Chapter 46: 46

This was a situation that I never thought could happen so quickly in my life. And again, it was a very stressful and unexpected situation that I was in together with Elijah. I didn't know how I should react to what Elijah and I had done before. And I myself also didn't know how to properly say and express everything I was feeling right now to Elijah. Because I felt so scared.

I'm so scared that I'm going to mess things up now. I'm so afraid that my relationship with Elijah will turn out to be tenuous and awkward. I didn't want that to happen to either of us. But I really don't know the right way to proceed with my and Elijah's relationship now. I feel very hesitant.

My footsteps now even felt very weak. I don't seem to have enough strength, just to be able to walk to all the places that I don't even know where I want to go now. I had nowhere to go where I could just think clearly and calm myself down. I can't possibly return to The Bloodlust Moon Pack now.

Not while, my feelings and thoughts have not calmed down at all like now. There was also no way I could go back and brood in the ruins of The Crescent Moon Pack. Not while, there was a possibility that Harrison was still keeping an eye on my old pack there.

After passing through the dense, lush trees in the forest, I was finally able to get out of the forest, and continue my footsteps in the human world now. I thought, this was the right decision for me to make now. Slowly, I sat my body down on the seat of the nearest bus stop there. Then I took out my cell phone that was inside my right pants pocket, and started to open it.

I found several messages and missed calls from Elijah there. They were all messages about Elijah wishing that I could go back to the pack soon. And the other messages were from Emrys and Josiah, with the same content.

I sighed slowly, while closing my cell phone back there. I didn't want to reply to any of the messages that Elijah, Emrys, and Josiah had sent me. I just wanted time. I just wanted a pause. I just wanted to calm myself down. At a time when the feelings I was feeling myself right now, didn't even seem to be supporting my own wishes. Ah, damn it!

I don't know what kind of things I can do now. Not a single idea had entered my mind since I left the Bloodlust Moon Pack and arrived in the human world. The saddest thing was that I began to admit that I myself liked and felt relieved about the things that Elijah and I had done before. How could I like that? Wasn't that wrong? I mean, I wasn't someone important in Elijah's life.

I was just someone who was lucky to get a big favor from him. And why didn't I feel angry or upset when Elijah ended up doing the very first thing I'd ever done in my life. Because, basically, Elijah was doing that with me as payment for all the favors he had done for me so far.

And again, I should have had every right to at least refuse, and feel angry about what had happened. But, why isn't this the same at all? Why did I feel like everything was the exact opposite of what I wanted? I didn't feel angry at Elijah at all. It was as if something in my body was now interfering with my own actions and thoughts. And I didn't like that very much. I didn't want anything else to happen.

"Shit!!! Damn it!!!"

I growled under my breath, with both my palms touching my head quite firmly there. I didn't know what I was thinking and what I was feeling right now. Everything was so thrilling, and I couldn't resist it in the slightest. Damn it. I can't even vent all these things I'm feeling to anyone and anything. I lowered my head quite deeply, and hid my face between my hands this time.

"Hey, Lucia!"

The shouting voice that called my name there, instantly made me lift my head back up and look in the direction the source of the voice was coming from now. And there, right across the street, from the bus stop I was sitting at, Felicity was waving her right hand very high in my direction. Felicity was driving a white car, and was smiling very broadly at me right now. It instantly made me frown a little there. Feeling strange about Felicity being there.

I mean, between the forest where The Bloodlust Moon Pack, and also The Silver Moon Pack, are located, it's quite far. And if Felicity was indeed from Harrison's pack, she shouldn't be traveling this road. Is it possible that something has happened or is happening between Felicity and Harrison right now? I'll have to find out about that.

"Oh, hi, Felicity!"

I returned Felicity's call there, with a big smile gracing my face now. I also waved my right hand at Felicity. After that, I got up from where I was sitting on the bus stop seat, and decided to cross the street, and approached Felicity who was getting out of her car there.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" I spoke to make small talk with her.

"Oh, I was just visiting my family. There was a bit of a settlement. You know, right? The problem between me and Harrison a while ago. And you, what are you doing here alone? Without a car?"

Felicity explained a little as she sighed there. Felicity even began to raise her right hand and gently scratch the back of her neck now.

"Oh, I just wanted to relax for a while. I want to go for a walk, just to calm my mind. And yes, your family? Do they live around this place? And what about the matter between you and Harrison? Is the matter between you two completely resolved now?" I asked curiously.

