Chapter 60: Girlfriend - Monet

My mouth feels dry when I wake up, that damn jungle juice they were giving at the frat house was potent.

My mouth also feels slightly salty, and I clench my thighs, a slight ache there from the way Cole was fingering me last night.

It's getting extremely more difficult to not just climb on him and sit on his cock, taking what I want from him. Why is he being so respectful when I clearly want him to fuck me?

It's both frustrating and admirable.

He didn't hesitate to fuck other girls.

That thought makes me upset, jealous over girls that I know he had no emotional connection with.

Is that why he's hesitating to go all the way with me?

He kisses the top of my head, and my eyelids flutter open. I frown, his shoulders are taped, has he been up already?

"What time is it?" I croke out.

"Past ten." He sounds much more awake than I do. "Amy left already, apparently someone told Coach she was hanging out here."

"Shit." I hope she doesn't get into any trouble.

That's the perk of not living with parents anymore, they don't know where the hell you are. Mom can see my location, but I'm sure she's not zooming in on the exact street.

Guilt floods me immediately. I used to tell her everything, but I certainly can't tell her this.

"Do you want breakfast?" His hand runs over my bare back.

Why is this so natural for us? Why am I not shrinking away from him? I don't even feel embarrassed after last night.

It's like we're supposed to be doing this.

I snuggle deeper into him. "Your breakfasts are too healthy for my liking."

"Or we can stay in bed, and go for lunch later." Cole's hand goes from my back to cup my ass possessively, making my face heat up. "I'll eat sushi with you."

That sounds suspiciously like a date.

"Just you and me?"

We've always done things with others. Even back home, Luke was always with us, or Mom.

His hand squeezes my ass tighter. "Just you and me."

That sounds both scary and tantalizing at the same time. "Okay."

"I got you some things, it's in the bathroom cabinet."

I look up at him for the first time. The heat from last night in his eyes are replaced with a lazy look as he lays spread out on his back, his free arm that is not holding me tucked under his head.

Cole Smith is one hell of a fine speciman. How was I supposed to stay away from him in the first place? As soon as he set his eyes on me, I was done for.

"How long have you been up?" I'm curious to know. The guy was being hit the day before by huge guys, how is he up and about already?

"I wake up early, you know that."

"You didn't back home."

"I did, you just didn't know." He turns on his side and throws his arm over my middle. "I looked at you for hours while you were sleeping."

"You're lying."

But there's only honesty in his eyes.

"Why?"

Cole leans down and kisses a trail from my neck up to my ear. "Because you've always been the most beautiful girl in my world."

My heart hammers in my chest . Was I blind all this time? Has he liked me, and I just didn't see?

"But you were always with some girl." I whisper, confused.

"What else was I supposed to do?" He lifts his head and looks me in the eye, his blue eyes soft like the way he used to look at me when we were younger. "I know I wasn't supposed to want you like that, so I tried to get my mind off you. Lets just say, it didn't work. At all."

"What are you saying, Cole?" I'm a person of science. I believe in facts, things that can be proven. Cole is either a really great actor, because I've been completely oblivious to it all.

"I'm saying I want you to be mine, and mine alone. No dates with other guys, no dancing with other guys either."

My mouth gapes open in surprise. "How is that even going to work? Everybody knows I'm your sister. I was on freaking ESPN as your sister, Cole, do we just come out and say we're lovers instead?"

He has the audacity to smirk. "I like that. Lovers. But no, I was thinking more in the lines of, you're my girlfriend and I'm your boyfriend."

"What about Mom?" I push him off me, and get up, looking for my dress on the floor so I can feel less vulnerable.

It's amazing that I'm not shy around him naked, but I feel like my heart is on my sleeve with having nothing between us, and I need to think straight.

'She does't have to know." He sits upright, his eyes hungry on my body. "We can still keep it a secret, and when the time is right, I'll talk to her."

I look disbelievingly at the boy who I always thought of as my brother and my best friend. And he wants me to be his girlfriend.

I can't lie, there is nothing I want more, even knowing that this is the worst idea ever, and it doesn't just impact the two of us either. I can just see Mom's face if she finds out what the two of us have been doing. And she's going to find out.

"You're freaking out." Cole also get out of the bed, his muscles rippling underneath his skin momenarily distracting me. "It can be simple. Nobody knows but you and me. When I graduate, I will go see and Kamila and tell her that I'm in love owth you."

My heart literally skips a beat.

He'll tell Mom he's in love with me.

Oh my god.

He walks up to me and takes my face into his hands.

"I'm in love with you, Monet. I've been in love with you for a very long time. Our story doesn't end here." His eyes glisten. "I want my forever to be with you."