Chapter 65: Runaway again

I got outside to my car, and I decided to text Ziya.

(Hey girl, I will be away for a couple of days, can you look after the gym?) I said and she just replied with a (Okay).

I get into my car and start my engine. Driving to my family tree house. 3 hours away from the main city. I usually go there to calm my nerves.

I sped off and after 3 hours of driving, I reached my family tree house. I get out. And there it is. It is a wooden house, a double story, and everything is created with wood. It is built in the middle of the forest, but there are other houses around as well, so it is not so scary.

I get inside and turn the lights on. Seeing that everything has been cleaned. Last year, I decided to put a few spare clothing in each location, just in case I randomly turn up.

I get inside my room, and turn the bath on, putting some sea salt and bath bombs, I take all my clothes off and step inside it. Letting the hot water take me.

I close my eyes and think about what happened with Zain and Armani, tears building up in my eyes. I decided that I wouldn’t fall in love again if this was how it would end up with every guy.

I pulled myself up and sobbed at my luck. What is the chance of me opening my heart to a guy last night and sitting here broken today? I sobbed as my water went cold. I picked myself up and rinsed myself, I walked out naked and into my closet, picking a pair of shorts and a tee. I put them on and headed downstairs, to get something to eat. I had loaded the kitchen with food that wouldn’t expire. I had noodles and canned food.

I head into the kitchen and make a bowl of spicy noodles.

I set on the table and decided to turn my phone back on. Just as I open my phone I get notifications of text messages. They were all from Armani.

(Where are you?)

(Can you please just reply)

(I am getting worried Xhani)

(Goddam it Xhani, answer your phone)

I could see he was worried, so I decided to call him and end everything so that I wouldn’t need to go back and see him again.

I dialed his number and called him.

“Hello, where are you? Armani said, sounding very worried.

“I have just come out to a family home, I need to speak with you?”, I said.

“Okay, send me the address and we can talk”, he said, and I could hear him getting into his car.

“No Armani, I do not want you to come here, I am just calling you to tell you that whatever happened between us is over”, I said as I held myself, not wanting to break down on the phone.

“Look I am sorry for how I acted before, but can you just send me your address, I will come to you”, he begged, his voice filled with anxiety.

I took a deep breath and said “No Armani, I have made up my mind, I do not want to go through this again, so please don’t call me again, or text me and if you can, don’t come to the gym again as well”, I said, he was about to speak when I hung up.

Armani kept calling but I turned my phone off.

After finishing my food, I headed back to the room and decided to rest.

I closed my eyes, and the darkness took me away.

A few hours later……

Ding Dong...

I woke up to the sound of my doorbell.

I groan in annoyance and get out of bed, looking at the nightstand, I see the time, and it is just past 11 pm.

I walked down the stairs and opened the door. As soon as I opened the door, Armani jumped inside and hugged me, holding me tightly.

Shocked, I froze on the spot, wondering how he found me here.

After a few seconds, I gently pushed him off myself and took a step back. His eyes widened at my action, and he started gathering words to say to me.

“Xhani, Look… I… I messed up” he said but I cut him off quickly.

“Hey, don’t apologize, I forgive you”, I said, looking at him with a smile.

I saw a big smile curled up on his lips, after hearing me say that he was forgiven. But I knew that I still couldn’t allow myself to be close to him. I did not want to get hurt again, so I said, “But Armani, whatever was between us ended, I have no grudge against you or any hard feelings, but I cannot be with you. I never wanted to get into another relationship after Zain, but you came into my life and demanded that I be yours, and I went with the flaw. And now I think I should’ve stayed with my decision. Anyhow, I loved every moment we spent together, but it all ended from my side”, I said and saw Armani try to take a step closer to me, his eyes filled with tears and sadness.

But before he could speak or I change my mind, I turned around and said, “Please don’t force me into this relationship, and please leave, I have said all I needed to, and there is nothing you can do or say that will make me change my mind”. I walked back up the stairs, leaving a broken soul behind me, halfway down the stairs, I stopped, and without looking back, I said, “Please lock the door after you leave”, and with that, I left him downstairs to gather his feelings and left.

I got back into my room, I slammed my door shut, and slid down, tears rolling down my cheeks.

Why am I so unlucky? I said to myself as I cried on the floor, hugging my knees to my chest.

I don’t know how long I cried for before the sleep took over my tired body.