Chapter 63: The sleepover - Cole

Why the hell am I feeling so nervous? My hands are literally shaking as I tidy up my bedroom that wasn't even messy beforehand. I make room at my desk for her stuff, because she mentioned she has some papers to work on. I suggested she could do it here before we watch a movie.

This is real. Maybe that's why I'm feeling like this. I've been watching her without her knowing for so long, thinking that her and me could never be, yet here I am. She's coming over tonight as more than my sister. I'm not quite convinced she's sure she wants to do this with me. I know that she desires me sexually, that'e evident. It's also very evident that she naturally submits to my dominant side. That's answer enough that she is made for me.

Luke looks at me funny when I go down for dinner with him, only grabbing one of the to-go bowls. He knows I prefer the freshly made food, and that I almost never cheat on the diet plan the nutritionist set up for me.

When Monet texts me that she's downstairs, I rush down like I haven't seen her that day, appearing calm like I didn't just stress like a little girl wondering if her friends will show up for her birthday party.

I quickly scan the parking lot, not seeing anyone, everyone usually at dinner this time of the evening, so I quickly kiss Monet when she gets out of her car. The pink hue on her cheeks is totally worth the risk.

"Where are your bags?" I ask as I close the door behind her.

"In the trunk."

I can sense she's nervous too when we go up to my suite, looking around to check if anyone is looking at us weirdly. Because why would a sister be over at her brother's place all the time in college? I hate this hiding how I really feel from the world, from Kamila, but what other choice do I have right now?

"Do you want me to order you dinner?" I ask when we get to my room. "I stocked up on your favorite snacks and drinks."

"I got a salad, I'm good, thanks."

I can tell she's feeling awkward, so I do the one thing that I know she melts into.

I pull her into me, and tilt her face to look up at me, her golden eyes looking unsure. I kiss her, slanting my lips over hers, and her body does exactly what I knew it would. It melts into mine as she sighs into my mouth.

I reluctantly pull away, wanting to do what she's asking me with her body to, but I know her. If she doesn't work, she's going to regret it in the morning and beat herself up over it.

"I have some homework I have to finish." I lie. "One hour tops then we can watch a movie."

I love watching her work, I always have. I admire the way she immerses herself in her studies, biting her bottom lip as she concentrates and frowning cutely. I do actually go over some spreadsheets for class while scarfing down my dinner.

I can feel how aware of me she is, even though this is something we've done for years, doing our homework at the dining room table at home, always side by side. I have always studied her then, wishing we were more, even when she didn't realize it.

This is what I want most in life. Be back in one house with her as my girlfirend, where I get to go to bed with her without her having questions running through her mind like I know they are now.

"In the mood for a horror movie?" I smirk as I get up, saying the words I always did on Friday nights when it was off-season. We'd watch horror movies and binge eat popcorn.

"Always." she smiles back.

I set up my laptop on the bed and she joins me as I put on one of her favorite horror movies, Nightmare on Elm Street.

"So, there's something I wanted to talk to you abaout." She says in a tone I don't particularly like. "I told Damon we could drive with them to the game on Saturday."

Yeah, I definitely do not like that. "No."

"What am I supposed to tell him, Cole?" She sighs. "My brother told me he wants to be my boyfriend, so I'm no longer single?"

"and what exactly did you think Damon's intentions were when he asked you to drive with him?" Anger I shouldn't be feeling bubbles to the surface. "He certainly didn't ask you because he wants to be your friend."

"It's not like I'm going to do anything with the guy, Cole." She says defiantly. "So I'm driving with him if you like it or not, and I already said yes."

I pick up the laptop between us and puts it on the nightstand. "And I say no, my girlfriend is not driving two hours to and back with a guy who clearly wants to fuck her!"

"But he doesn't know I'm your girlfriend!" Anger spikes in her golden eyes. "And you're making it seem like I'm just going to open my legs to the guy. "

"I know you won't, because the only person you're opening your legs to, is me!"

"You're being really childish right now." She has the audacity to roll her eyes, so I flatten her on her back and pin her underneath my body, sucking the skin of her neck into my mouth.

She yelps and tries to push me off her, but I'm much stronger, and I only lift my head when I'm sure there's a hickey visible for everyone to see.

"What did you just do!" Her eyes are wide.

"Now you can explain to Damon that you're no longer available, and your boyfriend said you're not driving with him."