Chapter 19: LEAVE ME ALONE

Since we don't have anything to do today, Anna, Betty and I planned to go out. This is the first time that I'll be going out with Betty, this is a good idea. I have a chance to get to know her more since I just knew her from being rude, lol. "Let's buy some souvenirs!" Betty seems so excited, I smiled while looking at her. We went to the nearest mall and looked for a souvenir shop. I'm planning to buy some clothes for Samantha and Klare. "Aemee, this looks good on you," Betty still kept her rude aura while handing me a black above the knee dress, she's cute. Anna is busy checking some stuff at the other side of the shop. I accepted the dress she's handing and looked for a dress as well that will suit her so well. I got mesmerized by a raffles white dress, this will look good on Betty, for sure! I cheerfully handed it to her. "Betty, I think this will suits you perfectly, try it," "Yeah, of course, every thing will surely looks good on this beautiful face," She said while accepting the dress, Anna and I just laughed when she said those, she looks cute when trying to be rude to me. We checked every souvenir shop for almost two hours. We didn't realize that it's 12 in the afternoon already. So, we decided to go grab some lunch at the nearest restaurant. -------------- It's 12 in the afternoon and my meeting just ended. I was thinking about Aemee, does she already eat her lunch? "My meeting just ended, how's your feeling today? Did you eat already? Please, message me back." After I send the message I stared at my phone screen and wait for her reply "We're having our lunch here at the nearest restaurant, I'm okay now. Let's talk later." Smile drew in my face when I read the message she sent me. My secretary just ordered us food because I decided to eat my lunch in my room. I messaged Samantha to tell her that Aemee is going to talk to me later, I just want to update her even though she's not asking, cause, why not? I'm just excited. "You're acting like a kid again, Clifford, but yeah, that's good, you two should talk, just behave yourself there and think before you speak something, okay?" I replied to her message and didn't receive any messages again from here, she's really busy aren't she? "Clifford, Just leave me alone. Stop doing these things." It's 8 in the evening, Aemee invited me for a talk like this? "I'm just trying to help, Ae- "For Pete's sake! Stop acting like a child, Clifford, I have a boyfriend and you should know that what you're doing can create commotions." She stood up from the bleacher where she's sitting, at the Garden that this hotel has. I looked at her with an emotionless face. "I'm not asking anything from you, Aemee, I'm not asking you to give me such attention, I'm not asking you to give me a chance cause I know it's not possible for you to do it, but please, just let me do this, by this I was able to spoil you with my love, don't worry, as I've said to you, I'm not asking something in return." She closed her eyes and massaged her forehead. This is torturing me! She excused herself and left me there all alone. Fvck! What did I do to feel this pain! I looked at the sky and smiled out of pain. "Hey! Is this the karma you're talking about when you're still alive? You forgot to tell me how painful it is, Monique, but I'm trying my best not to do the same thing again. Don't worry I've learned my lesson." I whispered as my tears kept on falling. ------------ As I closed the door, tears kept falling from my eyes, I just felt so guilty while he's saying those things, I didn't deserve that kind of love. Clifford, deserve better. I'm just thinking how unfair the destiny is sometimes to other people, why it's allowing two people to meet when in the end they'll not end up together. Some people just want to love and to be loved but why is it pain they are receiving, how unfair it is. When I got hurt from my past relationship, I promised myself not to be someone's heartbreak, but here I am now causing someone in pain. It's true that you need to think twice before you take action because there's a consequence ahead in every wrong decision you're making that may lead you into a tough situation or worse, that careless action of yours can cause someone so much pain. I called Klare and told her the whole story. "It's better that you talked to him, Aemee, to prevent mix signals, but we can't expect Clifford not to get hurt, his feeling is valid, Aemee, you know that," She's laying on her bed while talking to me. I just sighed as I remembered Clifford's face awhile ago. I appreciate everything he is doing, but, it's just that, things may get complicated if I don't stop him, he should know that Axel is now in the pictures. "I just hope that Clifford understands everything that I've said, things are different now, I'm now taken and I don't want Axel to get hurt he doesn't deserve it." "Clifford doesn't deserve it, as well, Aemee, you knew it, right?" I took a deep breath as she uttered those words, I'm so guilty. I never imagine that I'll be in this kind of situation. This is stressing me out, this makes my head hurt so bad. I can't think of another solution now but to keep distance from Clifford to prevent commotions. He doesn't have any choice but to accept the fact that what happened to us years ago is just a one night stand, that's all nothing more nothing less.