Felicity immediately chuckled while shaking her head a few times slowly there.

"Well... my family is Harrison's family. I don't have any other family, other than them. So, yes, they live quite far from here, but I wanted to calm myself down while traveling around in this car."

Felicity paused her words for a moment, and wiped her face which was sweating a little now there.

"And as for the matter between me and Harrison, it can't be completely resolved just yet. I mean, Harrison finally agreed to buy our new engagement ring. Although it was very difficult to woo Harrison, so I needed the help of his family to do that. But in the end, Harrison was willing to buy a new ring later. It's just..."

"It's just what, Felicity? Did things get bad and out of hand?"

I asked slowly as I couldn't contain my curiosity right now. I couldn't even stop myself from looking at Felicity with my eyes looking even more curious there. I couldn't help it. And I thought, it would be much better to know everything quickly now. Then after that, I would know what I could do next.

"It's not too bad and it's not too out of control, Lucia. I mean, Harrison still won't speak to me directly, and is completely ignoring my presence there. Harrison won't even sit right next to me, and he's looking increasingly childish to me. I don't know what I can do now. He feels more and more distant from me."

Felicity fell silent again, and bowed her head slightly there. She looked sad. But I was satisfied with that. Because all the situations that Felicity and Harrison were facing right now, had created a huge gap in their relationship. Something that was already in accordance with the revenge plan I had for the two of them. Now, I just need to be able to make that gap even wider, and uncontrollable between the two of them.

That's not a difficult thing to do, is it? I'm sure this is the beginning of the end of the relationship between Harrison and Felicity. And I will be the first one to dance amongst the tears they will cry later now.

"So... what are you going to do now? For the relationship between you and Harrison. Aren't you two going to have a conversation to handle this matter better?"

I asked slowly, trying to remain calm and neutral. I didn't want Felicity to feel strange and suspicious towards me.

"What else can I do, Lucia?"

Felicity sighed quite loudly there. Felicity looked very frustrated with herself right now. And I looked at her with my usual look, displaying a bit of fake sympathy.

"I've even tried really hard to get Harrison to talk. To get him to talk about all the things that happened between us after the engagement ring went missing. But the result was nil. Harrison wouldn't even speak to me, look at me, answer my phone calls, or even reply to my text messages. Harrison wouldn't do any of those things."

Felicity rubbed her face gently with the palm of her right hand, and sighed once more there now.

"This all feels very overwhelming to me, Lucia. I feel so depressed. I can't keep feeling like this. To be blamed for the situation between me and Harrison. I'm so tired that I don't know what else to do to make the relationship between me and Harrison better again. It was as if all my efforts had been in vain. Because Harrison himself didn't want to do the same thing that I had done all this time. I just want the relationship between me and Harrison to be better again, just like before. But I can't, Lucia."

I was silent and didn't know what to say after listening to Felicity's words. I knew how frustrated Felicity was right now. Is it possible for her to give up with their relationship?

"Don't feel depressed like that, Felicity. I may not know much about engagements, and the relationship between two people in romantic terms. But I do know how you and Harrison can restore your relationship to a much better one now."

I smiled a little at that, and tried to pique Felicity's curiosity with the words I had just said to her now.

"Really? What is it, Lucia? Can you say that to me now?"

Felicity immediately asked excitedly, while grasping my shoulders quite tightly now. Felicity looked at me curiously there too

"Don't worry, I will definitely say that to you, Felicity. But right now I really need something to calm my mind first. Do you know of a good place to have fun and let go of all the troubles in your mind?"

I thought, this could be the opening that I would make to the relationship between Felicity and Harrison that was starting to crack now.

Felicity immediately nodded her head with a very quick movement there. She even looked very excited now. And I know that Felicity seems to have started to give quite a lot of her trust to me now. Therefore, I wasn't going to take this for granted.

"I know where it is, Lucia. I'll take you there. And yes, if needed we can both have fun together for a while to let go of all the problems that are going on in our lives. Then, let's get in the car and go there now."

Felicity immediately got back into the car, and I got into the car as well. Not long after that, Felicity started the car at a moderate speed. I feel very confident, if all this will definitely go very well. And I can't wait to get all the results much faster now.

Wouldn't it be nice to be able to see how the broken relationship between Felicity and Harrison starts to look bigger and bigger every time I go on my revenge mission against the two of them?