Pieces of You

Hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin mawaksi sa aking isipan ang nangyari.

Kahibangan ngang sinulat ko pa ang kwentong iyon.

The thought of killing them just to feed my own satisfaction and fantasies haunts me for a long time now.

Selfishness does no good but suffering. Kaya siguro ako nakarma ngayon dahil sa pagiging makasarili ko.

Thus, a part of me have long missed that place. A certain place where all the chaos started.

I remembered being happy.

I remembered sharing laughters with the people I love.

And I remembered falling in love.

All of a sudden, things were out of hand.

I rejected eudaimonia.

I was trapped with the twist of fate.

Bumalik na naman ang mga alaalang pilit ko mang itago sa aking isipan ay patuloy na kumakawala.

Pati ang mga damdamin ay bumabalik. I wish he lived.

Kahit na ang sakit, mas pinili kong lisanin ang mundong ‘yun. Ideal nga siya pero hindi naman masaya.

I always dreamed of a complete family, a sweet and loving boyfriend and a true friend pero sadyang ipinagkakait ito sa akin ng mundo.

I stared at field of tulips around me. Ang gandang pagmasdan.

Naalala ko na naman siya. The cold winds have touched my hair and briefly swing it.

Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko at pinakiramdam ang malamig na hangin.

This situation brings back a lot of memories. Pain, love, and guilt.

Hinayaan kong tumulo ang luha ko at napapikit.

“I love you, Hennessy. In any worlds, in any universe.”

How did I end up leaving him with the fate of death?