is a beast herself, leaving her neck to me to be marked. I frown at her, and she looks sad suddenly when I realize that she thinks I’m mad at her when nothing could be more untrue.

“Milly, I want to mark you so bad when you tilt your head like that.” I sigh when she smiles that I’m not mad at her and leans her head again, showing her neck like it’s a game we're playing and not me making her mine forever, no takebacks, no second chances at all.

“Like this, Benjamin?” she smirks even more, and I get tingles as she says my full name. I usually don’t like it, but she can call me whatever she wants.

“Yeah… that’s dangerous, sweetheart, I might mark you, and there is no way out if you have second thoughts about us.” She batts her eyes at my husky voice and leans back, looking at me all serious again like I’m the crazy one trying to explain to her that I’m trying my hardest to give her a way out.

“Why would I have second thoughts? I belong with you.” I almost choke on the air in my lungs, she’s just accepted everything, about me, about the beast, and she’s telling me that we belong together after meeting me twice; I’m starting to doubt that she’s even as human as she smells like.

I smile and pull out her ponytail, wanting to feel her long blonde hair with my fingers; it feels so soft under the tips that I’m getting tingles again, making her smile even more; the goddess is dangerous, giving me all sorts of right answers right now.

“You are so beautiful, Milly, absolutely fucking gorgeous…” she blushes again like she doesn’t even believe me. I almost get mad at her for being so ignorant of how sexy she is.

She rolls her eyes like it’s a joke when I’m still trying to get my head around how she can’t see that every male out there tonight was begging for her attention, human and wolf alike.

“Naah, I’m too scrawny; guys don’t usually like that.” She says it with a smile, making my own disappear. Who the fuck told her that?! I’m going to kill! Whoever made her believe she isn’t the most gorgeous girl on the planet, a fucking ten out of ten!

“And too tall. Guys don’t like when you’re taller than them or just have a couple of inches between them.” She shrugs like it’s the truth again, and I frown at the bullshit she’s telling me. That’s fucking ridiculous, she could be two feet taller than me, and I wouldn’t give a shit about it!

“What kind of assholes have you been dating?” I don’t like the thought of my mate with other males, but I’m setting her straight, that’s for sure.

She looks at me, confused, like I’m talking in an alien language before she leans her head down against my chest and whispers her answer like she is ashamed.

“I haven’t… you know, been dating… nothing… no one… not until I meet you….” She looks up, nervous as hell when my eyes go full saucer staring at the pretty girl before me, she’s telling me that she has never, ever, ever been with another man, or boy maybe is a better term for her age.

“Ah fuck, Milly, why didn’t you tell me?!” I don’t know why I got mad; maybe it was more against myself than her. I took her fucking virginity in this crappy apartment and left her without even saying goodbye. Great I could just get tattooed. Worst mate ever on my forehead right now.

“Well, I didn’t really come up at the moment, did it?” she snaps back. She thinks I’m mad at her again when I’m the asshole that fucked her and left.

Shit.

My sister and mom were going to kill me when they found out about this. I was a dead man walking.

“I’m so sorry, I was such an asshole….” I didn’t know what to say anymore. She was a virgin when she met me two weeks ago, and I just assumed she wasn’t cause she was so pretty and bubbly, warm and outgoing. How couldn’t you want to get into her pants?

“Yes, you were the biggest asshole ever, but… I forgive you.” She smiles again when I smirk back. Oh, she was not going to like Daniel, that’s for sure.

“Stay with me, just for tonight. I don’t want to be alone.” She pleads with me looking like a lost puppy, not even realizing that I’m already lost in her eyes; if she asks me anything, I will kill to get it, she is my mate, and I don’t want to let go anymore.

“Milly, I’m staying forever if you’ll have me, sweetheart.” I caress her face with my hands, still not believing I have a mate again, and such a beautiful girl, too. I am blessed by the moon goddess for some unknown reason.