Chapter 39
I pulled over and let loose. I dropped my head to my hands and sobbed. Everything was happening so fast, I was completely frazzled, which I guess is why I was having a mental breakdown.
Liam thinks I like him.
Connor doesn't want anything to do with me- why would he ? He's nothing but a heartbreaker.
Some random guy has my number, and apparently we are going to go on a date.
20 minutes later
I leaned back, wiping the leftover tears. Starting up the car, I drove home, hoping to be able to talk to my mum.
Like they say : Mother's always right.
I opened the front door, and entered in a hurry.
« Mum ! You home ? » I called out.
« Pumpkin ? Why are you home so early ? » She asked, looking up in surprise from her computer.
« I-I need you. » I whimpered.
« Say no more. » She said, making her way to me.
1 hour later
We sat on my bed, laughing our heads off.
« You nearly kill some guy and now you're going on a date with him ? » She asked between laughs.
« I guess so. » I said, smiling.
« Wait, he's not some old man… is she ? » She asked me, her eyes wide with fear.
« Mum ! » I gasped, slapping her playfully. « Of course not ! He's like my age. I think he goes to a different high school though. »
« Oh, okay. » My mum said, smiling again. « Just be careful though, he could always be one of those serial killers. » I laughed and nodded my head.
« Don't worry mum, I don't plan on ever seeing him again. » I reassured her. She cracked a grin and leaned back.
« So what are you going to do about your Connor and Liam problem ? » She asked, sounding serious.
I frowned. « I'm not sure. I- I just feel so conflicted. » My mum nodded understandingly.
« My advice- go for Connor. »
My eyes widened and I stared at her for a moment. « But after all he's done. » I said, shocked.
« Honey, you said it yourself. Liam is sweet and kind, but you don't feel any connection. I know Connor has a bad reputation and all, but you should take the risk if you feel that somewhere in your heart, you like him. »
« That's the thing mum. I don't know how I feel about Connor. He's just so confusing, and I don't want to put myself out there just so he can use me. » I said, falling back onto my bed, lying down. My mum copied me so that we were lying together.
« But you guys seemed so happy… » She trailed off.
« I know ! » I said, throwing my hands up. « I don't even know him that well, but he's the only one who's actually tried to get to know me. »
« What about Jess ? I thought you two were really close. »
I sighed. « We are… It's just I don't want to burden her with all my problems. My past. » I added the last part in a whisper.
« You should. » My mum said, sitting up to look at me. « Pumpkin, you need to be able to talk to someone in case you ever have a breakdown. You need someone there for you. »
I nodded in agreement. « You're right. Jessica should know the real me, not just what I want her to know. »
« Now about my Liam and Connor problem… » I said, trailing off. My mum lay back down next to me.
« Oh, just go lesbo. » She said, cracking a smile. (A/N Not meant to be offensive at all)
I burst out laughing, looking back at my mum.
« Thank you. » I said gratefully.
« Anything for my baby. » She cooed, pinching my cheek. I squealed and pulling away, playfully glaring.
As for my problem- I now know what I'm going to do.
Jess's POV IT'S A FIRST
« Calm down you freak ! » James shouted, pinning my wrists to the lockers. I growled and kicked out my legs while continuing to struggle.
« What did you do to her ? » I screamed. I managed to break loose after giving his shin a good kick, causing him to let go and grasp his leg painfully.
« Who ? » He asked, glaring at me angrily.
« Bella ! » I yelled, lifting my leg to kick him again. Suddenly he was in front of me again, and shoved my into the lockers, using his body to pin down mine.
« What has happened to you ? You used to be the shy, quiet girl, who was too scared to even look my way. Now you are some deranged, psychotic, bitch trying to kill me ! » James said as I struggled to push him away.
« Yeah well that was before you screwed with my best friend, asshole ! » I snarled as I tried to find a way to get away.
« You know, all your wiggling against me is kind of a turn on. » He whispered, leaning his face only a mere inch away from mine.
That got me to freeze completely, pressing myself against the locker in attempt to distance myself.
« Look, I know I said some bad things to Bella, and I feel really bad. » He said, pausing. « If I could take it back, I would. »
« You made her cry. » I snapped, glaring at him. He sighed and looked away before meeting my angry eyes.
« She put Connor through a lot. He's one of my best friends and I couldn't stand to see him so hurt. » He said.
« Hurt ? Connor ? » I scoffed. « Whatever you say. »
James frowned, annoyed. « She was a total bitch to him. One minute she kisses him- then the next, she's telling him he's not good enough. » My eyes widened at this.
« Wow…. So she didn't tell you ? » James asked. « Maybe you two aren't' as good of friends as you thought. » With all my strength, I managed to push James away. Without another word, I left.
That girl had some explaining to do.
Bella's POV
My mum left go pick up Luca and Sophie while I decided to stay home alone. A knock sounded on the door. Hmm, I wonder who that could be, I thought to myself, opening the door.
« Oh, hey J-«
« We need to talk. »