Chapter 1 Rejection and Introduction

 I remember the last time I saw him. Rick, my childhood best friend. We went to the same school from grade school until college. He is now an engineer while I am an economics major and still on my way to find a job. Let’s say it has been a year since we graduated. We instantly clicked and we were together after we both confessed our feelings to each other after we graduated. Rick is working in a reputable company downtown, easing his way to a new circle of friends, clubs, night party and girls. Until he suddenly changes. He is no longer the ‘Rick’ I used to know.

I also remembered the last time we went to Europe with our batchmates for vacation and then we stumbled upon this pretty woman who happens to be his other best friend. They chatted for hours in the middle of the street while I patiently waited for them to finish catching up. My feet were frozen from the cold and they are still in heat of their conversation. What an ass. They could just continue talking inside somewhere warm. It was snowing outside, and they didn’t even bother to ask me if I’m okay.

 I even caught her sneaking up to our hotel floor and this jerk invited her wholeheartedly. No more questions about what they did in there. That made me realized, there are things about Rick that I have never known.

It was after summer when he broke up with me. It was so sudden. I wasn’t prepared it would be so soon. I love him. Hell, I was the happiest when we were still together.

All people indeed come up with their preferences as they grow old. And I am never part of his preferences. To make things short, he dumped me.

I wish he would tell me where did I go wrong, what I did or whatever happened for him to do this to me. As much as I would like to confront him, I don’t want to see his face again after he bluntly dumped me and said he only sees me as a sister. It’s like a cold wind knocked him off and I can still remember how his eyebrows scrunched together and it’s like he was brought back to his senses and told me, it was just a mistake. He laughed and spat on my face with his hurtful words, “I’m sorry, Betty.. I like you and I love you. But as my best friend only. And blah blah blah.” I never get to understand his next words and all I can see how my eyes blurred and knocking someone after I ran away from the jerk. Crying myself to sleep for a couple of nights, and balled my eyes out after realizing I just messed up our friendship and ruined the bond that we built for years. 

That only made me realize, it wasn’t my fault at all. Being true to yourself and telling your feelings to someone is not a crime and I am even proud of what I did. In that case, I finally saw his true intentions and his true colors. Rainbow in black and white.