Chapter 50

Bella Pov

Going back to your usual life, after leaving a toxic relationship when your life is already fucked up, and the man that contributed to it wanted to come back into your life can be really stressful.

Every night and day, I find myself thinking about the forsaken Hammer. Do I ever learn from my mistake?

Because if I do, there is no how I would have been in this situation.

The most annoying part is the fact of all, is that I am still in love with that monster.

It makes feel so stupid. Just the thought of it makes me engaged in the third world war within myself. A part of me is telling me to move on, while the other part is telling me that he has changed. Of course, am not blind. I know he hasn't changed a bit.

Everyone tells me I deserve better, I know I deserve better but I don't want better, I want him.

Who knows, Maybe he would change for me.

I feel trapped.

I need a break from this spell or bondage or whatsoever it is.

Right on cue, the devil's advocate called to know if I am prepared for the date. This man will ruin me.

I know I should probably listen to Lila and tell him that I will no longer be available for the date to avoid whatever mess am about to get myself into.

I know going there with the intention of finding answers to my question is just a lame excuse. I am going there because I wanted to. Because I miss the good old days, because the memories were not enough. I am going there to either find a reason to move on or give up. It has to be one. Despite everything, I can't find myself giving up on him without a genuine reason as if the one I have is not enough. Damn, I am messed up.

Completely smitten by his charms.

We decided on meeting in some fancy restaurant close to his office.

I took my car keys and drive there.

I got there a few minutes earlier than our scheduled time so I took a seat in the corner and deliberate on what to do. Should I leave while I can or just hear the nonsense he have to say? Well, I choose the later.

I felt comfortable at my seat as I studied the people that goes in and out without being noticed.

This place provides the best view. You can literally see everything going on without anyone seeing you. It makes me feel superior to others and I just enjoy the view as I sip my chilled juice at peace.

Armani walked in with Michael behind him and I begin to get suspicious. I immediately put my phone on flight mode in case he tried to call me.

Luckily for me, they sat down in front of me but the frame in front of me couldn't let them see who was behind them.

"Why are we hear?" I overheard Michael asking Hammer.

"I am meeting Bella here in a few minutes."

"Is there another Bella I don't know about or it is the same Bella that we both know, Lila's friend?"

"Yeah, he said, but I can't see either of their expression. Only she will be foolish enough to see me after everything."

"I agree" Michael said with a loud laugh.

They begin to talk about business related stuff and I ease drop on their conversation without getting noticed.

"I heard it was you who took Davis to the hospital. Why would you do that?" Michael asked annoyed?

"Well, I just couldn't leave him to die like that. I needed to get some information from my father and I can as well use him to my benefit. James would never be able to escape the trap I am about to set for him." Hammer said arrogantly.

"I couldn't care less about those people. The only reason I am obeying father's order is because I want him to think I am on his side. Soon enough, he will regret ever trusting me. And Davis in which he left to die if he could will turn out to be the good son, but when he finds out, it will be too late and by then, Davis will loathe him, perhaps, even more than Lila because of what he had done and he will have to spend the rest of his miserable life alone."

"Not completely alone, Hammer corrected. He would still have your darling mother beside him."

"Sure" Micheal agreed and they both laugh at the thought.

This is pure evil, not only did they send Davis out of the house, they were all involved in his accident. How can someone be so cruel?

So all of these is planed by Micheal. And his siblings are merely pawn in his game. What a psycho.

Listening to their conversation alone makes me want to throw up. I feel so disgusted and I just want to cry. Lila have to go through all of these because of her brother's greed? All this while, we thought Michael became James puppet so that he wouldn't be picked on and then this?

I was about to talk so that they can know I heard their conversation when Micheal suddenly bring up my name again.

"What are going to do with Bella?"

"She is the easiest one among them all. Mess with her head a little and you will have her wrapped around your finger. Easy."

"What if Lila finds out?"

"First, she can't. And if she does, it makes it all better. She is just as helpless as the rest. There is nothing she can do other than cry about it."

"You will be surprised at what Lila would do and to what extent she will go for Bella."

"That is nothing to worry about, I can take care of it."

Omg, Lila's life is about to get even harder because of me. But then, what relationship does Hammer have with Lila?

Then, it hits me. Even if Hammer did not have direct access to Lila, Michael does and he can instigate something in James that can prompt whatever plan they have to be successful.

Dammit, I can't keep this from Lila, certainly not.

I brought out my phone and dialled her number then I remembered all along, my phone was in flight mode.

First, I need to get out of here before I can talk to Lila to avoid getting caught and today is her first day in school, she probably needs time. I will text her instead, when I get home.

I had to wait for complete two hours before I can leave the restaurant because I couldn't have leave when Hammer is still around.

When he figured I won't be showing up, he left angrily and I had to wait for another thirty minutes to ensure I don't run into him.

The drive from the restaurant to my apartment is about an hour but I don't know what is with the unnecessary traffic today, making the journey longer than it should.

I dialed in Lila's number immediately I got home but she didn't pick. So I sent a text instead.

" it is him" I typed with the intention of narrating everything to her but I figured we should talk about it probably on phone or physically, whichever works better.

I was still contemplating over it, when my hand mistakenly press send.

Good, now she will be worried and confused.