Chapter 21 Cigarettes
When you hunt, let the game come to you.
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Irina's point of view:
"Yes. What's wrong?" I asked her.
"It's like you don't understand this. You haven't seen him with a condom, or he hasn't used it while you guys are making love, like having sex?" She asked. I blushed.
Gosh, I shouldn't be blushing, right? But here I am, blushing like a teenager who is talking about her crush with her friends.
My sex experience isn't a good one but right now that we are discussing, I feel it is the complete opposite of what I labelled it to be.
"Hmm." I managed to say. My cheeks are probably dying from redness.
"Wait, have you guys ever even had sex together?" She asked.
"Yes," I said.
"How many times?"
"Just once." I manage to control myself before it turns to embarrassment.
"Just once? So you haven't seen him ripping off a condom pack?" She asked again.
"No! I think I just said that." I said, feeling annoyed already.
"Gosh, I guess I should be expecting a niece or nephew from you both then," she said dramatically.
My heart skipped a beat as I heard that. My beating was faster than usual. What the fuck is that?
I am shaking in fear right now.
"Why?" I asked instantly without thinking.
"Because a condom is a form of protection during sex to prevent unwanted pregnancy, diseases, and infections from both players. It guarantees 99.9% of preventing unwanted pregnancies. So if you guys have been having sex with using without using protection, then you are prone to getting pregnant. A condom is not the only measure to prevent unwanted pregnancy, pills can also be used by the lady. If the lady used the pill. They can have raw sex and it might not result in an unwanted pregnancy. Pills are mostly called contraceptives. So I think I need to start preparing to become an aunt. I will be the best aunt ever." She joked after explaining it which resulted in earning a glare from me.
How can I get pregnant for a man that I don't even love?
"It was my first sex, I read that the first sex has a low probability that a lady won't get pregnant," I said.
"Well, that's true but not all the time, especially when the guy means business. Like you" she winked at me.
"I don't know what you are talking about, anyway. Good night." I said to her. She started laughing. Gosh, why would she mock me? At least, I know I won't get pregnant.
"What about you?" I asked in defeat.
"About me?"
"Do you and Ruslan use protection?" I asked hoping to hear no from her.
"Of course baby, you always use protection and that was the reason you saw a condom with him. So that we can pull up anytime, anywhere, anyplace when we feel the urge to." She said in mockery.
"Whatever!" I went out of the room in pure embarrassment to my room.
I didn't feel sleepy so I decided to read my new novel.
Roman's point of view:
I dug the cigarette bud in the ashtray after smoking it. I took another cigarette and lit it. Then I started smoking it.
My door suddenly opened ajar and Loana came in.
I know she will complain that my room is filled with smoke.
"Oh! Gosh, dammit Roman, what the fuck is all this? Smoke and smoke and smoke. I thought you stopped smoking." She said loudly as she sat beside me on the couch placed by my window which allows me to see the city of Moscow.
"I never stopped. And that was the reason why I moved out of the house." I replied to her.
"Do you smoke frequently?" She asked.
"Nah, just when I am frustrated and angry, and not even every time," I told her.
"I just finished talking to your wife, I got to know that you guys haven't been using protection and you only have sex once. What the fuck is wrong with you?" She asked me.
I dig the bud in the astray and place away the cigarette.
"I hate using protection and you know that. I would rather go with a pull-out game." I told her.
"So you don't use protection for your whores also?" She raised her brows.
"Why won't I? I always am, way careful of not impregnating those whore and who knows what disease they are dealing with. So I had to use it."
"But you don't have to use it with Irina, right?" She asked, trying to find out something.
"Yes, she is my wife after all," I answered her curtly.
"Do you know she can get pregnant with all these tricks you are using?" She asked.
"I know. What's wrong with that?" I asked in frustration. Loana always has a way of frustrating me.
"Seriously? You want her to get pregnant when you guys can't even bear each other for a second. That's absurd, Roman." She frowned.
"What's the purpose of marriage if there are no children? You know how much I have always wanted kids and I am married now. So I don't see what is stopping me from having children." I told her.
"There is, you want to have children with the woman you don't love. Is that even possible? So if you want to start a family with a woman you don't love now, then you will start having problems in your marriage later on. You guys won't live in harmony. Then you both will think the best thing for you is to get a divorce. Letting the children witness coming from a broken home, right? You are just being selfish and irrational right now." she scoffed.
"It is none of your damn business!" I fired at her.
"It is my damn business, alright? Because I can see how unhappy she is, she is just trying to play along. Or do you think because you are a Don, you can cage her and make her do as you want and in that way, she becomes unhappy for the rest of her life? Then, it is not possible because she needs to be happy. She deserves happiness, pure happiness in her life." She said.
"It is none of your damn business. Shut the fuck up or else."
"Or else what? You can do any fucking thing to me. It is Loana, not any other person. I know what you can do and what you cannot do. You can't do any shit to me right now. So shut the fuck up." She said.
I picked up the cigarette to light. She was quick to snatch it from my hand.
"You can't smoke when I am here. God knows that you will always think senselessly and that was the reason he made me your second so I can advise you to make you think straight." She smiled.
"I will leave the room for you then," I said as I stood up.
"Then I will follow you anywhere you want to go. What about that?"
I instantly sat back as she said that.
"Can't you see that she is hurting? Can't you see she is unhappy? Can't you see she is lonely and bored? She needs someone by her side, something to make her feel lively, happy, and protected. She is naive, she doesn't know the real world. She doesn't know what the world holds for her. She doesn't know that the normal world is dangerous and the world we find ourselves in is more dangerous. She needs someone to protect her all the time.
You need to let go of that hatred you have towards her and her family, especially so you can know the real her. So, you can know that the real Irina is fragile and innocent who needs much love, care, and safety from the people around her. You need to try. Seriously, you are nothing but a monster to her right now. She doesn't even know that you are a nice person. Until you change you will always be a jerk to her.
She already said she is going to try to make your marriage work. You heard her, right? So you also have to put a lot of effort into making it work out.
Make use of your honeymoon, okay? Make her feel like the queen that she is. Be a different person during this trip and start a phase of life with her with love and harmony. Be good to her, explore Thailand with her, and make her feel lonely and sad." She preached.
"Well, I will try. I was going anyway." I agreed with her.
"That's my boy."
"What about you and that jerk?" I asked her about the disagreement they had.
"Don't call him a jerk. His name is Rusland and he is my husband." She scoffed as she kicked me gently.
"Whatever. I didn't know why you fell in love with him anyway." I snarled.
"I fell in love with him because I love him and don't worry about us. That was just a little disagreement that we had. We will resolve it in no time. Mind your business and face your marriage." she said rudely.
"Really? So you can tell me not to interfere in your marriage while you are busy poking your nose into mine." I told her in disbelief.
"You can never resolve it like a normal person, you will just add more fuel to the flame." She responded.
"Shut the fuck up and get the fuck out of my room," I said angrily.
"I was going to." She said and she stood up from the chair.
She smacked my head on her way. She always finds ways to annoy me.
I took out my cigarette and lit it. I started smoking it.
I took out my phone to call Irina regarding her incapacity to cook and bringing over her maid to teach her for two weeks. I searched for her number on my phone just to find out that I don't even have my wife's number on my phone.
Great, right?
That's so peachy.
Is that even possible? Not having your partner's number on your phone.
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