Chapter 32

Forbidden love is always the strongest I try to repeat it over and over again in my brain, I try to believe these words that I will never forget from the book that came from the world of people.

I want to believe it, I want to embrace it and keep standing. But how? How can forbidden love be the strongest? If at the very beginning of my struggle with this, my own family is opposing and trying to hinder me?

I immediately released Dastan's hug from me and just stared at him dumbfounded.

"Dastan.." how could he say this to me?

"I can't, I can't.." I shook my head at him several times.

"That is the only way to get rid of him, just reject him.." snapped Zen.

"What kind of thing are you asking me to do?! Do you hear yourselves? How can I reject my own mate?!" I shouted loudly to all of them.

"Then what do you want Lily? We will definitely kill him. We won't let him live anymore.." my eyes immediately warmed up and I knew for myself that they were red.

"Don't you dare Caleb! I will never forgive you if you kill him! And the moment you take his life I will take my anger to death!" I listened to my brothers cursing at the same time for what I said.

"I thought you're smart Lily, I always admire you for your every decision. But please, listen to us. We are not doing this because we want to torture you, don't you understand what your majesty explained to you? it is not just about our family Lily, it's all about the whole empire of Parsua Sartorias. There are many sensitive innocent vampires under our control.." Evan calmly explained to me.

My tears flowed again.

"How? How can I reject him? werewolves can die because of mate's rejection. Are you telling me to kill my own mate?" I just sank into my palm while continuing to cry.

"Or he'll turn into a rouge, alone and packless. He can also lose his sanity. Do you think I can be this cruel to my own mate? Do you think I can hurt the man who was assigned to me? I will ruin his life if I did reject him..." I understand what my brothers want. Yes, they wanted me alive, they are just protecting me. But can't they put their feet on my shoes? It's not a joke my situation "He won't turn into rouge Lily. He's an alpha. Alphas are better than normal werewolves, they can take mate's rejection without any damages yet it is still painful.." I wanted to slap Evan for what he said. So my brother did some research for me to dump my mate easily.

Dastan remained sitting on my bed while he just watched me. He tried to touch me again but I didn't let him anymore.

"I can't, I can't. I can't do what you're saying.."

"Lily!" they all almost shouted at me.

"Just let me run away, I'll just run away from this empire. Just let me live with him. I want to be happy with him, I can't hurt him. I'll die if I hurt him. Part of me is him, how can I hurt half of my life?" I begged them.

this is the only way, both Adam and I will leave the two races that are trying to separate us.

"Run away?!" My brothers' voices got louder with what I said.

"Are you fucking out of your mind Lily?!" Zen is stubbornly cheap. I just saw that he kicked the wall of my room hard.

Both of my brother princes lost their calm posture. Finn, who kept walking back and forth as he adjusted himself, Evan took several deep breaths to stop the increasingly intense thunder and lightning outside the palace. Caleb is already sitting and slumped over a table.

Casper, who was dumbfounded, and Harper, who couldn't stop crying, remained standing on the side of the bed. While Dastan is still not leaving my bed.

"This is the only way.." I said softly to him.

"Fuck!" they are all cheap at the same time. except for your majesty, Casper and Harper.

"Do you think, we'll allow you to do that Lily?" this time Dastan returned to being calm.

"Then, what? You're still trying to tell me to leave the man I was destined for? That I should reject him? why don't you direct me yet? You wanted me to kill my own mate! Why are you so cruel?!" I want to hurt them all! Why doesn't even one of them understand my situation? why? Is it because I'm the only one who has experienced meeting what was destined for me? How about Zen? why can't he understand my situation?!

I saw that Zen was about to speak to me but he took it back and instead punched the wall.

"If I run away, no one will sympathize. You will not sympathize, only me will our entire race return. Sartorias will not be affected, no war will occur, no innocent vampires will be disturbed. Just let me run away and carry all this problem alone. I don't want you to sympathize with my problem.." they all stared at me as if I had said something that they would never accept.

