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Chapter 79
Ren POV
'I'm going to stay away from you'
"Ugh! Why the hell did I say that? Why did I say those shit knowing that I can't do it?" I cursed angrily, running my fingers through my hair.
I reached out for my phone to call her and maybe tell her that I was joking around when I said those words, but fuck it! That'll only make me look stupid, and that was the last thing I wanted. I didn't want to care about whatever happened to her there, I didn't want to think about how hurt she would be upon finding out that her sweet crush has a girlfriend. It would be a disaster, but still, I couldn't help but feel worried about her.
"Maybe I should just call her and make sure she's safe," I muttered, picking up my phone, and just when I was about to dial her number, light footsteps accompanied by a familiar perfume disrupted me, and I sighed knowing that it was Tracy. What does she want now?
"Hey..." I raised my gaze and found her wearing lingerie. A see-through one at that. She wasn't wearing a bra inside, so her hard dark nipples were standing firmly and pointing at me like they were seeking attention. I took a few seconds to scan her body, and how crazy that she was wearing g-strings. Is this her way of seducing me? Well, that was impressive, but too bad it's not going to work on me.
"Yeah," I diverted my attention to her face and found her smiling at me seductively, but I scoffed and rolled my eyes.
"Ren..." She paused and came to sit beside me on the couch, rubbing her fingers gently on my shoulder and down to my chest. She drew some invisible lines on my chest which I didn't see the necessity of it because her trick wasn't working and it was going to be a waste of drawings.
"Have you taken your medicines yet?" I took her hand off me gently and stood up to my feet. She stood up too.
"Yes, I did. Ren..." She wrapped her arms around my neck, pressing her body hard against me like she wanted to switch souls with me. Is she trying to take over my body like Unyudo did to Lee Yeon in a tale of a nine-tailed fox? If you watched the series, then you would definitely understand how the fuck I was feeling at the moment.
"Tracy, can you stop, please?" I removed her hands from my neck and pushed her back gently, trying to be as calm as I could.
"Why? But I want you, Ren," She whined and tried to kiss me, but I stepped away from her and scoffed. Want me? Am I a stick of candy she thought she could have just by wanting me? Ugh! She is crazier than I thought.
"Stop this, Tracy. You should get some sleep. I will be in my room," I wanted to spend time in the living room and have some thoughts, but that didn't seem like it was going to be possible with her around me. Only heaven knows what I have done to be cursed with this frustration. I was already going through enough shit already. Can she not make it worse, please?
Turning to leave, she spoke up.
"Is it because of her?" She scoffed, and I breathed out. Not again, please.
"Tracy..."
"I saw the way she treated you on the rooftop... How she told you off and said that she wasn't interested in you and won't ever be. You are being pathetic begging for her love. Why go to her when I can give you the love you want from her?" I guess she couldn't hold it in anymore and ended up raising her voice, and trust me, those words weren't supposed to have come from her.
"Did you say that I'm being pathetic? Are we any different from each other? You are pathetic too being like this around me when I already told you that I'm not interested in being with you..."
"It's a one-sided love! She doesn't love you and never will! Her heart belongs to Nate!" She yelled at me like she was trying to tell me to come back to my senses.
"Yours is one-sided love too... Or should I just call it an illusion? You know I don't love you and you are still determined to be with me. You know my heart belongs to Lilian, but yet you still want to stand a chance with me. Don't you think that makes us even?" I asked her, and she scoffed, running her fingers through her hair.
"I don't want to hurt you, Tracy... So just stop here, please. Don't push me so hard because you won't like it when I stop being nice..." I paused and took a deep breath. I hate to say this, but I had to make things clear to her, so I continued, "I'm only being nice to you for old-time sake and because you are currently sick. I still have every right to throw you out of my house if you are going to keep being like this, and I will really do it if you push me hard and I can't take it anymore,". Her mouth dropped open and disappointment laced up her lips as she stared at me, but I didn't care much about how she felt because I already told her to stop several times.
"Ren..."
"And that... You should stop trying hard to seduce me. It doesn't work on me anymore," I stated clearly.
"Ren..." I was expecting her to get mad at me or maybe just walk away in pain, but how she still managed to hold herself together even after everything I told her and was still trying to touch me was really crazy.
"Can you please give us a chance? Just this once, and I promise to make it up to you for what happened in the past. Please," She pleaded with me, but I ignored her and left for my room.
I slammed the door hard behind me as soon as I walked into my room, running my fingers through my hair as I paced restlessly.
'It's a one-sided love' I hated to know that those words were true, and now I couldn't stop imagining what could be happening there right now. I know for sure that Nate won't make the first move because I've come to notice that he doesn't have feelings for her, but he's a man and could succumb if she seduced him, yeah? It's crazy, but the truth.
"Ugh! I told you to stop thinking about her," I cursed at myself and groaned angrily.
"What if they are making out now?" That question flashed through my head once again, and when I couldn't take it anymore, I grabbed my phone and dialed her number. You could call me pathetic or whatever, but I've lost my mind. I'm so madly in love with her and can't even think straight anymore.
The call rang for a few seconds and ended.
"Why is she not answering my call? Is she with him? Are they making out? Is he having sex with her?" I asked myself again as I dialed the number for the second time and when she didn't answer, I grabbed my car keys from the nightstand and stormed out of my room.
Descending the staircase minutes later, Tracy who was in the living room crying her eyes out stood up.
"Re... Ren..."
"Don't wait for me and go to sleep. Make sure you lock the door from inside. I will open it with my spare keys when I get back," I said to her and dashed out of the house immediately without waiting to hear the tons of questions she might have to ask me.
"Where the hell are you going? It's past 11pm!" I heard Tracy yell from inside, but I ignored her and drove out of the house in my car.
I kept dialing her number nonstop as I drove to the hotel minutes later, and she never answered the call which got me really crazy. I almost got into trouble for violating the traffic rules, but I was able to dodge it.
I soon got to the hotel which was always opened twenty-four hours, and headed to the reception.
"Excuse me. I'm trying to reach my friend in room 2309, but she's not answering. Can you help me call her, please?" I said to the female receptionist, and she nodded her head.
"What's her name?" She asked.
"Lilian Sanchez," I replied to her, and I guess she looked the name up in her ledger and finally dialed the room telephone number. Guess what? She fucking picked up on the first ring.
"Hello, ma'am. Someone is here to see you. His name is..." She turned to me and raised her eyebrows for me to tell her my name, and I did.
"He said that Ren is his name. Alright ma'am," She finally dropped the telephone and turned to me.
"I'm sorry, but she said she doesn't know you," My jaw dropped when she said those words to me, and I felt my heart wrench painfully. It wouldn't have hurt this much if she had said she didn't want to see me, but denying knowing me was the height of it all.
"Oh... I guess I got the wrong person then. Anyway, I want to lodge here for tonight. Can you give me a room next to room number 2309? I'm going to tip you," I offered, dropping five hundred dollars on the counter as her tip, and the smile on her face showed that she was in.
"Sure, Sir. I will do it for you," She agreed, and not that I expected less, anyway. I just wanted to see and ask her why the fuck she denied knowing me. That's all I wanted to ask her...