Chapter 30

Never in a million years did I think that I would get this mad or be able to express my feelings this way.

She kept yelling for me to let go of her hair, calling me all sorts of name and then finally, shoved me away, hitting my head on the door.

“what the fuck is happening!” Ben and Elias rushed to the scene, with Ben shouting,

“This freak!!!” she pointed my way, she came in here and started shouting at me and pulling my hair!”

I rolled my eyes, blood dripping down my face “oh please, don’t be dramatic, I didn’t even pull it that hard” I scoffed “besides, I’m not the one that caused me to have a bleeding head!”

I accused, pointing a finger her way.

“it was in self defence!”

“Enough!” Ben said in a metallic voice. “Allison, apologise please” I looked at him, completely floored. There was no way he had said that.

“No” I said looking at him in disbelief. He was supposed to take my side. I was clearly injured, no matter what had happened, I was bleeding. He looked at me shocked, not expecting me to say that and just roll with what it was he was saying, well there was no way I was doing that.

“Allison!”

“Benjamin” I matched his tone. It was embarrassing enough that he had yelled at me in such a manner, in front of his friends, but I was definitely not apologising. “she is the one that entered my space. She is the one that needs to go. I was the one injured, why do I need to apologise!” I was flustered, and it was not from the cold. I wanted more than anything to be coiled up on the bed and just cry.

I felt all alone.

“she is a guest, if she says she is comfortable here, then you let her. It’s just for a few days. There are enough rooms in this house” he left, leaving me with those two.

Elias looked unimpressed, like he expected me to have acted that way. “it’s kind of obvious youre6 with him for him money” he said twisting his nose with so much distaste in his voice and then left

I stood shocked, I could not believe he thought that.

Emily and I were alone in the room again, she smiled, gave me scornful look and then laughed. “I’ll give you the heads up, no matter what you do, no matter how you play this game. Ben would always choose me. I always come first to him.” She gave me this spite full look, “and there would be nothing you can do to change that.”

“This is my room!!” I said all flustered.

“And this is Ben’s house” she gave me the smart look. I was done. If this was how she was going to play, then it was fine,

I went back to the living room, by now, Ben and Elias were no longer there, it looked like everywhere had retired for the night.

I made my self comfortable on the biggest couch in the living room, going to sleep.

**

“Ally, Allison?” someone was waking me up twitter taps and calls which I found annoying.

I shoved the hand away as best as I could.

“Allison!” it called a little louder, it took a while for the voice to register as Ben’s own.

“What!” that didn’t mean that I was in the mood to answer, especially after what happened earlier.

He sighed, clearly no in the mood, good, so was I “come to bed. It can’t be comfortable out here.” He said in a gentle tone.

“there is no need, I’m perfectly fine where I am” I said adjusting how I laid down.

“You are being difficult, let’s go to bed” I didn’t say anything.

He left, leaving me to continue my sleep.

Fee minutes later, it got a little warmer, “I hope you know how much I love you each and every time” he kissed my forehead and went back inside, allowing me to open my eyes and see what he put over me. It was a blanket.

My heart skipped a beat, as I closed my eyes to sleep.

‘Maybe he did care about me after all, maybe I was the one overreacting’ fell into a dreamless state. Thinking everything over and over again.

The next morning cam and I did feel lighter, I woke up with a smile as I folded the blanket up,

Nothing, absolutely nothing could stop me from how I felt. Ben came out, greeting me, and for a moment, I had ignored everything that happened yesterday.

Only that I spoke too soon. Emily came out of the room, being her touchy feels self with Ben I felt absolutely appalled.

“So, what do you plan do today?” my mind went back to the restaurant, more specifically,, to Tobias

“Well,” she answered the question that was clearly directed at me. “how about a day out, just the two of us? It’s been so long we hung out”

“sure” he agreed making her smile at me with that “I told you he’ll always choose me” smile.

“Do you still love her?” I asked him straight up, I was done always feeling like the third wheel. Like my feelings didn’t matter, being ignored, I had felt that my whole life to just start re-living it again.

He rolled his eyes at me.

“come on, babe, don’t be like that. Can we just be a normal couple for once? No fighting? Just enjoy the moment?”

I was still not satisfied. He did not answer the question.

“Benjamin” I looked straight in to his eyes, since we got into a relationship, all I felt like doing was to cry.

“that’s not the question, don’t try to ignore it” I took in a deep breath. “Do you still love her” ig qas a good thing she had gone to the kitchen by now, because I was going to say some inappropriate things and would have looked bad if she was here to hear it all.