Chapter 34

RICHARD’S POV

I turned and turned continuously unable to sleep. It was supposed to be an amazing night since I and managed to win over my mother and prove to her that I could do whatever I wanted and still get away with it. But somehow I felt down, like I was doing something wrongly and I wasn’t supposed to feel that way. Even if if it was for a minute I had cared about about her and she looked like an Angel while she slept, so peaceful and calm. I had hated her even before I got to meet her, I hated her because she was even known for being the plaything of most men in the clubs, I hated her because my mum decided that I had no say in the matter when all I wanted was to spend my life with Kayla . But she looked nothing like it, she was sexy and beautiful and even if she had turned me on like hell earlier, you could still see that she was inexperienced. Above all the last thing I wanted was to be feeling this way about Lena.

Now here I was, dreaming about Lena when I wasn’t asleep and I didn’t want that. I couldn’t get attached to someone of that nature, someone with that type of past. And most especially I couldn’t allow my mum thibk she had won over me, so I was going to remain vehement for as long as possible. My phone buzzed and I got a message from Kayla asking to meet up with her at our hotel room. It was perfect timing because she was just the girl I was supposed to be thinking about. I got ready and drove to meet her, usually when I had been starved of Kayla for too long, I would always feel libido rising even before I got to her but it was different today, I didn’t want sex, I just wanted to get my mind off Lena .

I signed as I got to the hotel and quickly placed my head on the steering wheel. My head was conflicted with thoughts and I needed to get my hard straight before heading in with Kayla. I couldn’t let her know that I had slept with Lena and it was going to be worse if she found that I was thinking about her. When I was certain that I had it in control, I rushed in to meet her.

“You are late.” She responded. She had a green lingerie on with a wine glass in her hand as she sipped deductively.

“Something came up on the way, I was stopped by some officers.” I lied. “You look really good, what’s the occasion.”

“We are celebrating our win obviously, isn’t that what you wanted?” She smiled

“Uhh, yeah it was but you declined and you’re suddenly in the mood to get freaky, it just doesn’t make a lot of sense to me.”

“Not evetything has to make sense Richard, sometimes we just act. Like how I was quick to harshly walk out on you even if you had just gone against your mother to make me happy.”

I didn’t know if that was the truth anymore, or maybe it was just the lie I told to myself to keep Luna, turns out I wanted to keep her when I could just let her go since she herself was already frustrated.

“You are not saying anything, does that mean my apology is unaccepted?” She called out

“You didn’t exactly tender any apology Kayla, you were saying you shouldn’t have walked out.”

“You know the point I am driving at thought, I don’t necessarily have to say it do I. How about we just skip all of this and have a good time, I decided to look good for you.” She got up and slowly walked towards me before kissing me. But still there was nothing, I still couldn’t feel anything and my head was thinking about Lena and what she could be doing at the moment, or even what she was putting on.

“We should try something else instead Kayla, how about we go out and have fun like we used to in those days”

“So you don’t want to touch me?” She frowned and steeped back looking confused

“Not that, I just really wanted us to celebrate differently, we could always have sex later, I am yours and you are mine right?.”

“Well I guess so, but this has nothing to do with Lena right?, because somehow I have a bad feeling about all of this. First we have an argument because you don’t want me to come over to your place, and next thing that is happening is that you don’t want me to touch you. And I know I shouldn’t be worried but I can’t help it. I am trying not to worry about it.”

“You are overthinking it Kayla, this has never and will never have anything to do with Lena.”

“Oh yeah? That’s not all? You refused to call me even after we fought today and that’s something that’s had never happened, you always reached out to know if I was fine and if i was getting everything right and now you want to make me believe you are not losing feeling for me?.”

“That happened and I am sorry . You know I avoided going home because of my mum and as expected she showed me hell when I got home. She was pissed at all the ropes I pulled at the meeting. But how about this, we can reschedule this meeting and I will make it up to you okay?”

“Get out” she responded gently

“Excuse me?”

“Get out or I will scream that there is a rapist in this room that is trying to rape me.”

I knew Kayla well enough and I could tell she was going to do it if I didn’t leave so I quickly took my leave.

I had never fought with Kayla over a girl and I had certainly never had to lie so much at once because I wanted her to be kept in the dark about soemtung and yet here I was doing everything and the terrible part was the fact that I didn’t feel bad about it. It just wanted to be happy and also wanted to see if Lena was safe

“What the hell is wrong with you Richard Paxton” I mumbled . I wanted it all to go away and I was going to think of ways to make sure it all did. I finally arrived home and parked my car in the lot. I noticed a small figure in the porch seat even if it was dimly lit.

It was her, the lady I had grown from hating to caring about in just a few hours.

“Why are you here? You should be asleep by now.”

“Well I should be but I’m not, I got the news from your mum and well I was unable to sleep.”

She didn’t look sad, or happy either, but her eyes glistened like she had a plan and I wasn’t sure I liked it

“How do you feel about it?” I asked to see if she was going to hint me on anything

“Indifferent I guess, I think a part of me knew it was a waste of time to actually think I was getting out of this, so I just decided to be open to the outcome.”

“And you don’t wish it turned out dufferenly?”

I wanted her to say she did, I wanted to hear her say she was happy to stay

“I wish it did, at least i would have been free of you finally.”

“It’s time for you to stop dreaming, that is never happening.”

I walked off angril to my room, I spent the rest of my day think about her and everything we could have been and still be if the situations were different and all she wanted was to get rid of me, I was obviously the bigger idiot for thinking that spending time and showing such little amount of care was going to make her forget everything that she had been through. I was awlyas going to be that monster to get, so I was going to live up to her expectations of me instead of getting hurt in the process.

I sent a text to Kaylaapologizing for the whole incident and telling her to come over for days, I was going to make Kayla hate me even more than she already did.

Kayla arrived really early even before I woke up and she had a bunch of stuff arranged in the wardrobe

“I thought it was just a few days, why are your things so many?”

“Oh well, if I am going to be here for a few days, there’s nothing wrong with bringing more things than I planned, I might decide to start staying here.”

“I don’t know how that’s going to work, but I just want us to be happy right now, I’ve missed you.”

“Me too love” she leaned forward and kissed me passionately, the door flung open while we were at it and I could tell that Lena was shocked to see that happening.

“Sorry about that, I didn’t know she was here and i didn’t mean to interrupt.” She quickly apologized

I was going to be mean to her since that was the whole purpose of asking Kayla to come in the first place.

“Well you are interrupting, come back later….”