"Are you telling us to leave you alone Lily?" wrinkled when Caleb asked me. he didn't pay attention to the table that was suddenly broken by the strength of his forces.

"Fvck! What again? Let you run and what? Die? You won't last a day or two Lily. Both of you will just die out of foolishness! Do you think we can allow that thing happened to you?! do you think we can just sit here and watch you running away with the thought that the next day we'll see your lifeless body?" Evan was also angry.

His majesty just kept staring at me as if he was analyzing my reaction to what my brothers were saying.

"Why is it so hard for you to understand Lily? There is no chance for you and that werewolf! Don't you remember what we witnessed in Halla Eberron? The female wolf and the vampire? They killed them without any kind of hesitation!" I've only seen my siblings have this kind of emotion once. And I never thought I would witness it at the same time now. My chest will not stop hurting.

"Listen Lily. We don't fucking care if we'll be involved in your problem. this is not the reason why we try to separate you from the wolf. We don't care if we kill each other. We will always be by your side no matter what happens. We are Gazellians, we fight together and we die together. but it's a different matter if the entire Lily empire is affected, we're not the only vampire brothers in Sartorias.." Caleb explained at length.

"That's why I am not involving this empire anymore. Show that you know nothing. that I did run without your knowledge.." I answered determinedly.

"Are you mockingly insane Lily? We're going to show that you betrayed not only our race but also your brothers and sisters? Are you telling us to make your sin even heavier? It's like you're telling us to just let you die!" I could almost see the vein in Zen's neck.

"Oh fvck, my head hurts.." Caleb said irritated.

"What should we do, Your Highness? She's not cooperating with us! We can't just let her do what she wanted. he'll kill himself.." Finn said desperately.

Your majesty was about to speak when a soldier rushed into my room. My brothers should have scolded him as he bowed quickly.

"Your majesty, the first and second groups of our soldiers are ready. They are positioned at the border of our empire.." I frowned at what I heard. What's happening?

"What's..what's going on?" I asked confused. Why is it necessary to bring out the troops?

the soldier came out quickly after he got the news.

"We don't care if anyone sees or notices your mark Lily. The people of Halla Eberron have a strong hatred for wolves and there is a high possibility that they will come here and throw all the blame on you. race traitor and a spy. Do you think we'll let you go when this happens? We'll fight even if we have no certainty. The soldiers are ready in case of a sudden attack.." explained Evan.

My tears flowed like a river again while watching my brothers. I can feel the weight of the tension between all of us. with all the possibilities that could happen, with all my decisions that have a huge impact not only between Adam and I's love but also the creatures that surround us both.

I love Adam, I love him so much. but if loving him will kill endless innocent lives, how can I continue loving him?

My brothers will not let me go, they are willing to mortgage the entire Sartorias just to protect me despite the weak state of our empire. I don't know what to think and do at this time.

Adam, I'm having a hard time deciding.

I just found myself sinking to my knees while sobbing.

"You know how I hate myself crying, you know how I hate myself being this weak. but I'm confused, I just fell in love. I just fell in love, you can all leave. Leave me alone first, leave me alone first. I will comfort myself alone.." I said bit by bit while not looking up at all of them.

"We never wanted you to feel alone Lily.." I listened as his majesty said. My hair stood on end when Dastan gently caressed my head as if I were a child he was caring for.

I can also feel the movement of my bed one after the other. until I felt Evan and Caleb gently put their foreheads on my shoulders.

"We're not mad at you Lily.." Evan whispered.

"We don't want you to raise your voice either.." Caleb whispered. What they were saying made me sob even more.

"We hated it when you cry a lot.." Finn said as I listened.

"I want my bitch sister back, tearless and always gorgeous.." Zen said.

"Lily.." Casper and Harper called me at the same time.

when I slowly raised my eyes, they were both sitting on my bed while surrounding me. They were all watching me.

"You need to rest Lily..." when Dastan's eyes started to turn red, I slowly felt weakness in my body until I closed my eyes.

only kisses on my forehead and some soft whispers were the last thing I felt until I was completely swept away in my deep sleep.