Chapter 117

**AMELIA**

"So what are you supposed to be thinking about?" He asks again, sitting on the edge of the bed next to me.

"I'm not telling you anything," I reply, crossing my arms. Honestly, I'm trying a new strategy and I have no idea what the consequences will be.

"And why not?" He asks me through gritted teeth. His whole body is tense but his face remains impassive. I know him well enough to know that he's doing his best to contain himself and not get angry with me. He wouldn't want to be responsible for my stress.

"Because you'll get upset and that's bad for the baby," I tell him with a straight face.

"Amelia. If I promise not to get upset, would you tell me?"

"No."

"I beg your pardon?" He stands up and runs his hands through his hair. He takes deep breaths and turns to look at me, more calmly. "My love. I'm taking a break to come and see you, and just then I hear Xander telling you to think of something before you leave our apartment." He pauses. "Put yourself in my shoes for two seconds. It's normal for me to want to know what this is all about."

"I understand you want to know, but I'll keep my mouth shut." I sigh. "Even if you promise not to get upset, you will get upset... I'm sure of it."

"Okay, then that means it's something serious." He stands up and paces. "Does he want you to leave me?"

"I think so, but that's not what this is about."

He frowns. "But if it's not that then..." He cuts himself off and his eyes widen. Bingo, he must have understood what Xander suggested. "The filthy son of a bitch. Don't fucking tell me he suggested we fucking share you."

"Okay, I won't tell."

"Fucking bastard. I'm going to crush his fucking motherfucking face. Maybe I can catch him, he just...."

"Stop, please," I tell him, trying to stay as calm as possible. "See? That's exactly what I was thinking. That's why I didn't want to say anything to you."

"Then what?" He shouts before taking a deep breath and lowering his voice. "Did you want to think this through alone and impose your decision on me?"

"Of course, I didn't. I love you big silly and you give me enough trouble as it is so I certainly don't need an extra person." I shake. "Don't you know me?"

"It's not...."

"You should get back to work. I'm tired." I tell him before lying down and turning my back on him.

I feel him at my back, standing there for a moment before I hear his footsteps move away and finally, the door closes. We were doing so well before all this came down on us, between the alpha Randall wanting the pack and Xander wanting me... I feel guilty adding this on Noah's back. Why can't I reject Xander? It would be so easy.